u/Bad_kittn3672

I just can't seem to connect with people. I genuinely don't know what I'm doing wrong. I am newish to the community. Although I don't even know if that is valid enough. I'm 43 about to turn 44 and I discovered the world of kink when my ex-wife and i split 2 years ago.

In the beginning I went to a few classes on consent and poly discussions ( i was just curious) I've been to a bdsm club and watched so.e impact scenes which i enjoyed but they were all hetero. I still haven't watched a scene with two women and I've never been to a dungeon or anything.

I've gone to a few vanilla social events. Honestly i stopped attending things because it was always hetero pairings, I'm an introvert and truly have no friends so going to these events alone was really hard and then I'd just melt into the background.

I've tried to make friends online, I've tried dating apps. I get ghosted or their profile is obviously fake or couples. I'm on a few discord groups, but those get overwhelming. The few times i try to talk or connect on the discord channels i get no responses. Its been YEARSSSSS since I've had sex or any intimacy with someone. I'm tired of trying but i don't want to be done. Its

Sometimes I feel fine about it all and others its so fucking lonely.

All I know is I'm submissive and I may be a Little as well. TBH I don't feel like i belong in this group or the MDlg group because I've never had a D/s dynamic or relationship or done anything more than read about D/s and MDlg. I know its not the case, but it feels like everyone is cute, pretty, petite, thin and young. I'm maybe a little cute but I'm none of those other things.

Life just gets very frustrating and discouraging sometimes. It's just so hard and lonely. Dating is hard, I've been on two dates since my ex-wifeand I seperated 2 1/2 years ago. Haven't been intimate with anyone in longer than that. I can even think of the last time someone just hugged me because they just wanted to. Meeting new people is hard. Making new friends is hard ( I don't really have any friends). I get close to people but it just seems to fizzle out. I've never experienced lasting friendships.

I feel like i will never truly be able to experience my submissive or little side.

I need a new car. I need to move out of my ex-wife's house. We get alone fine, i just want my own space. But its a slow process because my health only allows me to work part-time. I wish I had health insurance.

Mostly I'm just lonely and want to feel loved, and seen and wanted and needed. I've never truly felt seen before.

I was alone for so long before i got married and part of me feels like that's just the way it's going to be. Someone can only hear so much about the right person being out there for them before they stop believing it.

Idk why I'm on this negative train right now. Haven't felt this way in a while.

Hai!! I'm a late in life submissive/little. I am knew to all things kink and have not had the opportunity to explore anything.

About me, I won't sugar coat it, I'm a fat girl, bbw, whatever you want to call it. I've struggled with my weight always, I have accepted that. I'm 43, with short dark hair and tattoos. I'm not femme/girly but I also don't consider myself masc/butch, although I do wear mens clothes because that's what's comfortable to me.

Little me: I am very much NOT a princess little who likes the little lacey ruffles and things. I feel like my little is between 4-8. I like reading, coloring, puzzles, cartoons and cuddling and stuffies. I don't want to wear diapees or pull-ups but I like the idea of breastfeeding.

Submissive me: I'll be completely honest again I don't have much sexual experience...😔

I just want to give up control and explore. Restraint, rope, impact.

I'm not just looking for a dynamic, i want a relationship too.

My ideal partner is between the age of 35-50. I'm attracted to all types. Femme/masc/butch. Whether you are identify Mommy or DD, just no poly. Its just not my jam. Ideally you would be a combination of both gentle and not so gentle. And be willing to be patient with me. Oh and you have to love animals and can't be allergic, me and my furbabies are a package deal!

If this at all intrigues you feel free to DM, AND DON'T message if you're just trying to get off or are under the age of 30. I'm not going to send any nsfw pics. Be ready to verify.

Hai!! Like the title says I'm older than ALOT of the littles here. I'm a late in life Little😆. I recently discovered the kink lifestyle a few years ago and I'm the type of person who likes to delve in and educate myself to understand things. That's how I became so good at my job without going to college. 😊 With that being said I have had zero opportunity to explore my submissive or Little. I just know. I read alot and I just devour any books that are D/s or MDlg.

My ex-wife and I have been seperated for about 2 years now and no chance of us getting back together.

About me, I won't sugar coat it, I'm a fat girl, bbw, whatever you want to call it. I've struggled with my weight always, I have accepted that. I'm 43, with short dark hair and tattoos. I'm not femme/girly but I also don't consider myself masc/vutch, although I do wear mens clothes because that's what's comfortable to me. Currently in NC but once we come to an agreement on our divorce I think I want to move. Its difficult to explore anything here as my ex-wife is very ingrained in the kink community here and just makes it a bit awkward.

Little me:

I am very much NOT a princess little who likes the little lacey ruffles and things. I feel like my little is between 4-8. I like reading, coloring, puzzles, cartoons and cuddling and stuffies. I don't want to wear diapees or pull-ups but I like the idea of breastfeeding.

Submissive me: I'll be completely honest again I don't have much sexual experience...😔

I just want to give up control and explore. Restraint, rope, impact.

I'm not just looking for a dynamic, i want a relationship too.

My ideal partner is between the age of 35-50. I'm attracted to all types. Femme/masc/butch. Whether you are a Mommy or DD, just no poly. Its just not my jam. Ideally you would be a combination of both gentle and not so gentle. And be willing to be patient with me. Oh and you have to love animals and can't be allergic, me and my furbabies are a package deal!

If this at all intrigues you feel free to DM, AND DON'T message if you're just trying to get off or are under the age of 30. I'm not going to send any nsfw pics. Be ready to verify.