u/MoonlitMuse27

I'm not allowed to touch myself until I'm given the okay. Working on my self control today but I find myself craving attention and making myself cum...so tempting to not be a good girl today.

The first recollection I have of a hard cock was my uncle's at age 7. he laid down next to me to watch TV but I guess I gave him an erection. I know to this day he deliberately pressed his groin on my ass while I was asleep.

A few years later it was my step dad... My mom dated this absolute tool of a man. He was nice but he had no ambition, no desire to grow. And they would always fight.

I loved him dearly because he treated me like a daughter from day 1... But I know he groomed me.

He started by groping me... And being 9 years old I didn't know what to make of this.... He kept touching me but he acted like my father in front of everyone else..it was a total mindfuck and violation of my sense of self... As I got older it began escalating because I had gotten used to it and then I'd lay there feeling like absolute dirt. I felt dirty and disgusting. I was afraid of what he could do.... What if he was a psycho... ? What if he took it out on my mom... What if what if what if...

The penetration started at 12 and went on til 16 when I finally spoke out and put his ass in prison. I realize that my body enjoyed the biological response, and for years I struggled with the cognitive dissonance that came from this. I realized I wanted constant stimulation.

It's taken me a loooong time to come to terms with myself and I'm finally feeling like I have agency over my sexuality and my sense of self and now I decide that I want to be spoiled like the princess that I should've been from the get go, taken care of by the men in her life.