Married but not enough
I don't even know how to say this without sounding like a terrible person, but I need to be honest with myself. We've been married for 2 years, and even though I love my wife with all my heart, I still find myself craving attention from other people.
She hasn't done anything wrong. She's kind, loving, and she's honestly the best partner I could ask for. That's what makes me feel even worse. I know how much she loves me, and the thought of hurting her or losing her scares me more than anything.
I hate that I feel this way because it makes me question myself. I've tried to ignore it and convince myself it'll just go away, but it hasn't. I feel guilty, confused, and ashamed for even having these thoughts. I don't want to lose what we have, but I also don't know why I keep feeling like something inside me is still searching for validation from somewhere else.