u/Taylor_talk

I’m wearing one of my favorite old dresses without any panties. Fun fact I took this dress from my sister’s best friend’s mom. Kinda forgot to give it back and haven’t seen her in years now🧍
I haven’t really left the house since I got back. I’ve spent a good chunk of my time back sleeping or cumming. I’m back to work tomorrow, :p
Now that I’m thinking about it I barely even cleaned anything yesterday lol. I have been cooking though, so that’s a step. Right now leaving the house feels like dying. But we persist despite.
Maybe one day I’ll make the trip to the corner store with a toy in me- that could be a good motivator.

I’m sitting here now staring at the door and my heart is pounding. I think I’m gonna throw on jewelry so I feel more like a person, maybe then it won’t be so scary stepping out of my house..

I’ve taken over 250mg of thc and over 10 shots in total. Maybe a couple mix drinks, maybe I’ve smoked a little bit. I’m struggling to bring myself to stand up from the couch I’m sitting at when someone comes over and starts touching me. My breathing is heavy and every touch feels like I’m melting. They stick their hands in my pants when someone comes over. I hear muffled yelling as the world turns around me, when I try to focus on faces they’re not there. Eventually I close my eyes so I’m not as dizzy. The hands continue touching me, except I’m sure there’s more of them. I hear dimmed voices gathering around me as my voice is coaxed out of my throat. Before the word can even form in my mind I’m having an orgasm. One of my hands faintly moves to cover myself as I shake. Hands support me.. or hold me back- in the blur I can’t tell. As I feel my legs spread apart. Some sensation grows more intense as the blob blurry standing in front of me grows larger. More of my voice is coaxed out of me until I feel something in my mouth. “Sex” I finally register. “This is sex” I begin shaking as the sensation spreads. I feel warmth over my ass and my tits, my crotch and my mouth, I feel my hands going to different spots being moved and repositioned but I can’t ever fully figure out where they’re going. I’m fed drinks and little candies and the world spins more. My body reacts every so often but anytime I try to put more words to it they dissipate. Eventually the feelings stop. Something.. Smooth cold and rough. The ground. I’m lying on the ground now. An aching surges through my throat as I cough and twitch there. My body still too tired to move, that is where I sleep. I leak cum from both ends until the sunrise wakes me

Sorry for any spelling errors it was hard typing this out drunk

Sometimes I think about deleting all my photos and videos, just pretending like this never happened.
I don’t stay because people tell me they already have my pictures screenshotted and saved, or they tell me how much seeing my ass makes their day, I stay because..what else would I do if I left? I’d go back to sitting here all day bored. At least now people tell me I’m pretty, or least that my tits are cute. I drank a couple shots and I plan on drinking more. Being 100% I don’t really care most of the time if people see me as sexy or hot or whatever. I’ve never cared for sex. I don’t know if it started with my assault. That’s so long ago now I’m not sure. When I’m sexualized at least I’m
Sexual, at least some something. Most days I just don’t even feel like a person, so yeah, I take pleasure in seeing my following count go up or someone telling me they’re glad they came across my page, sue me. Is it that evil that I like being acknowledged? Another shot down and the only thing I care about is the ache in my pussy and how none of my friends really care what’s going on in my personal life. Which of those do you think is easier for me to deal with? Every emotion I’ve shut off by turning on a vibrator. Cumming time and time again until the thought is gone or I pass out. Shots and edibles. Anyways. None of this make sense, the world is turning at the corners and I’m expected to be hot. I’m expected to be anything. All I want is to find there’s nothing left. I wake up to find the toy sticking out of my pussy just as dead as I am. But instead I wake up in this thing that doesn’t ever feel quite like me and this hunger that takes over every thought I’ve ever known. I wake up ready for the end but guess what? It’s never here. I remain.

I want something to think about while I fuck myself for the umpeenth time today

Sometimes it really feels like my life calling is to cum has much as possible day in and day out. If I could create energy just from cumming I’d be benefiting the world around me. But instead I’m just laid up on my back with a dildo in me and a vibrator on me. I killed one toy already. I’m tracking how many times I cum(I have a tally count on my thigh and my boob)

I’ve struggled with vaginismus for years now, and it’s been awful. Overtime I’ve been able to penetrate on my own, but only with small things and only ever on my own. I decided it was time to use something way more realistic to get my body used to the sight and feeling of a real dick again. It’s been so strange feeling myself grip around it! Pretty soon I’ll try a different position to let my body adjust that way too! Yay!!!
Here’s to working myself up to a monster cock!!💃🏿

But for now I’ll just stay in bed for a little while longer ☺️

It may be a lil lumpy but it’s got all my stuffed animals and favorite blankets!

Writing this while smoking and using a vibrator so I apologize for any over sights while writing this
Yesterday when I got home from being out with a friend I took a bunch of edibles(I lost count:/) and then laid down and let my self relax while my toys did their job.
It’s so nice to be able to enjoy myself without fear of someone walking in! I love being home.
I also had my first orgasm from penetration only! I’ve only ever cum from my clit or nipples and I just use penetration for added stimulation. I used my favorite dildo but I was too high to multitask 😅 anyway story for another time I guess.
I get a free joint whenever I spend over a certain amount at my local dispo so I’m having a great time

My family took me out to a fancy dinner, I got to try a couple different cocktails and margaritas and a martini! I went off to pee and decided it was the perfect time to fix my bra(one of my boobs was slowly escaping out of the bottom) and then I realized “I’m alone, I could take a picture right now!” So I did 🧍😊
“Thank you Taylor”
Oh you’re welcome! Just figured I’d include you all on my dinner outing!

It’s so funny how soon you miss an air mattress when you haven’t properly slept in like two days

It just builds all day.
It rises like heat throughout my body
Begging me to cave.
I grow more and more desperate until every step feels like submission
Every thought morphed into something more provocative
Perverted
I collapse in my room, pants off enough to have access
That’s good enough for me
The lightest pressure and I’m there, but it’s never enough
When I wait this long the punishment for holding out is endless
Fuck. I’m horny again.

I’ve sobered up some but I’m exhausted.
I got my first cum tribute today, and multiple cock tributes💜

Swipe to watch me strip!