u/to_your_crown

I had a several years long relationship as the doting and loving cuck to a beautiful hotwife/gf/cuckoldress.

It was the hottest, mostly emotionally powerful experience of my life. I've tried vanilla dating, but it's not the same anymore.

Sometimes, I just want to tell someone about it.

This relationship lasted from my late 20s to my mid 30s, and the cuckold dynamic was present for the last 5 years or so, only ending when the pandemic started.

Initially, we met with several men on a more casual basis, but eventually found a regular, consistent bull who we connected with on an emotional as well as physical dimension. He didn't live in our city, but would travel there for work about once a month, and we would see him almost every time he was in town, including hosting him overnight on several occasions. She and I remained very much in love through this, and I do think we were able to grow closer by sharing such a powerful secret.

Dating since this experience has been difficult for me. I'm not sure if I can be emotionally fulfilled in a relationship that doesn't have these elements.. but it's a difficult thing to bring up with a new partner.

I'm interested in exploring and discussing the physical and emotional aspects of this lifestyle with a fellow cuck, bull, hotwife, or just an interested party. Not interested in rp, really.

I had a several years long relationship as the doting and loving cuck to a beautiful hotwife/gf/cuckoldress.

It was the hottest, mostly emotionally powerful experience of my life. I've tried vanilla dating, but it's not the same anymore.

Sometimes, I just want to tell someone about it.

This relationship lasted from my late 20s to my mid 30s, and the cuckold dynamic was present for the last 5 years or so, only ending when the pandemic started.

Initially, we met with several men on a more casual basis, but eventually found a regular, consistent bull who we connected with on an emotional as well as physical dimension. He didn't live in our city, but would travel there for work about once a month, and we would see him almost every time he was in town, including hosting him overnight on several occasions. She and I remained very much in love through this, and I do think we were able to grow closer by sharing such a powerful secret.

Dating since this experience has been difficult for me. I'm not sure if I can be emotionally fulfilled in a relationship that doesn't have these elements.. but it's a difficult thing to bring up with a new partner.

I'm interested in exploring and discussing the physical and emotional aspects of this lifestyle with a fellow cuck, bull, hotwife, or just an interested party. Not interested in rp, really.

A shameless repost here, but still searching for my person, and this still applies. Happy reading, I hope!

An open letter to my future partner

Trying a bit of a different exercise. I have a fairly specific version of who I'd like to find, some day, and I wanted to address that person.

Of course, it's always a little silly to carry such a preconceived image of a future partner, someone I haven't met yet. But I think in a way, we're all doing that a bit. Hopefully we're pleasantly surprised by the similarities and differences between our imagined soulmate and the fully realized version. At least, I hope to be.

In any case, here goes:

To my dearest,

It's been such a joy to know you and to grow with you, and I can't get over how special our relationship has been, and how much I've gained to have you in my life. You know how I like to overthink things, so I just wanted to take a moment to take stock of everything we have.

My biggest regret is that it took us so long to find each other. To think I lived until my mid30s before I had you in my life. What a shame. What a better, rounder, fuller man I would have been, with your input and influence!

But what luck to find you at last! Among the most important parts of our connection. Like me, you like to laugh and to joke, and you like to think about what makes things funny. You appreciate my wit, and you have your own cleverness that catches people off guard sometimes. You know how hard I work to make you laugh, and you can see the joy it brings me to make you happy. Some of our best, closest moments come when I go out of my way to entertain you, to see you smile.

We have similar, often complementary interests. You're a lover of the outdoors, like me, and we spend a lot of time camping, hiking, and biking together. Health and fitness are important to you, and it's a joy to me to build each other up and work out together. We both try to eat healthy, but we're not religious about it, and neither of us are teetotalers.

Most of the time, our relationship is very vanilla; I don't walk around the house in a collar, and you'd laugh if I addressed you as "Mistress" in front of our friends. But the FLR undertones are always there. I work extra hard to ensure your comfort and happiness, and in moments of disagreement, I defer to your wisdom and judgment. If you make a specific request, I meet it. You and I both know that this respect has to be earned, and you take the responsibility seriously. You don't abuse my trust or your power, and I am extremely aware of how lucky I am to have such a thoughtful, compassionate decision-maker in my life. Your leadership is good for both of us individually and for the two of us as a couple.

