Starting to doubt myself about changing.
Hey everyone I'm kelly 38 F married mom. And I want to admit that I am a serial cheater. Yes I know I am a horrible woman and person. I have cheated on my husband for most of our marriage 15 years. Honestly growing up I saw my mom with a lot of different men so I really thought that cheating was a norm thing.
I know now that I am wrong and that something might be wrong with me. As of recent I have been having battles with myself. Like I don't want to do this anymore I stopped sleeping with other men and sort of became a huge loner. Cause of this like I no longer talk to other men I just work go home do what needs to be done like dinner laundry spending time with my family and shut myself out from the world.
I want to see a therapist but honestly I am embarrassed and ashamed of it cause how cheating is frowned upon. I just want to be normal but feel like I'm just a lost cause and so undeserving.