u/toyo8926

I have been into feedism most of my life but have live it like a double life. I have a hard time giving in and letting go of the facade that I have created in my "in person life", but when I'm by myself I so strongly desire to be with someone, and better yet a community, who encourages and lives a lifestyle of freedism and weight gain. I recognize that this is also a sexual desire, and have come to the place that I can't get aroused unless I'm having thoughts of weightgain (either mutual or feedee/feeder). Crazily enough I sometimes even fantasize of someone stealing me away and to make me their personal fat partner (or pig). It is almost my own personal torment to live in the place of duality. In my own time I will listen to audio hypnosis and watch videos of weight gain and obesity encouragement...when I feel safe to do so, I buy unhealthy foods and stuff myself with as many fattening calories as I can.. constantly watch the scale and hope it climbs, and get excited when my clothes feel tight, or I feel like my body is getting fatter. I love seeing this in others as well, both men and women. I have a natural attraction to women but seeing other men gain weight inspires me. If you are in a similar place or wish to chat with me, please reach out, as this is a lonely place to be just by myself.