New submissive question
Daddy Dom/submissive
My 1st post (very lengthy) & my 1st time being a submissive. I am a submissive to my ex husband who calls me princess. He has since remarried & she is fine with our relationship. I have my own apartment in another state currently but I have been working on moving in with them. I do have my own room. Our D/s relationship just started. Daddy is working on getting me my collar that I will never take off. While I was at my own apartment Daddy had me do certain tasks, all of which I completed happily. Daddy was very attentive & very loving to me the whole time I was gone. Made me feel very loved & appreciated. I couldn't wait to see him in person. When I finally showed up last Friday he showered me with attention & affection & let me sit on his lap, kissing me & holding me telling me how proud he was of me & how much he missed me. He wanted me to change clothes so he followed me to my bedroom & picked out something from my suitcase, set the outfit aside & led me naked to his room where he does have a ring camera. Daddy immediately started playing, directing me to do what he wanted me to do. I obeyed with no problem. The session did not last very long at all (which was absolutely ok). During our play session his wife came home & after he helped me up from the bed(he had to support my neck getting off my back since my head was hanging off the bed) then he immediately went to her & greeted her & asked how her day was. I received no aftercare. (Everything I have read has mentioned how important aftercare is) She was in the hallway looking our direction (he was between us in the hallway) while I walked out of their bedroom ( behind him) completely naked, I felt like a whore. Although I thoroughly enjoyed the little attention that I received from him, that's all I have gotten for the entire week. I get a quick peck & hug in the morning, a quick peck & hug after work, & a quick peck & hug before bed. I'm feeling unloved & emotionally abandoned. Yesterday I did ask him if he would "please give me one of the kisses that I like." He said "yes princess" which was awesome even though he had an accident at work I still got my kiss which I appreciated. I have also noticed that if I upset him or disappoint him he withholds love & affection from me. An example is... I raised my voice to him the other night because he told me to stop complaining under my breath & tell his wife why I was upset. I complied but right after I said to him Daddy with all do respect I do not appreciate you trying to weaponize me. By the time I said it I was pissed & it came out harsh. Right after it happened I messaged him an apology which read...Daddy I know what I said & did last night was wrong & I deeply apologize for disappointing you. I deserve to be punished for my behavior & my actions that was NOT how a sub should act towards her Dom. I'm still trying to remember my roll please forgive me. I will gladly accept any punishment. I love you Daddy. His response (just a portion of it)...When you act like that I will just shut down & not do my part. (Which is to withhold love & affection from me) I forgot to mention that he used to give me good morning princess texts & tell me he loves me & good night princess texts & again telling me he loves me. I love those messages & look forward to them but when he wants to punish me for something he won't send them. Not only that but he becomes even more affectionate to his wife & usually right in front of me. I'd much rather get a spanking from him than him to withhold love & affection from me & I can't stand getting spanked. I could use all the advice I can get please. I really want to please him. I'm so sorry if this post was way to long, I just wanted to make sure you had all the details. Thank you in advance, Daddy's little princess.
EDIT: I'm locked into a contract with a moving company & already paid the NON refundable deposit & they are scheduled to come get the big stuff out of my apartment July 30-31 Also already gave my notice to the apartment complex to be out by August 1st. My Daddy Dom told me I didn't tell you everything which I didn't think counted, so here is the rest of the story if your interested.
Daddy & I talked ahead of time & he told me he wanted 2 blow jobs & I asked him if he would make me cum. While he had me in his room naked he had me bent over the bed on my stomach & used the Hitachi (vibrator) on me and got 3 small orgasms out of me then he proceeded to put me on my back & play. Later that night he invited me & his wife to go into the bedroom to play. I went down on his wife & made her orgasm 3 times (she is straight but loves to have her p@$$/ eaten). While I was taking care of her Daddy was kissing & touching her & occasionally stroked my head & grabbed my pony tail. Then it was Daddy's turn. I started giving him a b/@# job & while him & his wife were kissing & hugging, (without any warning of any kind) he grabbed my pony tail & pushed my head down so I would deep throat him. I have a VERY strong gag reflex so I almost threw up on him a few times. All I said was "please don't do that or I will probably throw up on you." Him doing that to me caught his wife off guard completely & she kept asking me if I was ok. Ignoring me (because he said I didn't use our safe words) he did it a few more times. Thank God I didn't throw up on him ! Eventually he came. After he rested a bit he used the Hitachi on me again a few times. I kept playing with him & got him hard again. (He has diabetes & ED so he will take a shot in his penis when he wants to last longer) I mentioned to his wife that she should climb on & take advantage of the hard on so she did. She came but he didn't. I got a warm wash cloth & cleaned him up & took advantage of another hard on. I didn't get a turn having sex but I did give him another b/@# job. He was left completely relaxed & exhausted when I was done with him. One of my weekly tasks is to write a journal for him & email it to him so I did. I asked him to please leave his wife out of our Daddy Dom/submissive play because I was humiliated in front of her & it made me uncomfortable. He agreed but it wasn't talked about or agreed on prior to that session. Two of the tasks that he wants me to try & work on are "deep throating" & "swallowing his semen" (I don't do that or like it but I will catch it under my tongue & spit it out while getting the warm wash cloth.) He assumed it was a perfect opportunity to start to learn to deep throat while his wife was there but has since agreed to keep that between us. One thing that I have noticed when the 3 of us play is he will shower her with affection like touching, hugging & kissing while I'm going down on either of them but he hardly kisses me when he is using the Hitachi on me,(he will of course kiss her a lot when he's using the Hitachi on her) instead he will still try to kiss her over my body but usually when that happens he's not concentrating & the Hitachi moves & it takes me longer to cum. That's one of those times when I feel emotionally neglected. I know she is his wife but I deserve attention & affection from him during that time too. He should be trying to kiss me instead. (IDK, maybe I'm wrong) I forgot to mention that when the Hitachi is being used on me she is just laying next to me moving her hand around a little on my body because like I said she is straight. She's there but she's not doing much. So that is the part that I wasn't sure counted since she was involved since that wasn't technically Daddy Dom/submissive princess play. He said it counts though because I did get attention.