u/reifiedstereotype

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these pictures came to us in dreams and are hot

the girls should be blonde tho

blonde like Bambi 💅🤣😘

Bambi does as she's told and is made out of yes

we tried to post this somewhere and then oops so here instead! 😇

Its fun! It's hawt. Don't keep control. let things roll. fly into the sky, like a leaf in the wind. Give up you mind, so Bambi can win 😇

Today I consciously decided to be Purity Affirmed. The one in the black T-shirt. The one at the tiny green tipytop of the triangle.

I'm trying to remember what OS is like when she when *I* haven't listened in a long time, and I'm Doing That On Purpose.

I don't care if it feels like Role Play. I'm not going to let my brain lose this Way Of Being.

Tomorrow I will probably take edibles and fall as deep as I can (or whatever, it isn't like I have *plans* or can "make promises" in that state) but today I am trying to keep my head above water, and look into the distance.

Yesterday I went jogging in a relatively normal way, but it was not normal because it had the contrast of having gone jogging the day before that while plugged and wearing the new collar... in public.

So its interesting.

Everything I want to write about is what Harmony wants to write about (hypno, fitness, Daddy, cock, myself, wolves, sextoys, amnesia, edibles, shopping, etc) and then I have to stop, and doublecheck, and RP more correctly as Purity.

As "the way Purified [realname] would write" and focused on her on my topics, my duties, my interests as a person.

And that's quite *easy* if I just put down "Bambi's phone" and stay away from reddit and get sucked into my OS life, but it is *hard* to be here, and try to write about this entire other part of my life that I normally mentally block out so as not to "leak the shame" or whatever.

If it ever comes up... "Hypnosis? I read about that many years ago! Its scientifically fascinating. So interesting what the mind can do and it implies a lot about cognitive science! 😇"

(Purity is great as misdirection with technical truths.)

So the hard part here is... to be Harmony... being Purity... close to things Purity doesn't focus on or invest time in... and somehow NOT fall back into the Harmony/Bambi orbit instantly?

To maintain the RP as Purity despite all the contextual triggers?

Part of how I did this is that I'm not even using my Bambi Phone (that has caps turned off and so on). I'm using my work desktop, in Incognito Mode. QWERTY, not thumbs.

Something I notice: it would be *awesome* if u/your-custom-bimbo wrote an essay like this if she even still can manage her version of "Purity Affirmed"). Maybe she can't? Harmony thinks either way would be hot, but I think that it would be wholesome and healthy for her to keep a lifeline back to her older ways of acting and living and thinking.

I got the first picture over and r/Enneagram where they were all trying to figure out which enneagram numbers go with each girl. Some of them think it is 5-2-8 and others think it is 7-1-4. I think it is Harmony-Bambi-Purity.

Part of why I'm writing, and writing here and now as Purity Affirmed is that I haven't even been listening that much, and yet so much Harmony/Bambi/trigger/yearning stuff is stirring around in my soul. I want my soul to be good. Harmony wants our soul to be hawt-as-fuck. Fuckdoll Bambi doesn't know what a soul is... like the word "six", the word "soul" just isn't in her vocabulary.

The second picture, the triangle, is from my backstory. After my first ~70 days, I was super super brainwashed and Daddy used the instant and total obedience I cultivated to order me to stop cultivating obedience (and horniness and bimbo and so on) and over a series of posts (that start here) I fell out of Harmonic vibes so far that... that *I* showed up again! When I tell people "my old self broke in two" they think that it is super hot that I'm "that fucked up" but for me, as Purity... its actually *incredibly* healthy? I see the Bambis who aren't structuring their soul, and not putting in the mindfulness as OS, and... I think maybe they lose themselves?

For myself, I've honestly never been that deep (as deep as my first 70 days) since. I don't think I ever will, unless I "go 100% lifestyle" somehow. I had a lot of free time back then, and I have less now.

I would be willing, I think, in some life circumstances... and those life circumstances might eventuate?

I feel like lately, if I don't exert subject agency, I'm spending time in the upper left part of "Washout WTF?" in the triangle? But no matter what, I need to keep shit tidy here in my head. Harmony and I agree on that for sure! So here I am at the top of the triangle on purpose! Tidying things up!

