u/PermaSub54

1. Building an M/S dynamic that I'm literally not allowed to get out from. And what I mean by that is being monitored and kept in such a way that I literally can't get free, and an escape attempt would just cause me to be locked up in the house.

2. Not being used sexually against my will exactly, but having it so that my will does not matter either way. So maybe I don't want it to happen, maybe I do, but either way, it will happen.

3. Being forced to be a chore slave. Making food for Master, making coffee for Him, keeping the house nice, ironing clothes, etc. Basically, unless I'm sick and genuinely medically require rest, I should more rarely have a break. If I get better and faster at my tasks, that just means I now have more time for something else.

4. Forced chastity and denial... permanently. Being caged by or against my will and having to downsize all the way to a flat cage. The only time it should ever come off is if it is causing medical problems or needs to be cleaned. Oh, or if people who didn't consent to see it would see it. Never getting any sexual release, ever. I am a slave, I don't deserve that. I'm lucky to keep my cock and balls at all. That's paired with having to get Master off at least once a day.

5. Water/fluid play, as part of humiliation and domination rituals. Having to drink His piss, swallow His cum and spit, as a means of dominance and humiliation. They would either have to be consumed plain, or they would be added by Him to my food or drinks. I'm not into fluid play, but I am into the idea that another man has the power to make me drink his piss, and I'll have no choice but to.

6. Bondage. I'm not into bondage in quite the same sexual way as others are, but I am indeed interested in it sexually sometimes. But to me, that's not its core purpose. I'd like being penetrated while allowed to struggle in bondage, yes. But it has non-sexual uses, like literally just being used to detain/contain me. Master wants to pretend I don't exist, I'm in a chair with my hands and arms roped to the armrests, my legs to the chair legs, and my body to the rest of the chair. I'm blindfolded, I have something that makes it so I can't hear, my mouth is gagged and probably taped, and I'm just in some random corner for however long He wants.

7. Total isolation. Being made to totally isolate from any friends or family, having any means of contact taken from me, or having Him control my means of contact entirely... Not to say I shouldn't have any friends or social life, but I should be able to easily separate from that. That's incredibly empowering for Him. It cuts all of my power to protest or reach out to someone and hands 100% of my reins to Him. He could do all of the above to me and more, and I could be absolutely unwilling, but this fundamental means of control means He has the full power to make all of that happen anyway.

8. Body modifications. I used to be more hesitant when it comes to modifications, but I've changed a bit since then. I'm a firm believer in branding, up to and including hot iron branding. Piercing, hair removal, hair colors, tattoos, neutering, etc. (You can't choose to be straight up neutered without a valid medical reason, actually, but it'd be cool to try and find a way if me and Him wanted that.)

9. Dynamic. All of the above is very interesting to me, but so is Master also being a regular romantic partner. Ideally, my dynamic would never truly stop or pause, but there would be times when not much is happening in the way of power exchange. Title and respect would ideally be permanent and ongoing. What I mean by that is, I'd never just call Him by His name. I would ideally always be required to use Sir, Master, or any of the similar. But under that, I want to be able to do regular boyfriend things. Go for a walk, sports/hobbies, cooking, etc. Not just for me, but I think He also deserves to feel like He is with a human and partner, too.

That is all fantasy stuff that I realize can't all be happening all at once. Some of those things may not ever happen. One or two isn't technically possible at all. But it'd be cool if they could be explored or considered. Perhaps brought as close to reality as they can be.

I also realize that this isn't everyone's cup of tea. In fact, there may be around like fifty people in the world who actually like this stuff. The rest may condemn it as abusive and impossible, but they'll never actually get to see what happens.

In most people's eyes, what I look for is just plain old abuse. But I could never describe it as so. Trust me when I say there is absolutely a line.

I'm not looking for the right abusive kind who will take disobedience very poorly and say basically f*ck you, and I'm gonna bust your ribs with one haymaker swing, or beat you til you black out. I'm not looking for the kind who will just totally neglect all of my needs and use me endlessly. I'm not looking for the kind who would just keep me in the house forever, as nice as that sounds to the tempted mind.

I AM looking for the kind who would use pain and punches as a form of physical discipline. There is a line between a punch that's meant to cause damage and one that's meant to make me think twice about my choices. I am looking for the one who acknowledges that I have human needs, but he also puts himself first and uses me in, within normal reason, any way he wants. He would also have the ability to use me even if I object to it at the time, which is really never gonna hurt me. I am looking for one who holds the power to force me into total isolation and lockdown, but also acknowledges how damaging that is to a person-any person. (Isolation literally makes a person lose their mind, but I use my mind sometimes, so I'd rather not)

There's a whole lot more to it than that, but I just wanted to acknowledge that in many people's eyes, what I look for is an abuser. I see a difference, and I only wonder if the kink community sees it also.

