u/Most-Pick-3603

the men were right. i exist to serve men. i am a set of holes to be filled. i am an anal whore, a cockdrunk slut, and i spent 12 hours edging and entertaining men in my dms. my self worth is in the gutter, all i can do is follow commands in hopes for praise, in the form of cocks and cum!!

i’m so disgusted by penises, by cum, but i can’t stop rubbing to the memories of the rape. i’m a broken dyke. i love cock. i hate cock. i’m triggered. i want to throatfuck each and every one of you. and i hate myself for not being able to stop, to block my harassers, and instead beg them to praise me, to compliment my sexual desirability.

all i get is gaped holes and low self esteem. knowing i helped a few men jerk off and cum is the only thing keeping me going, keeping my time worthwhile.

Moving in with my first boyfriend as a dumb codependent kid was a rape speedrun. I miss a lot about him, like how pushy he was every time we had sex. He always told me to get in different positions i didn’t want. Or when he pushed himself into my ass after I told him no anal. When he throatfucked me and came all over my face after I told him I don’t do oral.

my rapist had cum inside of me hundreds of times from January 2025-June 2025. imagine meeting a manic girl on a dating app, fucking the first night, and her immediately moving in, losing her job and fucking you nonstop for months. she has extreme mood swings, but gets in any degrading position you want at almost any time. That was me

I miss feeling like i had given my complete autonomy over to someone else. Not having anywhere else to go or avoid being molested and groped. I remember going to him crying telling him how i don’t feel listened to in the relationship and it would end in me bent over getting fucked raw. I miss having no thoughts and having the one job to make sure he feels good.

one of my favourite ways to process my trauma is to relive the humiliation. i have an 8 inch dildo I use anally, which I fit under my clothes. i have taken a few walks with it in at night. the most erotic part is when i get too far from my home, and start regretting it— i have no choice but to walk all the way back, feeling it thrust with every step.

I’d like to answerhumilaiting questions while i’m on the walk.

i also have other options to perform for you:

i can run around (more intense thrusting motions)
i can squat and bend over to pick up litter (deeper penetration)
i can approach other people to ask for directions or help

I’m treated as one of the boys, but at the end of the day, I’m wishing they would rape me. And part of them knows they want the same thing.

I am a trauma whore that will respond to any dick pics, porn, or invasive questions. I do enjoy following commands to put things in my ass just to see them cum. I would love to find a daddy to talk to long term and eventually meet in person. I want to become emotionally attached while I get used for sex

I let my rapist cum inside of me multiple times a day every day for 6 months. We lived together and shared a bed so there was nowhere to go. It happened in the bathroom, in my sleep, even during my online lectures. I got fucked around 3-5x a day, whether i felt like it or not.

I ended up having a mental breakdown and telling my friends about it. I regret it and want to go back. I think about the time you choked me on your cock after I told you I don’t give head. I’m sorry for telling people. I wish uou took my anal virginity and that I swallowed more of your loads. Im sorry for being so ungrateful

This week last year I was sexually abused and raped by my ex. Today i leaned into the flashbacks and had a convulsing orgasm. I decided to visualize the rape and ended up edging for 3 hours straight. By the end i had soaked through my underwear onto my bed.