u/Internal_Buddy_8758

Been working from home for over 6 years now, a couple of years ago I purchased an extra monitor which I needed for a while but eventually found it to be redundant. Since then I have used it as the porn monitor and just have videos playing in the background while working, my work productivity has increased and has been noticed by management 😂

The days seem to be quicker, I guess time does fly when you are having fun!

Posted a while ago about having thoughts about men again. I spoke to my wife yesterday about it and showed her my Reddit account and allowed her to look through and ask me anything she wanted to know. She took it really well and had no issues with it. Gave me alot of reassurance and made me comfortable about it more 👍🏻

I (M30) am happily married (F25), I am emotionally, sexually and physically attracted to females but I also have a sexual attraction to men.

I have found myself watching more gay porn recently I am finding straight porn boring so I have watched gay porn when the wife is away.

I've been with guys in the past and had occasional fwbs with guys as well and those thoughts and feelings have laid dormant for years.

I don't know why it's started cropping up, do I see it as the "forbidden fruit"? I am sexually satisfied with my wife, we have great sex but when she's away I turn to gay porn and fantasise about men.

When I'm at the gym I find myself looking at guys more than normal. Im struggling with my male friendships and relationships as I am finding myself making up fantasies in my head.

I feel like this is just a mind dump. I just have no one to talk to about it, my wife knows I have been with guys in the past but that's it really.