u/Own_Ad5274

Hey guys, I need to share or confess something.

I'm straight married mid 30s. I don't get anything from the wife anymore (due to her illness). I don't have loads of experience with guys. Fooled around with a few in my teenage years. I've always enjoyed receiving head from a guy so much more than from a woman.

So last year I ended up downloading one of the hook up apps. Just looking for some head...

I'm definitely not a dominant person, a little Dom in the bedroom never really been submissive.

I've had a couple of encounters and all been great fooled around a bit. Then got the BJ that I wanted and I've left.

I'd been chatting with a guy for a few weeks and he wanted me to come round to his for some mutual fun. I agreed and said I'm not extremely experienced. He was fine with that. This past weekend we met up.

So I turn up, we go upstairs and start to fool around, stroking, sucking, do some 69 all going fantastic.

He then kneels on the bed next to my face takes my head and starts to feed me his cock. Slowly, gently. Like using my mouth as a fleshlight. He looks down at me and says are you ok. I try to say yes with his cock being driven in and out of my mouth.

He grabs hold of my cock with one hand and says wow look how hard that has made you.... Your such a good boy.

Then it happened, like a switch being pressed in my brain. I was being submissive and letting him use me for his pleasure. And I was so incredibly turned on.

He got up off the bed and told me to hang my head off the edge.

He fucked my mouth for a couple of minutes all the while asking if I was ok, he was being so gentle I was reaching round to grab his ass and pull him deeper into me.

It was so incredibly hot being his little toy.

He came in my mouth and asked if I needed to go spit it out. But I just said I had swallowed the lot.

He said oh wow good boy.

He jumped back on the bed and said let me take care of this for you, blew me until exploded I in his mouth. I had to lie there for minute or two. I couldn't believe what happened how I gave myself up and how I'd enjoyed it.

I booked myself a cab and left.

On the way home he messaged me and thank you and that I was fantastic.

I said thank you and thank you for being gentle it was amazing.

I worked all weekend and couldn't get the thoughts out my mind of how amazing it felt to give control to someone else and let them use my mouth, like I had done with other guys.

I needed it again.

I messaged a regular guy last night (Monday) and told him I want to come and suck him instead.

So I finished work went straight to his place.

He had left the door open for me, he was waiting naked on his bed.

I walked in striped off sucked him as deep as I could, sucking on his balls too. All the while I was rock hard and never touched myself and never touched me. He pushed my head down hard, came in my mouth I swallowed again. I said thank you to him. Got dressed and left.

I was so turned on. I wanted more. But I went home.

And now I feel like something has definitely switched in my mind.

Sorry for the long post. I just needed to share what's happened to me.

Hopefully I can experience more.

3 weeks in

New cage

Day 1

(35) Paint me

Something flicked a switch

Mutual fun

Pool cue

Head wanted

Need some head

After work head