I’ve become submissive to my husband
Our relationship didn’t begin this way but over the few years of our marriage he’s become a dom and I have submitted totally. Obviously I enjoy it or else I wouldn’t have stayed and does fit my personality as I’ve always been one to obey instead of take charge I guess.
But the one thing I’m a little conflicted about is his infidelity. He doesn’t hide it, will have me give him oral when the taste of someone else is still on him it’s like his way of asserting himself and showing my place and it somehow turns me on but afterwards I feel bad sometimes when he does this like he doesn’t value me but my body cannot deny getting aroused when he orders me and he knows it
Edit: I’ve read all your comments and appreciate your concern. I can see how it may look bad based on the limited details provided here. But my husband treats me very well and everything we do came along from pushing boundaries and realizing we both like it and kept expanding.
As for his cheating, it’s something that progressed from talking about after he’d flirt as a sort of roleplay but as time went on I wasn’t against the idea of him actually following through and aroused me very much tbh. There are some rules like can’t be anyone I know, nothing long term, and he “tells” me beforehand with a call or text not to wait up and I know what he means. If I’m against it will tell him to come home but honesty I never am against it.
This isn’t something that happens all the time more like a handful of times a year this past year as it’s just begun. He is open to me being with others as well, obviously, but for me sex is emotional and can’t be with someone else just for the sake of it. I know men are different and can separate sex and love.
This is just one aspect of our life and it conflicts me because I know it’s against norms to feel this way, but I do feel guilty for being aroused in that sense after it’s over
He also treats me like a princess and pampers me and all the other good stuff that comes with this dynamic