24 [TF4F] #Online #Anywhere - Sad girl looking to be adopted by a kind mommy
I'm searching for someone who could be an actual mother to me instead of a girlfriend and who could eventually want me more than a mama should. I'm really lonely and don't have anything worth living for, I live in a pretty bad place. And for a long while now all I've been wanting is to be taken care of and to have that one person to whom I could give my all. When I'm scared or sad, I imagine myself being held by someone who deeply cares about me, because that's the only thing that could really help me. So I'm trying to find a mother who could adopt me and give me all the hugs and comfort, so then my life would matter, especially if I'd get to make her happy.
But I wouldn't want to be adopted by a stranger, because stranger is danger. So I'd like us to become friends first and see how it goes from there. I'm not looking for anything sexual in the beginning, because I think sharing something like that is only meant for people who love each other very much and is just a way to express love. And if it ever gets to that, I'd like my mama to teach me about these things. Having that connection with her would be very important to me. I'd like her to take care of me that way regularly to keep me healthy and happy. Because I would have so much love to give her and it wouldn't feel nice if I had to keep it all in.
Here's a list of the basic things I want my mama to be:
- Identifies as a woman, no matter cis or trans.
- Likes femininity and presents feminine.
- Monogamous, and wouldn't want other children besides me.
- Values privacy, mature, kind and gentle.
- Would be okay with just texting for a long while because I'm not comfortable with voice/video calls.
- Would never see me as her partner or as her girlfriend but only as her child, at all times. Because that unconditional love that mothers have for their children is the only kind of love I need.
- Would be able to love me with how I am right now. I never got a chance to make myself pretty or to properly train my voice. And I want her to be able to love my private parts too because I don't want to get a surgery there.
- Would have some time for me everyday (even if it's not much) and would be willing to spend time together by watching shows/cartoons/movies through screen share.
- Can text well. (Proper introduction, ability to keep the conversation going, asking me questions too, not just answering mine) And with good grammar because I want my mama to be someone I look up to.
I think that the purpose of my life is to make my future mommy happy. I've tried being on my own and achieving something by myself but no matter how hard I tried things always ended up the same, changing nothing, and I'm tired of it. I have prepared a special letter, it talks more about what I'm like so you could see if I'm someone you'd eventually want to adopt. It's meant for everyone who is still here but don't feel pressured to read the whole thing, I know I'm not for most people. I hope you are doing well and thank you for your time ❤️
Adoption letter
Hello! My name is Lena, and I'm the girl who hopes to feed all of the bunnies in the world one day, that's my side quest! Because they're too little to do much themselves, and in a lot of ways they're like me! Though I haven't gotten to pet a single bunny yet, they're all hiding pretty well which is what they must do to avoid scary animals. Sometimes I feel like a bunny that is all alone in the forest, who doesn't know where to go and what to do and who doesn't have a place to call home. It makes me very sad to think about it, but that's basically who I am. So I'm writing this letter in hopes it reaches someone who would like to adopt me so I'll never have to be lonely again!
Having a loving mother is my number one wish! For a long time there wasn't a day I haven't thought about doing my absolute best for a person who would know better what is good for me. But no matter how much I wish for it there is always that one realization, I'm not the only girl with those wishes. There are so many other people like me wanting to have a mother because of the same reasons. And knowing that, I don't get why any mama would ever choose me. So instead of trying to convince you to adopt me I'll tell you why it would be better to give a chance to someone else first!
I'm not pretty, even though I really want to be, my voice and body don't represent who I am. I don't know how we'll ever meet, I live in a bad country and I'm not capable of doing much for myself. I am often scared of talking to people so I try to avoid them. I am not strong and I often feel sad because of how much I don't like my life. Being a mother to someone like me wouldn't be easy, I wouldn't want my mama to feel bad and worried about me all the time. Choosing someone without my problems would, in the end, make you happier and potentially make another person's life because all they wanted was a mother too. So It would be a good thing!
But in the case of me being the only option left I'd like to tell you more about me. As you have probably figured by now, I like bunnies, I think they're the cutest little animals. If mama would wish so I could be her personal little bunny pet sometimes! Because I also like carrots just like a bunny! Besides that I like to watch cartoons and shows and play computer games and I would really love to do that together with mommy. We could watch or play whatever you'd want even if it's not something of my taste it would make me happy nonetheless because then I'd get to be your good girl. I also like to do different creative things too and I'd be happy to tell you about it more sometime. I hope to learn to play violin because it sounds so pretty!
There are lots of things I still don't know much about and I'd like mommy to teach me about them. Maybe how to bake a cake because I really like cakes and sweets, I rarely get sweets or yummy foods where I am so I'm very skinny. Mama could also teach me how to cook so then we could do it together! Or so I could do it on my own if she's busy or tired. Or maybe she could teach me how to be more beautiful so I could be a pretty princess for her. Though not knowing lots of things doesn't mean that I'm not smart already. I learned English on my own since it's not my native language, I learned lots of computer things since I have one, and I learned how to be kind to everyone.
Even if I can't do many things by myself, I'm still very obedient and I always want to be a good girl for my mommy. So I hope that she wouldn't expect much of me because it would hurt if I disappointed her. I want her to raise me like her own child. Making decisions for me, choosing things for me if I don't know what I want, dressing me up in any cute outfit she wants, guiding me through things I'm not well familiar with, nursing me every night to make sure that I will have happy dreams. I really like being babied and pampered and I hope mama would want to baby me everyday. I want to be her dear little starlight that is always there, always eager to listen, that would always have her be my whole world, and that would always cling to her as if she was the comfiest pillow there is. I want us to be so close that we would share everything with each other. I want my mama to not be afraid of sharing her true feelings with me, I understand that sometimes grown ups can't have everything under control so I'll be there to hold my mama and remind her of what a lovely person she is.
I have a lot of love to give but I only want to give it to one person, my dear mommy. I wouldn't need friends if I had a mama because she'd be my best friend, and I don't care about my biological family so she would be the only person in my life that matters to me. She would be my shelter and my home. I'd never have to be so scared anymore because I'd have my mommy there for me and I know that as long as I'll have her everything will be okay. And I hope that I could be like home for my mommy too, I want to be the person she always reaches out to first about anything, I want to have a special place in her heart that no one else would ever take. I want to be her best and her favorite girl, and I really want to make her happy.
If you think that I'm a girl you'd like to know better, you can message me! Thank you for reading this letter, and for making it through the whole thing, look at this cute bunny munching on some grass: 🌿🐰*nom nom*