[F33] After accidentally sending myself naked to the entire company, going into work this morning has been awkward…and I hate how much I like it
Yesterday was admittedly a rollercoaster and one of the most humiliating moments in both my life and my career. I found myself most upset that of all the naked photos I could have attached, it was the one that showed ALL of me.
My mother raised me to know that my vagina was the most beautiful, unique and private part of a woman’s body, and it should be for my husband’s eyes only.
And now over 200 employees had seen it.
After years of seeing me in work suits and dresses, they now knew the shape and size of my breasts, they knew what my nipples looked like, they knew how I groom myself and how my vagina looks. And there was nothing I could do about it.
It was raining, and I sat in my car for awhile to build up the courage to go inside. With a deep breath, I went in.
The security guard smiled at me. “Good morning, Mrs. [Redacted]! It’s getting hairy out there.”
I swear he looked at my crotch when he said that. Cheeks hot, I went to the elevator and entered my office.
They weren’t, but it felt like every pair of eyes was looking at me. I went right to my desk and sat down. And the day quickly continued into the chaos of the work day. There were only small moments that I caught where things were different. One of the accountant’s eyes stayed a little too long at my cleavage. An ad rep dropped his pen while we were talking so he had to duck under my desk. Things that me two weeks ago would have yelled at them for now had me letting it happen.
After a career of people scared to look me in the eye, I now had men trying to sneak a peek at me.
And I liked it.
My boss came by a little later to remind me about the boozy photo shoot I was going to help him with tonight. I asked if I needed to bring anything and he told me to come exactly how I was.
Back to work.