Sub space and ADHD
Hi kinksters. This is a cross post from BDSMpsychology so I apologize if you have seen this before. Im just continuing to look for advice.
I'm looking for people with personal experience of having ADHD and reaching sub space. I am having a hard time dropping in because I am easily distracted or my mind wanders off mid scene. It's not that I'm not enjoying what my Dom is doing but I find myself starting to think about to-do lists or work responsibilities.
Another thing that happens is I become self conscious that I'm not doing something correctly or that I'm not good enough. My Dom has assured me and reassured me that he is proud of me and impressed with me but... something is often nagging in my head that I'm not good enough, or that he isn't happy with me. Sometimes I even wonder if he's mad at me. This might be indirectly related to my ADHD and more to do with childhood trauma, etc. I'm not sure!
I deeply want to experience the euphoric state of subspace. I want to fully submit to my Dom. I wish to go to a place where I'm basically nonverbal (we have set hand signals for if I ever get to that space and need to stop). Does anyone have experience they'd be willing to share or advice? Thanks in advance!