u/Lonely-dude

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Never rly bought online so I'm not sure of what to beware of, is telegram a place ppl usually buy from or get scammed from ? I just don't rly have a dealer that can deliver and I'm so tired of commuting just to pick up stuff, traffic is so bad last time I did three hours to get there THREE HOURS ON PUBLIC TRANSPORT, wasn't even thaaaaat far away everything was just slow and I'm tired of having to go to the city cause I know no dealers near

Istg doing drugs can sometimes be so annoying lol

I'm NOT asking for a pl.ug btw just Abt how likely it is for telegram to be a scam

I tried molly and don't get me wrong it isn't a bad trip I enjoy it, I'm happy physically, just now leaving the gym, had q decent time, but it's overall kinda mid? And now I just feel so hopeless, it's not the coming down of if I'm still pretty high I can see it i my pupils and I measured the times I'm still supposed to be on the high moment but everyone always says that molly is the happiest you're gonna feel, that is a new level of joy, yet I feel mid, is this really the happiest I'm ever gonna be? This is it? This is the high I've been searching for this is the peak ? If so then now what this isn't that great and I don't think this high is worth the sadness of living, I was hoping for some type of happiness that made everything worth it but it's not I even went off antidepressants for this just to see it how it's supposed to be and it's mediocre

I mean I am happy I am enjoying it but then I remember this is it and I wanna cry even if I can't, I really don't wanna live like this???? This is it?? That's all this is the peak?? I feel so alone what is wrong with me why am I like this why can't I be actually happy I feel happy but I know that tomorrow I'm gonna go to class with a room fool of ppl that hate me then go home to a family that deserves better knowing I won't be better I can't be better

I don't think this is worth going from what I've been through and through what I'll now will suffer again

Earlier today I almost had a panic atac on class at my grown age of 20 and I ask myself "would I willingly go though that again for this ?" And the answer is no. I think Abt how often I feel so hollow and unlovable, like I can't actually connect with anything or anyone and again ask myself "would I willingly go though that again for this ?" And the answer is again no

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I tried molly and don't get me wrong it isn't a bad trip I enjoy it, I'm happy physically, just now leaving the gym, had q decent time, but it's overall kinda mid? And now I just feel so hopeless, it's not the coming down of if I'm still pretty high I can see it i my pupils and I measured the times I'm still supposed to be on the high moment but everyone always says that molly is the happiest you're gonna feel, that is a new level of joy, yet I feel mid, is this really the happiest I'm ever gonna be? This is it? This is the high I've been searching for this is the peak ? If so then now what this isn't that great and I don't think this high is worth the sadness of living, I was hoping for some type of happiness that made everything worth it but it's not I even went off antidepressants for this just to see it how it's supposed to be and it's mediocre

I mean I am happy I am enjoying it but then I remember this is it and I wanna cry even if I can't, I really don't wanna live like this???? This is it?? That's all this is the peak?? I feel so alone what is wrong with me why am I like this why can't I be actually happy I feel happy but I know that tomorrow I'm gonna go to class with a room fool of ppl that hate me then go home to a family that deserves better knowing I won't be better I can't be better

I don't think this is worth going from what I've been through and through what I'll now will suffer again

Earlier today I almost had a panic atac on class at my grown age of 20 and I ask myself "would I willingly go though that again for this ?" And the answer is no. I think Abt how often I feel so hollow and unlovable, like I can't actually connect with anything or anyone and again ask myself "would I willingly go though that again for this ?" And the answer is again no

Update- I just threw up I hate throwing up