My idea of chastity is one where I'd have to stay in the cage 24/7/365, except in these cases: Cleaning, cage is clearly causing serious medical/dermatological issues, cage would be visible to people who did not consent to see it. Ideally, my Sir would keep my key either on Him or somewhere only He can access it, and I'd be permanently banned from even touching it. My ideal form of denial is literally never having a lick of sexual pleasure again, from the moment I'm owned to, in an unfortunate and hopefully unlikely case, I'm released from ownership.

What do yall think, and if anyone has tried this, how did it go?

Power exchange (TPE) that may or may not be that intensive or absolute, but whatever is happening, the one rule is that I cannot get free of it. Maybe the only power exchange that's happening is forced chastity and honorifics, maybe it's a lot more absolute, but in any case, I don't have the authority to either disobey or put an end to the power exchange or relationship. This particular idea is very interesting to me, and it doesn't depend on a lot of other things, which is why I wonder whether it's a kink (perhaps like CNC, though it isn't roleplay)...

Sorry if it's not very relevant here, but I've been using FetLife for over a year and got curious when it stopped working. I click on the app, and it opens only in my default browser as a site. I tried to see if there was an update to the app, but Google Play says this app doesn't exist. Anyone else? Android if it matters.

Well, the post title basically says the most important piece. Yeah, that's true. I hope to be put into chastity and be permanently denied sexual pleasure. And I mean, permanently. Meaning, the only way I'd ever be able to get pleasure again is if, in an unlikely case, I'm released from ownership.

That sounds maybe extreme or unhealthy to most, but it's not like it's something I really want to keep experiencing. Actually, I'm aceflux, which means my sex drive fluctuates like the wind. Could be gale-force one day, begging to be fucked, and the next, sex is an alien concept to me. It has always been like that. But the thing is, I never have to get a release to provide sexual service to Master. I'd be a hole for Him to fuck, and that'd be all. He would get His pleasure while I would get only the satisfaction of having been used for that. On days I have no sex drive, it wouldn't really matter because I would just be used anyway.

I post here wondering if other slaves/subs are similar and if they may or may not be asexual/aceflux. Do I walk a lonely road?

{Updated flair to better match the post, and I'll say before and after the content that this is fantasy and doesn't entertain real-life factors.}

Your days of freedom are over. You knew all along that your nature as a slave would eventually take over and become fulfilled... You searched for Him, He searched for you, and you found each other. Everything will be different now that you've found Him.

All of the freedom you had before is gone...

You used to post online at your will, and now you can't make a peep or post a word without rules and restrictions. His control is like a gag in your mouth. Any deviance from the rules, any defiance, will result in absolute denial of online communications. He has the power to hide you from the world and silence you for any length of time He desires.

You used to pick your own clothing, and now, if you get any choice at all, it's from a preset wardrobe, and that's when you're even allowed to wear any clothes at all. You like one thing, He likes another, and now only what He wants matters. Any complaints are a waste of breath and will not be fruitful. You will be presentable to Master's taste, and you do not have any right to change the way His property looks.

You used to eat whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted. Now, if you have any choice at all, it's from things He likes, and He always eats and finishes eating before you start eating. He can make you eat where He wants, too. From a dog bowl on the floor would be most appropriate for a slave such as yourself, and anything else is to be treated as a luxury and not be expected.

Everything is now under His control. Your food, your clothes, your speech, your movement, your job, your devices... You're tracked with unremoveable GPS monitoring whenever you're not home and tracked/watched through your device with MSpy. If He says you will quit your job and work somewhere more preferable for Him, you will. If He says you can't be farther than a set distance from the house, you will obey, and it will be enforced through the GPS.

All attempts at defiance and escape are futile. The end result of defiance will be Him getting what He wants by force and making you regret trying. The end result of an escape attempt will be you being locked down even harder than before. He is not afraid to cut you off completely from the outside world; not to leave your dog cage except for housework, work, and sexual use, no phone at all, no work outside of online work, no leaving the house, constantly under video surveillance, for as long as it takes to break you back into the good slave you know you are.

And if you genuinely want out of the relationship and won't return to that same slave state, you're already in. It's too late. The more you resist, the deeper you sink. Move will be met with countermove. If you want out for the rest of your life, you could be kept in absolute lockdown for the rest of your life.

You are a slave now. And now there is no going back. Cooperate and accept it to earn back or keep any privileges, or don't, and see what happens 😉

(Fantasy piece by PermaSlave 😘)