u/ResponsibleTutor5500

I’ve long been a beta at heart but discovering Reddit has amplified my true self. I NEVER had a foot fetish until I started embracing my beta self. Looking at beta porn. Censored porn. Feet only porn. Over the last months, feet has essentially all I’ve been plapping too…. and now I’m noticing it creeping in the real world.

I was at the park yesterday. And I really felt the change. Sooo many gorgeous women sun bathing. But all my eyes were drawn to, were their perfect, gorgeous feet. I felt ashamed how excited it made me. My younger self would be humiliated to know who I am today. I did my best I avert my gaze as soon as I could each time a beautiful foot was seen. I don’t want to make any woman feel unsafe or uncomfortable. But Jesus… why are their perfect feet so appealing? The way the toes curl. The perfect nails…

Going home later yesterday, I wanted nothing more to cum to feet porn. But being the good beta, I just kept my dickelt in chastity. And spent all night watching feet online…

Im worried I’ll never be able to go out in public again without being captivated by feet.

The longer I’ve gone without sex, the more I depend on porn. In the morning. During the day. At night. Really, my only form of intimacy. No cuddles. No aftercare. No chatting. Just pixels on the screen and my hand touching myself. Or if I’m being honest, plapping while locked in chastity.

I’ve once spent almost 12 hours watching porn off and on. It feels like the only form of catharsis as a beta. And the more I use, the more I crave the real thing… but knowing it’s not for me.

Really appreciate discovery this community. And who I am.

Who else finds porn addiction oddly exciting?

I’m an older, 39 year old, virgin beta. Never had luck with women. Feel like a total loser. But finally finding some meaning in embracing my beta nature. The next step is the right dom to facilitate that. I want to be brainwashed. Dummied. And turned into a beta slave. Blackmail me.

I own a chastity device and many toys.

I can work very hard to please you and keep you happy.

Who else has gone down the beta hypnosis rabbit hole? I’ve tried therapy and all sorts of self help stuff. But I truly feel at peace listening to beta hypnosis content. The sort of content that reinforces proper thinking, conscious and subconscious, for proper beta behavior. They’re like my meditation. My breath work. My cold plunge. But beta style.

And then listening at morning and night, I feel in a better more focused beta mind.

And hey, at least not as bad as porn right? No naughty images here…