u/Silver_Ferret2166

Update on this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/seed_irl/s/HiXZzb2pCk

After some discussions on here I decided to tell my partner that I was going to volunteer myself to become a floret to which she said that “they must have really brainwashed me”. She had called me brainwashed before and after realizing the affini were going to domesticate her eventually, I decided that I should report her to the affini. So during the same time I volunteered to become domesticated I reported her and told them (the affini) that I wish for us to have the same owner since we are pinnates. They said they’ll see what they can do and then asked why I hadn’t reported her earlier. To which I stuttered and didn’t know what to answer, which they thought was very cute. The affini said they were considering forcefully domesticating me tomorrow because I was sympathizing with a feralist. They must have seen the worry on my face since they quickly answered that since I volunteered so nicely and reported my partner they’ll let me fill out the form and pair me up with an affini that would suit my needs.

I’m going to get my new owner tomorrow! I’m so excited! But I’m still worried about whether my partner and I will get the same owner and I’m worried that she will fight back to much. Is there anything I can do to help her understand that this is what’s best for us?

So I’m an independent and have general anxiety disorder and have ADD and autism, so I’m basically constantly anxious and overstimulated and understimulated at the same time. I feel like if I volunteered to become a floret the affini would pair me up with an affini who matches my needs and will be lighter on me since I volunteered. I’m okay with them giving me a haustoric implant so I’m a pretty well fit to become a floret. I love being taken care of like a pet in my relationship with my partner, and not having to worry about everything because of the xenodrugs the affini give us (as I’ve heard and seen from seeing affini walking their florets in the park) and because my new owner would take care of it for me sounds great! If I get the right affini I might even be allowed to continue my historical research (even if only in a very limited way). With all this in mind I feel like becoming a floret is the best thing for me and my health.

There is just one problem. My partner is a feralist and calls themselves a ”terran supremacist” jokingly. They treat me really well and they are very considerate of me and I love them. But I’m afraid of how they’d react if I volunteered to become a floret. What if they wouldn’t love me anymore? What if the affini found out and my partner resists so much they buy them on class O drugs or make her into a sprout? What if they wouldn’t want to be with me anymore? And if they want to continue to be with me could I still keep our relationship as a floret?

Me and my partner have both been doing BDSM for a while. Like almost complete restriction bondage, CNC, me calling her master, pet play (following commands usually given to a dog and given treats when done a good job. And drinking out of a bowl and barking and such). We have also done overstimulation, bratting and brat taming, I have a collar she gave me, and a lot of other stuff. Most of these things are play and we have tried making more of a 24/7 dynamic but we feel like it’s hard. We don’t know what to do to make that happen. It’s also a lot harder since we don’t live in the same country. We do meet several times a year (like 4 or 5 times). Usually we meet for like 8 days but next time we meet we are going to be together for 3 weeks maybe a little longer even. Anyway it’s hard to make a dynamic with these conditions. So far our dynamic basically only consists of her controlling when I get to masturbate.

Anyway we want to try a more serious BDSM dynamic but we are not so knowledgeable about how to make one, how to write a contract (what should be in the contract and what can be in it), and what kind of aspects, rules and concepts can be part of it.

Personally I really want to feel like I’m owned but I’m not sure if I want it in a slave way or pet way. I really want to feel like she has complete control of me and like I’m lesser than her in some way, be it because I’m her slave or become I’m her pet. I want her to be able to make me feel vulnerable and worried not just during sex. So how can we make this happen in a more serious BDSM dynamic? Sorry for the rant.