u/Lazy-Wait6656

Why do we have cuckold fantasies and how did they happen all of a sudden

I think I can for me . A few years back I thought my wife was cheating and I was mad and jealous but also aroused. I did not understand why I was so aroused ? How could I be it was the woman I loved and have been with 15 years. But I could not deny the fact it made me harder than ever before. Long story short she was not cheating but the thoughts were still there I could not get it out of my mind . The fact was I was fantasizing about her cheating with her coworkers and was really turned on by it . Then I took it to higher levels getting my wife to role played about other men during sex. It’s like I needed it to get off .
I even started watching cuckold porn that further fueled my desire to see her with another man. It has become an obsession that I want to stop it could ruin my relationship with my wife. Before the suspension of cheating I never ever had those thoughts. Has anyone else had a similar situation like my dilemma

I think it all started years ago when I was in high school when after party happened after junior prom. I asked a girl to prom and I think she was not really interested in going with me but she said yes anyway. The after party we all had drinks and chatting amongst ourselves but I noticed she had been gone for awhile. I looked all over for her and checked upstairs. I open one of the doors and saw she was in room with one of my friends. He was fucking her and instead of bursting into the room I froze.
I watch and noticed my friends bigger cock fucking her. I was embarrassed but I was hard I walked away went back to the party feeling low but acted like I was unaware. Later in life when I got married I thought my wife was cheating and I was mad and jealous but I had a hard on . I was hard thinking about it but I could not understand why? Turns out she was not cheating but the thoughts never left me and I often jerked off to the thought of it
I started watching porn of cheating wives and was really turned on with the thoughts of her cheating. I’m not sure if what happened to me when I was young was a trigger but I can’t get the thoughts out of my mind .

I have this fantasy and it never leaves my mind. Almost an obsession but wondering why I feel this way why does it consume my thoughts? Can someone give me some insight or advice

I have this fantasy and it never leaves my mind. Almost an obsession but wondering why I feel this way why does it consume my thoughts? Can someone give me some insight or advice

I have a fantasy my wife being with a black man and I watch . Of course many men have similar thoughts and like me afraid to mention it to her. I started role playing when we had a few drinks during sex and stated off with would you like a big cock? She said yes to play along. Then I mentioned how about a black cock and her hips moved faster . I probed more saying would you like that and she said yes a big black cock mmm then she started to cum hard. My question is do you think she has a similar fantasy but only came out because of the alcohol ? I asked her the next day and she says it’s just role playing. But it has happened the last three times we role played am I overthinking this

Wanting wife to get fucked would be hot if she was fucked while I was at work and it was filmed