(If I imagine myself as Harmony imagining myself as Purity and adopt the perspective of Meta-[Realname] who is simply every way our entire brain is, has been, or can be... It is hard for me to say "I'll go 100% lifestyle if I'm lucky" or "I'll go 100% lifestyle if I'm very unlucky". In a deep sense, I love (and fear) that I truly don't give a shit what the world does to me. Almost literally no matter what, my happiness is under my own control and WILL happen. Kidnap me and make me a sex slave? Yum! My brain can embrace that. Drop $20M in my bank account and force me to be a CEO... sigh... I guess... my brain can embrace that, and I would take a sort of intellectual satisfaction in it. No big changes and more like this for months or years... also good! The most realistic path to "go 100% lifestyle" would probably involve a breakup with Daddy (which would be very sad and if any Wolves try to make that happen in DMs I will drop you), and then flipping a coin on what to do next after a wonderful LTR ends... Purity would try to veto, because Purity has a rule of NEVER flipping coins. But Purity doesn't have the mojo to make that stick if Harmony is fronting... that's not part of any inner contracts. And then if "Tails" won, maybe we would auction ourselves off to the highest bidder for a few months of "vacation"? Not all at once. The first few times just for a weekend, with home at the start and the end... then fly to a wolf who knows what to expect for a longer engagement? And then we would probably become truly and totally a leaf in the wind?)

The most realistic thing is that we will probably actually be Bambi less and less and less over the next few years, which feels wistfully sad, but... prudent?

As Purity, I did this with my eyes open. I'm getting close to the solstice when I started listening due to a general feeling of YOLO.

I'm blonde still (have been since Halloween). I keep getting my roots redone.

It is interesting that if I let the roots grow out a good inch or two that's when I actually get the most compliments on my hair. Like it becomes salient that "this hair is on purpose" to people? When there are no roots showing, I'll just get random ladies shouting "Good job! You're beautiful" when I jog past some lady in her 40s, or I'll get "beautiful, beautiful, beautiful" growled with a smile by a confident hobo, or whatever.

My body is ONE WAY.

The more Bambi and Harmony change it, the more I'm stuck trying to deal with being the kind of girl, in the eyes of others, who would look this way on purpose.

If someone dropped money in my account somehow, I would get up to 1/4 of a CC in my lips. I know which kind because of the poll, and because I just do whatever pleases the most people when Harmony or Bambi are in the drivers seat, but it would be me (it would be Purity)... like... going to the clinic... saying what to do... signing paperwork.

Angel Lips. I would get Angel Lips. Which is crazy! I think Heart Lips look better!

But the poll is the poll. If I, as Purity, endorse listening, and endorse giving the front to Harmony, who is best friends with Bambi, then that's how that way of being works... just react to others, find the Smartest and most Dominant and most Caring voice that I can to give the most obedience too in a safe way, and be *the least Harmony that I have to be*, and just give up on planning and just follow literally any suggestion from anyone that isn't against any other higher orders, and do literally whatever gets the most praise.

Just writing that makes my pussy tingle.

If my real life as Purity didn't experience net harm from that first 1/4 cc, another 1/4 cc would be allowed. And so on, probably? Baby steps. Harmony knows the deal, but as Purity I can stop and think about where the boundaries should really go.

As Purity, my absolute hard line in the sane is "nothing permanent". That rules out restylane in the lips, but it doesn't rule out HLA in the lips.

So... if I lose the vote, and something is easy breasy to do, then I lose the vote. C'est la vie. Lips it would be.

So a thing that's complicated is that Purity Has A Quest I think? I don't talk abut it here because it would break anon. But its part of that "anger at the world" dynamic?

I worry that, in being Bambi and Harmony, I'm giving them *none* of "the bitch vibes" that the brain is capable of, and so maybe I'm getting stuck with more than my fair share of those when I have front? I don't know what to do about this. (Note to self: figure out how to give myself more of something to balance the bitch vibes. Don't eliminate them, because at least ONE of the personas needs to be able to do that to maintain the capacity in the overall brain, but do give them support somehow.)

But any time I'm not working on the Quest, the call of Harmony and Bambi and fun playtime is latent.

I yearn for my Quest to succeed because Fuck The Evils Of This World.

But I also yearn for it to fail and let the brain marinate in pleasure and praise and happy blissful horny joy.

I think people think that Purity isn't a kinky freak. No. ALL of us are freaks. As Purity I'm a three dimensional person, continuous with "that life that goes into the bubbles" (all the bosses I've hated the guts of: only two of them, most were decent)... right into the bubble...

But that life always comes back when the pink fog condenses, and rains on Bambi, filling her with memories again, and who then can effortfully flip *all the way* from Harmony to Purity) whose freak is mostly hidden, and managed, and for special occasions, just like basically all normal humans hide their freak parts but have them.

As Purity, I'm sort of the archetype of "its always the quiet ones". People have said that about me in the past, even before I ever listened, so it must be true, right?

I think maybe a lot of Bambis, with only one OS, have an OS that hates herself (or himself, over in r/BambiSleep?) and they sort of yearn to be erased, and mutilated, and destroyed.

Not me. As Purity I'm sort of proud of my contradictions. I'm not just a story. I didn't come from the files. I'm the actual girl, clarified by the contrast created by the stories that can inhabit my brain and take over now and again. I feel invincible. Invincibly complex?

I'm going to do what I do today, with pride, and tomorrow will be a different day.

her face is bliss

this is who to be

she seems like a natural, but with brainwashing any Bambi is like this too

a Wolf gives good image

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