I have had a hotwife fantasy forever lol
I keep trying to give it up but it keeps coming back so I’m thinking I’m just hiding a part of myself and maybe I should just be vulnerable and share
How long am I gonna fight it?
We are a Muslim couple both 33.
I want to explore things with her but idk how to convey it for fear of creating awkwardness and judgement. I also don’t want to ruin anything between us and also idk what she truly likes or what she would be into. My wish is she’s freaky and into some fun stuff but idk that
I did mention to her we should have more fun and be more open and when I say we should try new things she just says you pick but like I can’t just choose something randomly lol
Is she just too shy? Or is she afraid of me judging as well? Idk
She’s fairly reserved and religious and I’m her first so it could be that she’s just shy and not sure what to explore but idk love it if we became more open and communicated about our sexual wants and desires as well
We have great sex otherwise. She hates giving oral but loves receiving it which I love giving but part of me sometimes wishes I could receive it too but I make myself be okay with the fact that we do have great sex which is plenty to be grateful about
Still any way to break the barrier with her about this…sometimes it sucks I so badly wish we could open up to each other about this haha
Thinking of trying spicer but it has some suggestions or questions on there which might freak her out like threesomes etc