u/Comfortable-Tax8775

Not going to be a fun/sexy read unfortunately. After cruising every couple months or so for the last year and a half I think I have to realize that I just don't find it hot. Don't get me wrong I love reading confessions and stroking to gay porn, but Everytime I meet up with someone I feel gross during and after the interaction. Ive met with kind people as well, but every time I meet I just get turned off. I wish I could enjoy it like everyone seems to, but I just don't, I think it's all just better as a fantasy in my head 😔

Hey everyone! I just woke up and i'm a bit lonely/horny and was hoping to find someone to chat with! I enjoy sexting but I prefer to develop a connection first, I know a good question game to break the ice.

I'm down for something long term, it depends on how we give but I'm also down for a one night thing. I prefer someone around my age but older is fine as well. Hmu with ur age and location if that interests you!

Just so y'all know I don't really intend for this to be a jerk off story, I know that's what this sub is mostly used for (I used it for that myself), but this is genuinely just my confession I'm kinda writing while half panicking haha. For context I consider myself straight but curious, maybe bisexual but heteromantic? Like I jerk off to gay porn and imagine myself as the bottom and I find it hot and stuff but I could never date a guy, I don't find them romantically attractive at all.

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But anyways curiosity has gotten the better of me several times and I've gone on sniffies to find men. Mostly I've just done like a mutual jo, frot, and oral, but today when I went to the guy I tried bottoming. He warmed me up and first it hurt but then we tried again and it was better, I regret not using a condom but he said he was clean which I trust for some reason, plus he didn't cum in me he came while eating my hole while I was on my back. When he penetrated me I didn't exactly enjoy it? Like it wasn't absolutely horrible but it didn't hit any pleasure sensors if that makes sense.

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I've thought about what it would be like after I get fucked, I've tried playing it my head telling myself that it's ok and that there's like nothin wrong with me or something but for some reason I feel incredibly sad right now. I'm sitting in a parking lot while typing this and I just feel empty/like I just lost something a part of me all because I was stupid and horny. Idk if any of that makes sense and I hope this is the right sub for this. I feel ashamed, I grew up Christian but I am not anymore, I haven't believed that being gay is wrong since like high school (I just graduated college). I'm just so disappointed in myself for some reason, which I don't get because I wouldn't feel this way about anyone who would tell me they did this, but I feel this way for myself.

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Idk why I feel this way, I just wanted to put this out there since I have no one to talk to about this.

Just so y'all know I don't really intend for this to be a jerk off story, I know that's what this sub is mostly used for (I used it for that myself), but this is genuinely just my confession I'm kinda writing while half panicking haha. For context I consider myself straight but curious, maybe bisexual but heteromantic? Like I jerk off to gay porn and imagine myself as the bottom and I find it hot and stuff but I could never date a guy, I don't find them romantically attractive at all.

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But anyways curiosity has gotten the better of me several times and I've gone on sniffies to find men. Mostly I've just done like a mutual jo, frot, and oral, but today when I went to the guy I tried bottoming. He warmed me up and first it hurt but then we tried again and it was better, I regret not using a condom but he said he was clean which I trust for some reason, plus he didn't cum in me he came while eating my hole while I was on my back. When he penetrated me I didn't exactly enjoy it? Like it wasn't absolutely horrible but it didn't hit any pleasure sensors if that makes sense.

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I've thought about what it would be like after I get fucked, I've tried playing it my head telling myself that it's ok and that there's like nothin wrong with me or something but for some reason I feel incredibly sad right now. I'm sitting in a parking lot while typing this and I just feel empty/like I just lost something a part of me all because I was stupid and horny. Idk if any of that makes sense and I hope this is the right sub for this. I feel ashamed, I grew up Christian but I am not anymore, I haven't believed that being gay is wrong since like high school (I just graduated college). I'm just so disappointed in myself for some reason, which I don't get because I wouldn't feel this way about anyone who would tell me they did this, but I feel this way for myself.

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Idk why I feel this way, I just wanted to put this out there since I have no one to talk to about this.

Hey y'all I just graduated, I'm a virgin and tbh I'd love to lose my virginity to someone before I move away for my job in a couple months, if that interests you hmu and we can start chatting!

Hey y'all I just graduated, I'm a virgin and tbh I'd love to lose my virginity to someone before I move away for my job in a couple months, if that interests you hmu and we can start chatting!

Hey all! I'm lonely and a bit horny rn, id love to chat with someone! I prefer someone around my age (18-24), but older is fine as well. I know a good question game to start us off, and if things go well maybe we can have some more fun! Id love something long term but a one off thing is also fine with me!

If that interests you, hmu!