Behind closed doors, things are more explicit. You assume a naturally dominant role in the bedroom, and I do my very best to always follow your lead. For both of us, your pleasure and satisfaction is always the top priority. To that end, I am always worshipping your body, every chance I get. By far my favorite act is to bring you to orgasm with my tongue. I've spent considerable time learning your body and being receptive to and inviting of your feedback.

By mutual agreement, we've come to realize that it' not a great policy if I orgasm whenever I feel like. During our play time, you often lock me in a chastity cage and wear the key around your neck. It's freeing to me, to not have to think about my dick for a while. I can focus purely on your pleasure.

There are times when you like to tease me outside of the bedroom too. We both appreciate the cfnm power dynamic. Sometimes you like to have me nude in normal settings around the house, just to watch me blush. You know how much I love attention from you, even when you're teasing me.

In our more excitable moments, our sex life can be very kinky and traditionally femdom. You like to watch me squirm in restraints, and we have several collars for me, depending on your mood. You've nurtured my interest in anal play. Although I could hardly take a plug when we first met, you've worked with me to be a good little slut for your strap on. We both have an appreciation for size, and though it hasn't been easy for me, I've been proud of my ability to take bigger and bigger toys, always with your patient but firm guidance.

When I fail to please you appropriately, you let me know. You've spanked my hard enough to leave marks on my ass, and your hand has crossed my face on more than one occasion. You can be very rough with my cock and balls, both to punish me and for your own amusement.

Sometimes your words can sting too. You don't want to destroy my ego or turn me into a doormat, but sometimes your emotions do get the dc of you, particularly if I'm not behaving. I wear your frustrations as well as I can, and I know that you'll always cuddle me and care for me afterwards. You're also open and honest in your thoughts about my body. You appreciate my appearance and my level of fitness, and I stay in shape to make you happy. You're not shy to point out flaws either, and I know that it's always out of love that you only ever refer to it as my "little dick." It makes all the more sense to me that you'd want something small and of little use locked in a chastity cage

I know that you're not always in a mood to be dominant in bed, however. I also know that I can't be the person to give you what you need in those moments. Given everything else about our relationship and our power dynamic, you'd burst into laughter if I ever tried to control you in the way that you control me. No, you require other men for that. Masculine, alpha men, who are better equipped to please you than I am. I encourage you and help you find them, and it brings me such joy to know that you're getting that pleasure. Sometimes, I'm even allowed to watch and assist, but this is always up to your discretion.

At the end of the day, all that matters is our love for eachother and our connection. Our shared belief that your judgment, your needs, and your pleasure are all more important than mine. As long as we have that foundation, we'll continue to take on the world.

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I had a several years long relationship as the doting and loving cuck to a beautiful hotwife/gf/cuckoldress.

It was the hottest, mostly emotionally powerful experience of my life. I've tried vanilla dating, but it's not the same anymore.

Sometimes, I just want to tell someone about it.

This relationship lasted from my late 20s to my mid 30s, and the cuckold dynamic was present for the last 5 years or so, only ending when the pandemic started.

Initially, we met with several men on a more casual basis, but eventually found a regular, consistent bull who we connected with on an emotional as well as physical dimension. He didn't live in our city, but would travel there for work about once a month, and we would see him almost every time he was in town, including hosting him overnight on several occasions. She and I remained very much in love through this, and I do think we were able to grow closer by sharing such a powerful secret.

Dating since this experience has been difficult for me. I'm not sure if I can be emotionally fulfilled in a relationship that doesn't have these elements.. but it's a difficult thing to bring up with a new partner.

I'm interested in exploring and discussing the physical and emotional aspects of this lifestyle with a fellow cuck, bull, hotwife, or just an interested party. Not interested in rp, really.