On the plus side, while trying to work out how much I could take I found an incredibly effective position and now I've entirely changed my kind about taking it from behind.
Just for context: I am "librafeminine", AMAB and pre-everything. 22.
For some days now I've starting considering finding a casual partner to finally lose my virginity, as I want to do that, but also there's the fact that I'm on onlanzapine and my equipment isn't working well, plus that afaik hooking up with women is harder (and I lose fun if I don't have my equipment working unless I got pegged but where am I going to find that) ... so I decided to have sex with men even though I'm not attracted to them, using Grindr or Scruff.
The problem is that I need equipment like condoms, lube and an anal bulb for that... But I bought them all online because it's the most secretive way...
Except that today at about 1 (AM) I text my mom to not open the package of things that arrives and she is like "ojo con las cosas que compras" which is like saying "hey careful with what you buy" but that "careful" is in a very ... let's say doubting/judgemental way ... Like sigh, I managed thankfully to get those (only the condoms so far) without her noticing but still.
But here's the part that pisses me off the most ... the other two things arrive on monday ... while she was supposed to be at work except that for my fucking luck she got a WEEK off at work precisely this time?!?! Even though that doesn't happen regularly at all?? So basically now I'll have to be at home nervous as fuck that she doesn't figure out what I'm buying.
I also wanted to buy a few buttplugs to train myself but ... now I obviously can't, too risky, have to wait till next week.
Worse part... Precisely today somehow the topic of anal came up and she called gay men putting things up their butt "abhorrent" like yeah fuck you.
And this is only the first part.
I feel like I really can't get privacy at my home situation, I live in a small apartment with her, and well, the only real place I could possibly hide my sexual tools are in my bag since that doesn't get checked and even then I better make sure that I keep it an eye on it at all times. I really want a fucking job but I'm an unskilled loser... But I'm going to try to do some courses, I also want to go to college because that gives me more time out of home to do things by myself if I want to, that if I don't go to a virtual one which seems likely and would be further doom.
And the thing is, if I went out on saturdays/sundays at random to well, have hookups, that would inevitably invite questions from my mother and my father if she tells him (my father lives somewhere else) so pretty much my plan is using every time I go to therapy as a cover for it, since it's reasonable I could be outside a further 30 mins to an hour... Possible, or use the times where I return from school after lunch ... (about 12:30 - 14:00) since she's not here.
Sigh, whatever, rant over, the bad thing is I also feel like I'm being "spoiled" since after all I do depend on her economically and in other ways for now, but holy shit how I long to be free.
We need more fanfics of trans guys fucking plowing trans girls
Edit: also just had the mental image of a trans girl topping a trans guy but in a "cishet way". As in she's wearing a strap and pegging him in the ass. I feel like that's something that would confuse the hell out of cishet people.
Like even though I don't have a boyfriend so hardly much time to use it, I decided to get it so I could imagine how it feels being on my knees for him. But now part of me wants him to be on his knees for me? It's definitely an odd feeling.
I've always wanted to find porn of a transmasc person fucking a transfem person in the Amazon position, which should presumably be renamed in this context, but whatever. Does this exist/can anyone recommend anything? Videos, pics, art, whatever. If not, does anyone find this idea as tantalizing as I do? I would love to be the transmasc top myself 🤤
Hi all so last night me and my bf had sex for the first time. And I topped for the first time. I wasnt entirely sure how to wear a condom but I had read up on how to before and did my best. For reference ive been on HRT for over 5 years now and hes pre HRT. Now for the last 3 months I was on mono E but recently got back onto a t blocker. Last time I came a bit of white stuff came out and idk if that was sperm or not.
Anyways we had sex last night and it was great. Until he finished riding me and pulled out, and to see to our horror that the condom came off in him. Now were both worried that he could be pregnant. Obviously whatever happens is gonna happen, and ill be here for him no matter what. But im just hoping someone ANYONE can offer some advice to help us calm down a bit.
For reference I was on Bica for 5 years, doing 2mgx5 of E a day with prog for over three years. I was only off of Bica for a few months and am now on Spiro. I think technically I should be sterile or infertile now but im not sure. And no he was not ovulating, and we're both anxiously waiting for his period to come in about a week and a half. Please help
I don't know if you have the same experience, but I can't seem to find content that suits my tastes—let me explain.
It’s always an top cis man with a bottom trans woman, or an too trans woman with a bottom or feminized cis man; but when it comes to an top cis woman and a bottom trans woman, that kind of thing just doesn't exist—we’re always portrayed as the active ones, which isn't very realistic.
Do you know of any place that has this kind of content?
Hi all so im a trans woman and recently started dating a trans man. I really like him so far and were getting along great 🥰. The problem is I struggle to cum during sex because of the pills I take, so have taken to just getting him off as many times as I can/he wants and then I just cum when I get home. My main problem is that there isnt a lot of ST4T porn, and thats what id like to use because I dont wanna imagine anything else rn lol. I fuck him, so id like to watch stuff with the Trans girl dominating and fucking the trans guy. Problem is like theres only one video of that on Pornhub 🫤 and its cut short so you pay for the whole thing. I would love to support the creators of this as long as its amatuer but I just dont have the money rn. Is there like a good source of ST4T somewhere that im missing?