u/whitegenfail

I recently turned 20 and ive been into this for about 6 years now, but i did not have the resources or time to pursue it properly, i would do dress up here and there, use a household object as a dildo, make-up, and ofcourse purging and PNC, the usual stuff.. that was until couple of months ago.

I started accepting it as an actual part of my life, I was able to get a job that would give me atleast 2 hours a day where i could be alone before family is also back from work. I have bought a cute small pink chastity cage, a proper dildo that im in love with, girly clothes, temporary tattoos.

My days now consist of me waiting the entire day to be back home and teasing myself while locked, the second my door is closed behind me i am already naked, dildo in my boi pussy and plapping, while all dolled up and i absolutely LOVE IT! For the remainder of the day i keep my buttplug in and the chastity till bedtime, but i do remove my buttplug for sleep because im still not too used to keeping it for long periods of time yet but i try to keep the cage on as long as possible at a time.

Sadly sometimes theres still couple of days where i cant really pursue it but its way less than it was and now atleast i can actually pursue it for most of the week.

I am now looking to actually meet up and try the real thing, and move out soon so i can have more freedom and be the best sissy i can, i got so many stuff i want to order and decorate my home in.

Am i too far gone to back out, or am i on the right path. Id love to know what your thoughts on this are!

I recently turned 20 and ive been into this for about 6 years now, but i did not have the resources or time to pursue it properly, i would do dress up here and there, use a household object as a dildo, make-up, and ofcourse purging and PNC, the usual stuff.. that was until couple of months ago.

I started accepting it as an actual part of my life, I was able to get a job that would give me atleast 2 hours a day where i could be alone before family is also back from work. I have bought a cute small pink chastity cage, a proper dildo that im in love with, girly clothes, temporary tattoos.

My days now consist of me waiting the entire day to be back home and teasing myself while locked, the second my door is closed behind me i am already naked, dildo in my boi pussy and plapping, while all dolled up and i absolutely LOVE IT! For the remainder of the day i keep my buttplug in and the chastity till bedtime, but i do remove my buttplug for sleep because im still not too used to keeping it for long periods of time yet but i try to keep the cage on as long as possible at a time.

Sadly sometimes theres still couple of days where i cant really pursue it but its way less than it was and now atleast i can actually pursue it for most of the week.

I am now looking to actually meet up and try the real thing, and move out soon so i can have more freedom and be the best sissy i can, i got so many stuff i want to order and decorate my home in.

Am i too far gone to back out, or am i on the right path. Id love to know what your thoughts on this are!

Every single night i look forward to it, and i just cant seem to stop. I know how bad and irreversible the side effects are but i still find myself locked in a cage and plapping to BNWO constantly.

And to be honest i do want a family sometime in the future but i guess deep down i know i dont deserve it as a pathetic whiteboi sissy waste that i am. I deserve to go infertile even if i dont want it.

And the fact that i keep getting closer to it every single day and cant stop frightens me so damn much, because after that, I genuenly am at the point of no return and am in this for life, but the fact that it scares me makes me want to do it even more and tells me that its the right thing to do.

The fact that one of these days my load might come out completly watery and useless..

I recently turned 20, still a virgin, locked and plugged plapping myself with my BBC dildo every night, training my holes like a good gurl, it scares me but i love it and wouldn‘t trade it for anything in the world!

Every single night i look forward to it, and i just cant seem to stop. I know how bad and irreversible the side effects are but i still find myself locked in a cage and plapping to BNWO constantly.

And to be honest i do want a family sometime in the future but i guess deep down i know i dont deserve it as a pathetic whiteboi sissy waste that i am. I deserve to go infertile even if i dont want it.

And the fact that i keep getting closer to it every single day and cant stop frightens me so damn much, because after that, I genuenly am at the point of no return and am in this for life, but the fact that it scares me makes me want to do it even more and tells me that its the right thing to do.

The fact that one of these days my load might come out completly watery and useless..

I recently turned 20, still a virgin, locked and plugged plapping myself with my BBC dildo every night, training my holes like a good gurl, it scares me but i love it and wouldn‘t trade it for anything in the world!

Every single night i look forward to it, and i just cant seem to stop. I know how bad and irreversible the side effects are but i still find myself locked in a cage and plapping to BNWO constantly.

And to be honest i do want a family sometime in the future but i guess deep down i know i dont deserve it as a pathetic whiteboi sissy waste that i am. I deserve to go infertile even if i dont want it.

And the fact that i keep getting closer to it every single day and cant stop frightens me so damn much, because after that, I genuenly am at the point of no return and am in this for life, but the fact that it scares me makes me want to do it even more and tells me that its the right thing to do.

The fact that one of these days my load might come out completly watery and useless..

I recently turned 20, still a virgin, locked and plugged plapping myself with my BBC dildo every night, training my holes like a good gurl, it scares me but i love it and wouldn‘t trade it for anything in the world!