I want my friend to use me after what he did
I’m friend with this guy who I kinda hate and like for the fact that he can say really hateful and misogynistic stuff but he is reliable when i need him. He goes partying a lot and i usually don’t go with him because I get tired easily since I have to travel to where he lives as well.
But one day I came to find out from his friends that he assaulted this girl while he was drunk and luckily my friend wasn’t reported to the police and im saying luckily for the fact that even tho it’s a bad thing I would be bit taken back if I saw him to go to jail. But only his friends know about this.
Lately I’ve been thinking about what stuff he did to that girl, because his friends told me few details and I try to remove this thought but I desire that he does that to me as well. He is quite few years older than me like he could nearly be my dad but I like the age gap and I also want him to take over my body like he did then to he. I know it’s wrong but I can’t help imagine how it would be if he assaulted me.
I keep touching myself to the thought of it and I’ve also invited him over for one night to hang and see if I wear sexy Clothes will he take advantage of me because rn I’m really hoping.