u/scifibrat

And for being terrified of actual intimacy as well. I’m not a prude, I’m more vulgar than most people you will meet.

Sorry i frequent nsfw art spaces a lot and I’m realizing that a good portion of people in these spaces not only have experience but a LOT of it and I’m afraid people are going to baby me or even worse, think I’m lying about my age. I already have developmental delays due to both autism and sexual trauma and I just. Ughhhhh.

IM A FUCKING VIRGIN BUT HOLY FUCK I HATE HOW EVERYONE WHO IS NOT A CIS STRAIGHT MAN IS EXPECTED TO LOOOOOOVVVEEEE PENETRATION BUT IT FUCKING HURTS!! I DONT EXPERIENCE ANY SEXUAL PLEASURE FROM IT AT ALL. IVE TRIED WITH DILDOS AND FINGERS BUT IT HURTS AND IT MAKES ORGASMS WEAKER!! GOD!! DO I HAVE TO ENJOY THIS?? IT FEELS JUST AS INTRUSIVE AND WEIRD AS DOING THE FUCKING COVID TEST THING IN THE NOSE!! DO REAL PENISES FEEL BETTER?? JESUS CHRIST PLEASE TELL ME REAL SEX DOESNT FEEL LIKE THIS. I DONT LIKE THE STABBING PAIN ON MY CERVIX THANK YOU VERY MUCH FUUUUUCK YOU!!

(Afab btw)

Edit: I think I have a really fucking shallow vagina lmao

I feel like most of the people on here fantasize almost exclusively about being a victim but I feel like the only one who fantasizes exclusively about being a perpetrator 😭😭😭

Not a bad thing btw it’s just funny, I didn’t even know people fantasized about wanting to be a victim in this way until becoming active on here.

Also I don’t enjoy the idea of roleplaying any of this, or roleplaying in general with real people, it’s only ever with fictional characters. I’m also a girl and only a girl in real life. But I fantasize about being a male in fictional settings, and only in fictional settings. Crossing over into roleplaying as a sadistic man irl would feel silly instead of sexy. My sexuality presents in extremely bizarre ways. I’m a cishet woman but a bunch of stuff is scrambled in my head.