u/rationaldegenerate_

I didn’t even notice myself getting addicted to fast food but I did. Just 3 months ago I only ate it maybe once a week. And now that I’ve gotten my new job and am living with my parents I have more money. It started because I made a deal with myself that I’ll save 70% of my paycheck and I can spend the remainder of it on whatever I want. So I saved that 70% and still had a ton of spending money. And I finally decided to treat myself to more fast food. An extra fast food treat turned into fast food twice week in about a week. And then in 2 weeks it became fast food 3 days a week. It wasn’t a financial problem bc I kept my promise but I just craved it constantly. Before my job I always wanted more fast food but told myself no when I couldn’t afford it without spending my savings.

But now I’ve gotten so greedy! I didn’t even pay attention to just how much I was getting it. I just thought hey I have the money and let it happen. I feel like a complete fatty. I always get a large portion of food as well. And my belly feels so fucking full after. All my clothes are so damn tight! My belly is starting to jiggle and my ass and tits feel massive. But I can’t fucking stop. There isn’t a financial reason to keep myself in line. And I can’t help myself. My belly sticks out now and I feel all of the extra weight. And I did this all to myself. All because my only moderation rational was money. The second I got the means it all went to fattening up my belly.

I’m such a pathetic fat ass! I could have used that money on a decent laptop, new shoes, or makeup. But I just love fast food more. Heck I could have gotten a high quality gym membership, but my fat ass wouldn’t use it. I’m destined to be a fatty! And I deserve to be completely teased for it.

Like the title says I just can’t stick to stupid fucking diet. It’s only day 3 and I can’t stop thinking about McDonald’s and candy. It’s this stupid 1200 calorie diet full of grilled chicken, eggs, cottage cheese, oat meal, and veggies. It sucks so bad. Not to mention I have to go to the gym 4 times a week.

I already couldn’t help myself today and for dinner I just lost control. I ended up eating a brat and lemon bread as instead of my salad I had planned. It just wasn’t enough, I’m daydreaming about all the candy I have down in the kitchen and ordering McDonalds. And ugh I could have booze, icecream, and some donuts as well. I know my late night snack should be tuna and rice, but ugh fries, burgers, and soda! It’s like I can’t help myself and I’m just destined to be a fatty. I’m just so pathetic that I can’t even manage a diet for 3 days without cheating!

And I’m so sore and tired from just going to the gym for 30 little minutes yesterday. It hurts so bad and I only walked on the treadmill. I was so fucking slow on it and chugging water the whole time. Not to mention how much I just wanted to lay in bed all day eating! It felt like torture. How do these fit people even do any of this!?!?

Ugh the thought of just giving it sounds so good. I could cancel that gym membership before I get charged and just eat whatever and whenever I want. God it’d feel so damn good. I’d just go back to having a tummy full of treats all day everyday. Letting it all get bigger and bigger. I mean who cares how big, flabby, and heavy I am when im constantly pampered with treats. Plus I could just feel how good all that jiggly flab feels on my tummy constantly. It’d stick out so much and I’d feel so damn hot looking in the mirror! Ugh and no more grilled chicken and veggies for dinner!

I am scared of being a fatty because people will see how little self control I have and how damn greedy and indulgent I am. It’s so embarrassing I can’t even keep a diet for 3 days! But just giving in sounds so good! Maybe I deserve the teasing because I just truly can’t keep a diet. Maybe I’m just a fatty in denial and will always just be a fatty with a giant tummy.

Ugh I give up… I’m getting McDonald’s. I can’t control it!

All I ate today was junk food and fast food. I feel huge. And I’m just stuffing myself tonight because eating fast food feels so good. I’m moving and honestly I’m just tired of worrying about being economical and reasonable about my diet. So I’m just eating all the fast food and DoorDash I want. It’s just too much effort to tell myself no. Plus seeing how full my belly looks is so hot to me! I just don’t really care tonight. I got all the DoorDash I wanted. I got a dominos pizza and some McDonald’s and I’m just going to eat myself happy. I’m also drinking some booze because I can’t move it all and want to enjoy a bit of it. I feel like such a fatty today I had jimmy John’s for lunch, had some left over Culver’s icecream as a snack. And am eating McDonald’s and dominos for a midnight meal. And I’m just laying around drinking as well. I feel fucking massive and my tummy feels huge rn. I’m not even hungry I’m just eating because it feels good. God I need to be teased!

I wanna be fucking massive. Ugh I’m so tired of being a slim woman I want more curves and flab everywhere. I want my belly to stick out so far and get so damn heavy! I want to feel just how far it sticks out and how jiggly and heavy it gets. I want my belly to be so fucking fat that it’s the first thing people notice! I want all my clothes to fucking cling to it! I want it to jiggle in front of everyone as I waddle! I want my tits to get massive! I want giant fat chick tits. My 34DD (ok it’s too small in the cups lol) is nice and all but I’m just busty for a slim chick and there is not nearly enough jiggle and flab there. It like nothing. I want way way bigger.

I want way more weight there and way more flabby jiggles. I wanna feel them move even more and feel how fucking heavy they get while they rest on my tummy or jiggle! Big boob aren’t enough I want obese girl boobs. And I want my ass way way bigger. Mines currently a slim athletic shape and modest but I want constant jiggles and it to constantly stick out and get in the way. I want my ass so fucking big that jeans struggle to contain it and I want it constantly looking overfed and greedy. I want it squishing everywhere when I sit and I want it to be so soft and comfortable when I sit down. I want it so fucking obese! I want my whole body jiggling constantly and it to all feel massive and heavy!

I want look at my body and see how damn greedy and indulgent I am. I want to be the fattest woman in the room. And I want to feel all my folds and giant belly constantly. I want to look like all I do if stuff my fucking face and beg for treats. I want to be so fucking fat I can only shop in plus sized stores and all my clothes are tight on my belly! I want to feel like the pathetic fat chick who’s huge compared to all of the other women. I want to just have bigger everything compared to other women all because I can’t stop fucking eating! Being too damn fat to shop anywhere else but plus sized places and constantly feeling huge for it. And damn do I wanna brag about just how huge I got.

Hi so I’ve always very much been a feedee (and also a feeder) and am very much into feedism. For me I’d say it’s most of my sexuality. I feel a very strong pull to live out my feedee side and gain but am unsure. I’m worried about the health risks and reduced life expectancy. And I’m also worried about society and being able to access things like healthcare, clothing, and fitting into spaces.

I have seen that most overweight and obese people aren’t able to lose the weight statistically as well. And I have seen that having a bmi over 35 takes 10 years off someone’s life on average and have seen statistics here : https://www.researchgate.net/figure/Life-years-lost-associated-with-obesity-related-diseases-for-US-white-and-black-male\_fig1\_245027999.

I’m considering if gaining is worth it given the health costs. I currently am a 5’10 and 150 pounds and a cis woman. I’m by no means a health fanatic and I’d say i typically eat a lot of processed foods while not consuming enough calories to gain. That’s my typical lifestyle. Even with my current lifestyle I am no where close to taking on the health risks excess weight would create. Yet at the same time I want to be fat and live out what I find attractive.

For people who have deliberately chosen to gain what was the decision process like and what pushed you to choose to gain even with the risks? And for those who chose against it what do you do to manage your attractions?

Also for those who chose to deliberately gain what did you do to archive it?