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When Mommy abandons you what does one do?

Wait in the rain and the cold? Wander and roam the earth to no ends in hopes of her return? Is there no end to one’s desperation and despair? If one gives up hope are they no longer subservient and faithful? I guess I’ll sit here with this shadow and wait. She will come back…

I have a terrible slut side. The worst actually and my Mommy Domme owns it. Normally I have very specific rules. One being asking for permission to do anything sexual. Recently I’ve had rules taken away because I have not been a good boy. This in its self is a punishment. I need my rules I feel loved the more controlled I am.

I recently fucked myself in the ass. It was good, no amazing. The first orgasm so perfect. Each one got better and better. Long story short I had 6-8 squirting full body anal orgasms. I used myself hard and wanted it harder.

I told Mommy what I did. She became aggressive and possessive. Wanting to punish me, use me. If I’m going to be a dirty slut I should be treated like one. She was filled with love, anger, happiness, possessive. A wall of conflicts hit her at once.

The following day as a result of what I did I needed to be reminded of who owns me. My ass l, my slultiness. Mommy made me put hot sauce on my ass hole to keep me in check. I am an owned boy. I’m no body without her. She makes me who I am and I serve her. I love you Mommy.

My skin grows cold and clammy with the absence of Mother. Life has no purpose anymore. It’s been two minutes and I’m ready to remove myself from this cruel world. The air is like a poison. Happiness seems like a far away distant memory, separated by a vast and empty ocean of lost hopes and dreams. forever unattainable and I’m stranded on a lonely island. The sun is hot and the are is stale. The ability to feel physical pain has been robbed from me. I get no reprieve from the emptiness. The universe has taken all sensations except for a dark empty emotional feeling of abandonment accompanied by a parched and desperate thirsty feeling never to be satiated.

Too dramatic? Haha. I miss you Mommy.