u/Careful-Pilot870

I don’t know what’s happening to me but my pussy literally will not stop throbbing. It’s like a spasm almost? At first I just ignored it but the longer it goes on I just get wetter and it feels so weird!
And then I literally haven’t been able to tell any man no. Every time a man asks me a question, I say “yes sir”. My brain feels foggy constantly and slow to process what’s happening around me. I just feel dumb and compliant.
Is it because I’ve been on here so much, reading about how I’m not a person and I’m meant to be a toy for men? Should I stop?

I dated this guy for awhile and we started living together. At first it was a dream; we were so happy. Slowly though he started getting more aggressive and controlling-angry if I was out later than expected, always accusing me of cheating, yelling if I didn’t cook for him or do his laundry. One day we were watching tv and he started to touch me. It had been a long day, and I was exhausted, so I didn’t want to do anything. I kissed him and said that we could have sex tomorrow, but I was too tired to right then. He used his sweetest voice on me, wrapped an arm around me, and kissed my neck while he squeezed my breast with his free hand.

I got tired of moving his hands away and trying to tell him to stop. One of his hands had started undoing my jeans and my heart started racing. He had never ignored my “no” before. I jumped up, which I think surprised him, and started heading out of the room. He got up and followed me urgently, it felt like I was being chased. He caught up to me as I reached our bathroom door, which was right by our open closet. He pushed me into the closet and closed the door, locking it from the outside. The light switch was on the outside as well, so I was locked in a small space in total darkness. I’m very claustrophobic, so I started screaming for him to let me out and banging on the door. He told me he’d let me out if I’d come back to bed and let him use me. I kept begging, that we could have sex in the morning, just please let me out, I was so panicked. Eventually I gave in so he would open the door. He did, only after warning me that he’d lock me back up if I told him no again. I came out of the closet breathing heavily and sobbing.

I wordlessly stripped and walked myself to the bed as he demanded, bending over the side of the bed. He used me roughly and filled me with cum, then proceeded to pull me into bed and hold me close. Back to being kind and sweet. We dated for another like 6 months after that, but I never again resisted any of his advances.

My vibrator is fully charged. Decide what I cum to for the next few hours. Use it to condition me. Make me hold it on my slit until I cry. Send me messages, photos, videos and force me to get off to it, whether I want to or not. Teach me not to have my own desires, that pleasing a man is my only purpose and it’s not optional. Break me down so I become compliant and docile

Force me to cum to whatever you want, whether I want to or not. My clit is already overstimulated from being here. Send me a message and make me do something to myself. Or make me cum to whatever you want. Make me turn the vibrator up. Make me take it off. Whatever it takes to make me accept my place

I avoided misogyny porn, all of this stuff for months. And then I got a random message and decided to read it instead of ignore it…then suddenly I was back here. I feel so aware of how this stuff changes me. I make myself smaller. If I go on a date and the guy initiates sexual content, I immediately submit even if I don’t want to. I don’t want to be a submissive little doll but it’s becoming so hard to fight the conditioning…

New to the group! 25F, thought I’d share a fantasy of mine:

It would be so hot to be kidnapped and forced to be a slave. Some man takes me out to his property, takes my clothes, wallet, keys, phone. There’s no one for miles, deep forest, and guard dogs on the property that know to chase me if I try to run.

Put a shock collar on me to keep me in my place. Force me to take your cock, and use me to make you money. Livestreams where people can pay to have you do things to me on camera, men paying to come touch me or use me. Threaten to kidnap my friends and do the same to them if I don’t act like I love it and make each man feel good.

Maybe you’ll breed me eventually. Force me to keep producing milk long after the pregnancy is over so you can sell it. Treat me like an animal, a toy. Not human.