u/tylersub2021

I know I'm going to get judged for this but I sorta need to talk to someone because I'm losing my mind.

Love my partner, she's great, everything's fine on the surface. But I've been repressing this part of myself forever and I can't do it anymore. The only person I've even thought opening up to is my sister. I've known I was bi since before weve got together but I buried it deep, thought I could just ignore it.

I can't. I think about it constantly now. I need to know what it's like before I die wondering.

Whilst I've floated vague "what if" questions, she shuts them down hard. So this would be completely behind her back.

I want to find a dude who can host, is discreet as fuck, and understands this is a one-time thing (maybe more if it goes well, but let's be real). Someone who won't catch feelings, won't blow up my life, and knows how to keep a secret. I don't want to hurt her, I just... I sorta need this experience. Just once.

I know I'm a piece of shit. I know. But I'm hoping someone here has been in this spot and can tell me how to navigate it without destroying everything. How do you find someone trustworthy? How do you cover your tracks? How do you compartmentalize after?

Also random addition but if we vibe and you're into it, I've always been really into Roblox to cope with stress and I sorta want someone to play Roblox with afterwards.