Hey all, early 30s, many years ago, I did a couple of adult videos (and no, im not here to promote, share them, or share link or my stage name because of privacy with my family situation) because we really needed the money. I was engaged with my husband at the time. the first shoot there wasnt any penetration and it was a more cutesy kind of silly vibe. My fiancé at the time didnt like it but I think he knew we had to do what we had to do or we would be homeless.

The second one I did pushed him over because it was not like that. The guy was much more disrespectful and aggressive. And there was penetration. The studio itself was much more shady, like we had talked about things and they would not uphold them when it came time. I didn't know any of this when I came there and I couldn't just walk off as they paid for my travel to get there (remember we were low on funds as to why we even did it in the first place). so if I backed out they would have me pay for the flight and stay which I couldn't afford. so I just kind of grit my teeth and did it. when I came back and told him, he flipped out on me, throwing things around the house and basically blaming me for the incident.

It's been years and he still obsesses over it and harbors resentment towards me. I know it hurts him because I have found him crying about it before. He brings it up whenever we argue about how I am a piece of shit and how I cheated on him. I walked on eggshells around him for years. he yelled at me for 30 to 40 mins at a time. I posted on reddit on some other forums on my main account and pretty much was blamed for the situation. saying I ruined myself for my husband and im a cheater and all this stuff which really hurt my psyche and I was depressed for a long time. He refuses therapy and said he shouldn't pay for my fuck up and honestly I'm tired of him throwing my past in my face. Lately i been a little bit less apologetic and a little more snarky back at him. We'll see how it goes.

Hey all, early 30s, wife and mother. many years ago, I did a couple of adult videos (and no, im not here to promote, share them, or share link or my stage name because of privacy with my family situation) because we really needed the money. I was engaged with my husband at the time. the first shoot there wasnt any penetration and it was a more cutesy kind of silly vibe. My fiancé at the time didnt like it but I think he knew we had to do what we had to do or we would be homeless.

The second one I did pushed him over because it was not like that. The guy was much more disrespectful and aggressive. And there was penetration. The studio itself was much more shady, like we had talked about things and they would not uphold them when it came time. I didn't know any of this when I came there and I couldn't just walk off as they paid for my travel to get there (remember we were low on funds as to why we even did it in the first place). so if I backed out they would have me pay for the flight and stay which I couldn't afford. so I just kind of grit my teeth and did it. when I came back and told him, he flipped out on me, throwing things around the house and basically blaming me for the incident.

It's been years and he still obsesses over it and harbors resentment towards me. I know it hurts him because I have found him crying about it before. He brings it up whenever we argue about how I am a piece of shit and how I cheated on him. I walked on eggshells around him for years. he yelled at me for 30 to 40 mins at a time. I posted on reddit on some other forums on my main account and pretty much was blamed for the situation. saying I ruined myself for my husband and im a cheater and all this stuff which really hurt my psyche and I was depressed for a long time. He refuses therapy and said he shouldn't pay for my fuck up and honestly I'm tired of him throwing my past in my face. Lately i been a little bit less apologetic and a little more snarky back at him. We'll see how it goes.

32 F here. When I was engaged with my now husband, we needed money bad so I did a couple of sex films (no not advertising or sharing them) and to this day many years later he is still triggered and cries over it.

Hey all, early 30s, wife and mother. many years ago, I did a couple of adult videos (and no, im not here to promote, share them, or share link or my stage name because of privacy with my family situation) because we really needed the money. I was engaged with my husband at the time. the first shoot there wasnt any penetration and it was a more cutesy kind of silly vibe. My fiancé at the time didnt like it but I think he knew we had to do what we had to do or we would be homeless.

The second one I did pushed him over because it was not like that. The guy was much more disrespectful and aggressive. And there was penetration. The studio itself was much more shady, like we had talked about things and they would not uphold them when it came time. I didn't know any of this when I came there and I couldn't just walk off as they paid for my travel to get there (remember we were low on funds as to why we even did it in the first place). so if I backed out they would have me pay for the flight and stay which I couldn't afford. so I just kind of grit my teeth and did it. when I came back and told him, he flipped out on me, throwing things around the house and basically blaming me for the incident.

It's been years and he still obsesses over it and harbors resentment towards me. I know it hurts him because I have found him crying about it before. He brings it up whenever we argue about how I am a piece of shit and how I cheated on him. I walked on eggshells around him for years. he yelled at me for 30 to 40 mins at a time. I posted on reddit on some other forums on my main account and pretty much was blamed for the situation. saying I ruined myself for my husband and im a cheater and all this stuff which really hurt my psyche and I was depressed for a long time. He refuses therapy and said he shouldn't pay for my fuck up and honestly I'm tired of him throwing my past in my face. Lately i been a little bit less apologetic and a little more snarky back at him. His years of resent has caused me to start to resent him now.