u/spatialgranules12

I have a task - one last task to earn grooming appointments for the weekend. I think Ive been a good sub and completing tasks throughout the week. This one last task involves an anal plug which I am…still lacking in training. I’ve done it before at his guidance. I tried doing it on my own and I was unsuccessful. The dom is MIA because he’s sick. I think I can do it. I want to slow but he’s very pedantic. And I worked so hard. It’s getting in my head.

I should have a go at it, right.

My dom has been very diligent in keeping me within my workout schedule and calorie restriction and it finally yielded results. I got my bloodwork done and the metabolic markers are below - and the kind that will make your doctor happy! so I shared it immediately with him. He said “ I’m happy things are finally moving in the right direction” but I was on full on praise and adoration for him, lots of gratitude. The weightloss journey isn’t done though so I’m sure he’s careful to not praise me too much. I really honestly couldn’t have done it without him and making me accountable. And I want him to know that!!!! Does it make it awkward for him? I enjoy praising my dom, expressing my yearning for him and his body and his control, complimenting him and how smart he is, how well he does at his job.

Are doms shy?

I’m trying to keep busy but the day is almost over and he hasn’t checked in. It is taking a lot to not overthink. I’m on a 10-day punishment and it doesn’t help. I miss the attention and attentiveness. But he is busy. It just sucks.

UPDATE: I guess the universe has a way of reaching out. He’s finally checked in….to apologize that he’s not giving me the attention I deserve. I am thankful that he has acknowledged it but I’m so off my game now that I’m overthinking that this is a prelude to goodbye. Gotta quiet my brain!!!!!!!!!!