u/Kettaz3

I had way more friends when i was on opiates everyday, now i'm very lonely, i cry about it nearly everyday and weed isn't working anymore.

Everytime i see a girl my age happy outside, i get extremly sad thinking about how i spend all my days locked in my home looking at the wall like i'm waiting for a train. But no I really just don't have no friends.

I'm starting soon a new job in an electronic factory but i don't think i will meet a lot of people honestly. I'm 20 and I feel like there is already no hope left.

What should I do ? Go back on opiates ?

Long story short i took a lot of benzos and wanted to stop cold turkey and got seizure at day 3 so i bought valium to taper.

I started at 10mg and i'm at 5mg everynight since a few weeks now but i'm anxious all day especially since i'm unemployed. I really want benzos out of my system forever before i go back to work because i think it make me act weird but i can't really prove it. Anyway i got fired very fast (15 days) so i think i gotta change something about myself if i don't want to sleep under the trees real soon. But i'm also dealing with the fear of having another seizure.

What do y'all think ?

When i was working i could stay all day sober an just smoke 1 or 2 joints at night but i got fired a few days ago and now i’m so bored that i get high on all kinds of drugs from the sun rising to when the moon is on the sky.

I’m not asking for free money, i don’t want to commit crime too, i just need a job to slow down on the drugs… French governement is shit.