Having Weird Feelings for Mom
I created this second account because I need to get a few things off my chest as it relates to my mom. For starters, no pics or anything like that will be shared so please be respectful. My experience will probably look different than what you might see and read on this forum but I will do my best to break it all down.
To begin, I am 19 and will be turning 20 in a few months. I have a really good relationship with my parents and both work professionally. I would say that I am a tad bit closer to my mom. My parents both look good for their age and take care of themselves by working out. My mom does yoga and Peloton. She is 45 and really does look great for her age. Now while I was never attracted to my mom in a sexual way, my feelings began to change about a month ago. I'll preference by saying that I do not want to have sex with my mom.
It all started at a family BBQ. It was a great day and noticed my mom looked exceptionally good. She was wearing a cute sundress and she had her hair in a side braid. There was something particular about her in a sundress that made her look sexy AF. I couldn't help but look her waist. After looking closely, I could see the subtle outline of her thong panties under her sundress. It wasn't too obvious but you could definitely see the straps hugging her waist and the thin fabric to where the thong disappeared between her cheeks. An absolutely incredible site and found myself walking behind her throughout the day while trying not to be too obvious about it. I feel guilty because she got me really hard.
Later on that evening, I jerked off bc I couldn't take it anymore. I felt guilty afterwards. In the days and weeks following this, I have been so hot for mom. I've had fantasies where she comes into my room wearing just a bra and thong. In others, she jumps up and wraps her long legs around my waist.
I can't believe I am admitting this but a few days ago I was super horny. And while I never thought to do this before, I snuck into her room and found her underwear drawer. It was OK bc they were out for the evening. I took one of her black thongs and went back to my room. I laid it on my chest and jerked off. I was careful not to get them stained or anything like that. It was so intense as I've never been so hard in my entire life.
I feel guilty but I am hoping this all passes. Maybe I am just extra horny and going thru a phase? I have no idea. Hoping it all gets better. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest!