u/TheSluttyKitten456

so josie and i have been best friends for six years and there are things i know about her that nobody else does, and vice versa, and we've always had this understanding that whatever happens between us stays between us. she knows everything. all my kinks, all my worst ideas, all the things i've let strangers do to me that i probably shouldn't have. she's never judged me once. if anything she's encouraged me.

so when she texted me a few weeks ago and said "josh and i have been talking about something. can you come over saturday" i knew. i mean i didn't know exactly. but i knew the way you know when you step onto ice and feel it flex under you and keep walking anyway.

i got there at like seven and josh answered the door and he had this look on his face, like he'd been thinking about this all day, and i felt it already in my stomach. josie came downstairs in this little cotton dress and gave me a hug and kissed my cheek and whispered "i'm going to watch him completely ruin you" and i felt my legs go soft.

they walked me into their bedroom and there were restraints already laid out on the bed. soft ones, the kind that look casual until they're on. and a paddle. and a riding crop. i saw the crop and my brain went static.

"undress," josh said. not a question.

josie sat on the edge of the bed and crossed her legs and said nothing. just watched. that was almost the hottest part already, the way she looked at me. not weird about it, just interested, like this was a show she'd been waiting to see.

i took everything off and josh walked around me once without touching and i just stood there. he said "look at you. just standing there like a good little thing waiting to get used." and josie said "she's really pretty isn't she" and he said "yeah she is" and then he grabbed my arm and said "on the bed."

they tied my wrists to the headboard first. then my ankles spread. and i was lying there completely open and they just looked at me for a second and josie said "perfect" in this quiet, satisfied voice.

then it started.

josh had the paddle and he used it on my ass while i was face down and josie sat by my head and watched my face. i was biting the pillow. he wasn't being gentle. every hit sent this wave of heat and the pressure built fast and i made a sound i wasn't expecting and josie said "there she is" like she'd been waiting for that specific sound.

"you're going to take what we give you, right?" josh said from behind me, punctuating it with another hit.

"yes"

"yes what"

"yes sir"

josie laughed softly at that and said "she's so good" and i didn't know if she was talking to me or him but either way something in my chest tightened up in the best way.

he switched to the crop at some point and that was different, sharper, and i hissed and pulled at the restraints and josie reached over and put her hand on my face and said "hey. stay. you're okay" in this calm voice and somehow that made it easier to take. she'd smooth her thumb along my cheek and then look over my head at josh and say "harder" and he'd go harder and i'd make a sound into the mattress and she'd watch my face the whole time like she was cataloguing all of it.

they flipped me over eventually. i was already embarrassingly worked up, shaking a little, face hot. josh looked at me spread out on the bed and said "you're really going to just let us do anything we want to you" and i said yes and he said "you're such a little slut" with this low certainty, not even mean, just factual, and josie said "that's why we invited her."

she sat up near my head while he was between my legs and she grabbed my chin and turned my face toward her and said "look at me while he fucks you." her eyes were bright. she looked so happy. something about being watched by her specifically while he pushed into me was almost too much, like there was nowhere to hide, she knew every single thing i was feeling and she wanted to watch me feel it.

"she's so wet already," josh said. "look at this. we barely touched her and she's already soaked."

"i know," josie said, still looking at my face. "she's been thinking about this for weeks."

"have you," he said, not a question.

"yes," i said, and josie smiled.

he fucked me hard. not building up to it, just started hard and stayed there, and the restraints were the only thing keeping me from sliding up the bed. josie held my face and watched my expressions and occasionally said things to josh like "don't let her come yet" and "i want you to use her mouth after this" and he listened to every single instruction.

when she let him slap me i think i made a sound that surprised all of us. he'd been going rough already but that was different and i arched up and said oh god and josie said "she liked that, do it again" and he did.

she spit on me at one point. casually, like it was nothing, right onto my chest, and looked at josh and said "your turn" and he did too, and then looked at me like i should be grateful, and i was, which is genuinely embarrassing to type.

"you're such a dirty little thing," josie said to me softly. "you'd let us do literally anything."

"yes"

"i know." she kissed my forehead and then said to josh, over me like i wasn't there, "i want you to cum in her. i want to watch you breed her."

i think i stopped breathing.

"yeah?" he said.

"i want it," josie said. "she needs it. look at her, she's desperate."

"you want that?" he asked me, looking down.

"please," i said. "please please yes"

"please what," josie said, because of course she did.

"please cum in me, please, i need it, please"

she looked so pleased with herself. she held my face in her hands while he got close and said "that's it. take it. take all of it" in this soft careful voice and he came in me and i felt every second of it and i made a sound that went on too long and josie kept her hands on my face the whole time and watched me with this soft, satisfied, completely unhinged smile.

we stayed like that for a minute. nobody moved. josh pulled out slow and josie looked down and then back up at me and said "good girl" and i closed my eyes.

that was maybe two hours in. they weren't done.

i won't tell you everything. some of it i'm still processing honestly. at some point i had my face buried in the mattress while josh had the crop again and josie was talking to me in that low voice saying you're ours tonight, you're just here for us, you're such a perfect little toy, and i kept thinking i should feel more complicated about this than i do. i don't. i really don't. josie is my best friend and she organized this entire thing because she knew me well enough to know what i needed and i've never felt more understood by anyone in my life.

we ended up tangled on the bed around ten, all three of us, josie with her head on my shoulder, josh passed out across the foot of the bed, everything quiet and warm and wrecked-feeling.

josie said "are you okay?" and i said "i'm incredible" and she laughed and said "i know."

she's such a good best friend honestly.

so josie and i have been best friends for six years and there are things i know about her that nobody else does, and vice versa, and we've always had this understanding that whatever happens between us stays between us. she knows everything. all my kinks, all my worst ideas, all the things i've let strangers do to me that i probably shouldn't have. she's never judged me once. if anything she's encouraged me.

so when she texted me a few weeks ago and said "josh and i have been talking about something. can you come over saturday" i knew. i mean i didn't know exactly. but i knew the way you know when you step onto ice and feel it flex under you and keep walking anyway.

i got there at like seven and josh answered the door and he had this look on his face, like he'd been thinking about this all day, and i felt it already in my stomach. josie came downstairs in this little cotton dress and gave me a hug and kissed my cheek and whispered "i'm going to watch him completely ruin you" and i felt my legs go soft.

they walked me into their bedroom and there were restraints already laid out on the bed. soft ones, the kind that look casual until they're on. and a paddle. and a riding crop. i saw the crop and my brain went static.

"undress," josh said. not a question.

josie sat on the edge of the bed and crossed her legs and said nothing. just watched. that was almost the hottest part already, the way she looked at me. not weird about it, just interested, like this was a show she'd been waiting to see.

i took everything off and josh walked around me once without touching and i just stood there. he said "look at you. just standing there like a good little thing waiting to get used." and josie said "she's really pretty isn't she" and he said "yeah she is" and then he grabbed my arm and said "on the bed."

they tied my wrists to the headboard first. then my ankles spread. and i was lying there completely open and they just looked at me for a second and josie said "perfect" in this quiet, satisfied voice.

then it started.

josh had the paddle and he used it on my ass while i was face down and josie sat by my head and watched my face. i was biting the pillow. he wasn't being gentle. every hit sent this wave of heat and the pressure built fast and i made a sound i wasn't expecting and josie said "there she is" like she'd been waiting for that specific sound.

"you're going to take what we give you, right?" josh said from behind me, punctuating it with another hit.

"yes"

"yes what"

"yes sir"

josie laughed softly at that and said "she's so good" and i didn't know if she was talking to me or him but either way something in my chest tightened up in the best way.

he switched to the crop at some point and that was different, sharper, and i hissed and pulled at the restraints and josie reached over and put her hand on my face and said "hey. stay. you're okay" in this calm voice and somehow that made it easier to take. she'd smooth her thumb along my cheek and then look over my head at josh and say "harder" and he'd go harder and i'd make a sound into the mattress and she'd watch my face the whole time like she was cataloguing all of it.

they flipped me over eventually. i was already embarrassingly worked up, shaking a little, face hot. josh looked at me spread out on the bed and said "you're really going to just let us do anything we want to you" and i said yes and he said "you're such a little slut" with this low certainty, not even mean, just factual, and josie said "that's why we invited her."

she sat up near my head while he was between my legs and she grabbed my chin and turned my face toward her and said "look at me while he fucks you." her eyes were bright. she looked so happy. something about being watched by her specifically while he pushed into me was almost too much, like there was nowhere to hide, she knew every single thing i was feeling and she wanted to watch me feel it.

"she's so wet already," josh said. "look at this. we barely touched her and she's already soaked."

"i know," josie said, still looking at my face. "she's been thinking about this for weeks."

"have you," he said, not a question.

"yes," i said, and josie smiled.

he fucked me hard. not building up to it, just started hard and stayed there, and the restraints were the only thing keeping me from sliding up the bed. josie held my face and watched my expressions and occasionally said things to josh like "don't let her come yet" and "i want you to use her mouth after this" and he listened to every single instruction.

when she let him slap me i think i made a sound that surprised all of us. he'd been going rough already but that was different and i arched up and said oh god and josie said "she liked that, do it again" and he did.

she spit on me at one point. casually, like it was nothing, right onto my chest, and looked at josh and said "your turn" and he did too, and then looked at me like i should be grateful, and i was, which is genuinely embarrassing to type.

"you're such a dirty little thing," josie said to me softly. "you'd let us do literally anything."

"yes"

"i know." she kissed my forehead and then said to josh, over me like i wasn't there, "i want you to cum in her. i want to watch you breed her."

i think i stopped breathing.

"yeah?" he said.

"i want it," josie said. "she needs it. look at her, she's desperate."

"you want that?" he asked me, looking down.

"please," i said. "please please yes"

"please what," josie said, because of course she did.

"please cum in me, please, i need it, please"

she looked so pleased with herself. she held my face in her hands while he got close and said "that's it. take it. take all of it" in this soft careful voice and he came in me and i felt every second of it and i made a sound that went on too long and josie kept her hands on my face the whole time and watched me with this soft, satisfied, completely unhinged smile.

we stayed like that for a minute. nobody moved. josh pulled out slow and josie looked down and then back up at me and said "good girl" and i closed my eyes.

that was maybe two hours in. they weren't done.

i won't tell you everything. some of it i'm still processing honestly. at some point i had my face buried in the mattress while josh had the crop again and josie was talking to me in that low voice saying you're ours tonight, you're just here for us, you're such a perfect little toy, and i kept thinking i should feel more complicated about this than i do. i don't. i really don't. josie is my best friend and she organized this entire thing because she knew me well enough to know what i needed and i've never felt more understood by anyone in my life.

we ended up tangled on the bed around ten, all three of us, josie with her head on my shoulder, josh passed out across the foot of the bed, everything quiet and warm and wrecked-feeling.

josie said "are you okay?" and i said "i'm incredible" and she laughed and said "i know."

she's such a good best friend honestly.

ok so. the plug was my idea. i need to own that. i woke up that saturday already in a certain mood and when i was getting ready i just decided i was going to wear the little black skirt, no panties, and put the plug in before i left and see what happened. there was no plan beyond that, i just wanted to feel like a secret the whole night

and it worked, kind of almost too well

the party was at someone's place and it was crowded enough that i could move around without being obvious but open enough that i could position myself. and i was doing this thing where i'd find a corner or a spot near the stairs and let my skirt ride up a little or sit down somewhere across from guys who were being too obviously boring and just. let them see. not for long. just long enough

i made eye contact with one of them about an hour in. dark hair, taller than average, kind of quiet in that way that's actually not quiet at all, just selective. he caught me and instead of looking away he just stared and i felt that in the plug and everywhere else

i looked away first. obviously. and then i did it again, and this time i let my knees separate just barely and watched his jaw shift

he looked at his friend and then back at me and i pretended to be very interested in my drink

this went on for like twenty minutes. me being casual and shameless, him getting more and more visibly unsubtle about watching me. his friend said something to him at one point and he just answered without taking his eyes off me and that made something go hot in my stomach

then he put his drink down and started walking over

and i think i stopped breathing for a second

he didn't say hi or anything normal like that. he just came and stood very close and said quietly "are you wearing anything under that skirt"

and i said "no"

and he said "i know. i've been watching you flash half the room for the last thirty minutes"

and i said "then you probably know what the answer is already"

he looked at me for a second like he was deciding something and then he just took my arm, not rough but not asking, and said "come with me"

and i went

he found a bedroom, one of those spare ones that's empty except for coats on the bed, and he pushed me in ahead of him and closed the door

"you're a little slut, you know that?" he said it not like an insult, like a fact, like he was just confirming something out loud

"yeah," i said, because honestly what else was i going to say

he made me turn around and pushed me face first into the wall, just like that, no preamble, and then he got close behind me and pushed my skirt up and just stopped

"what the fuck," he said, quieter, when he found the plug

"i told you"

"you walked in here like this?" he pressed it a little and i made a sound i wasn't planning on making

"obviously"

he made a low sound and then he was pulling my arms up against the wall above my head and pressing his whole body against my back and i could feel how hard he was already and he said right against my ear "you came to a party stuffed and bare and just wanted someone to notice"

"i wanted someone to do something about it"

"yeah," he said, "i know. that's why i'm here"

he took the plug out slow, slow enough that i had to bite the inside of my cheek not to make too much noise, and he said "good little slut keeping it warm for me" and i said nothing because my brain had already gone somewhere else

and then he fucked me standing up against that wall with his hand in my hair and his mouth at my ear telling me exactly what he thought of me

"you're such a dirty little thing, you know how easy you were? stood there flashing people like you were shopping. like you were deciding who got to use you"

"weren't you"

"and then you just let me walk you into a room. didn't even ask my name. that's what you are, huh? just a hole in a skirt waiting for someone to figure it out"

i said please and he said please what

and i said please don't stop

and he said "i know. i know you don't want me to stop, you've been begging for this all night" and he fucked me harder and i started losing track of the order of things

he flipped me onto the coats at some point and got me on my back and pushed my thighs apart and said "look at you, you're soaking. you came to this party already wet didn't you"

"yes"

"yeah you did. you're not even embarrassed"

"should i be"

"no," he said, and something shifted in his voice, lower, "you should be exactly like this. that's your whole thing, isn't it. little cumslut in a skirt who gets off on being seen"

"yes"

"yeah. that's what i thought"

he kept going until i had my face buried in someone's coat trying not to make noise and he had his thumb on my clit and his voice in my ear saying you're so easy, such a good little slut, take it, take all of it

i finished embarrassingly fast, like i'd been building to it since i put the plug in, which honestly i had been

and then he came in me without asking and without apology and i did not want him to apologize at all

he pulled back and looked at me for a second and said "you're going to think about this for a while"

and i said "i know"

and he said "good" and straightened up and left

i lay there for a minute with my skirt still pushed up and my hair completely wrecked and thought yeah, absolutely, this is exactly what i came here for

i walked back out twenty minutes later and he was talking to his friend again and he didn't look at me

which somehow made it better. it was exactly what i wanted after all

ok so. the plug was my idea. i need to own that. i woke up that saturday already in a certain mood and when i was getting ready i just decided i was going to wear the little black skirt, no panties, and put the plug in before i left and see what happened. there was no plan beyond that, i just wanted to feel like a secret the whole night

and it worked, kind of almost too well

the party was at someone's place and it was crowded enough that i could move around without being obvious but open enough that i could position myself. and i was doing this thing where i'd find a corner or a spot near the stairs and let my skirt ride up a little or sit down somewhere across from guys who were being too obviously boring and just. let them see. not for long. just long enough

i made eye contact with one of them about an hour in. dark hair, taller than average, kind of quiet in that way that's actually not quiet at all, just selective. he caught me and instead of looking away he just stared and i felt that in the plug and everywhere else

i looked away first. obviously. and then i did it again, and this time i let my knees separate just barely and watched his jaw shift

he looked at his friend and then back at me and i pretended to be very interested in my drink

this went on for like twenty minutes. me being casual and shameless, him getting more and more visibly unsubtle about watching me. his friend said something to him at one point and he just answered without taking his eyes off me and that made something go hot in my stomach

then he put his drink down and started walking over

and i think i stopped breathing for a second

he didn't say hi or anything normal like that. he just came and stood very close and said quietly "are you wearing anything under that skirt"

and i said "no"

and he said "i know. i've been watching you flash half the room for the last thirty minutes"

and i said "then you probably know what the answer is already"

he looked at me for a second like he was deciding something and then he just took my arm, not rough but not asking, and said "come with me"

and i went

he found a bedroom, one of those spare ones that's empty except for coats on the bed, and he pushed me in ahead of him and closed the door

"you're a little slut, you know that?" he said it not like an insult, like a fact, like he was just confirming something out loud

"yeah," i said, because honestly what else was i going to say

he made me turn around and pushed me face first into the wall, just like that, no preamble, and then he got close behind me and pushed my skirt up and just stopped

"what the fuck," he said, quieter, when he found the plug

"i told you"

"you walked in here like this?" he pressed it a little and i made a sound i wasn't planning on making

"obviously"

he made a low sound and then he was pulling my arms up against the wall above my head and pressing his whole body against my back and i could feel how hard he was already and he said right against my ear "you came to a party stuffed and bare and just wanted someone to notice"

"i wanted someone to do something about it"

"yeah," he said, "i know. that's why i'm here"

he took the plug out slow, slow enough that i had to bite the inside of my cheek not to make too much noise, and he said "good little slut keeping it warm for me" and i said nothing because my brain had already gone somewhere else

and then he fucked me standing up against that wall with his hand in my hair and his mouth at my ear telling me exactly what he thought of me

"you're such a dirty little thing, you know how easy you were? stood there flashing people like you were shopping. like you were deciding who got to use you"

"weren't you"

"and then you just let me walk you into a room. didn't even ask my name. that's what you are, huh? just a hole in a skirt waiting for someone to figure it out"

i said please and he said please what

and i said please don't stop

and he said "i know. i know you don't want me to stop, you've been begging for this all night" and he fucked me harder and i started losing track of the order of things

he flipped me onto the coats at some point and got me on my back and pushed my thighs apart and said "look at you, you're soaking. you came to this party already wet didn't you"

"yes"

"yeah you did. you're not even embarrassed"

"should i be"

"no," he said, and something shifted in his voice, lower, "you should be exactly like this. that's your whole thing, isn't it. little cumslut in a skirt who gets off on being seen"

"yes"

"yeah. that's what i thought"

he kept going until i had my face buried in someone's coat trying not to make noise and he had his thumb on my clit and his voice in my ear saying you're so easy, such a good little slut, take it, take all of it

i finished embarrassingly fast, like i'd been building to it since i put the plug in, which honestly i had been

and then he came in me without asking and without apology and i did not want him to apologize at all

he pulled back and looked at me for a second and said "you're going to think about this for a while"

and i said "i know"

and he said "good" and straightened up and left

i lay there for a minute with my skirt still pushed up and my hair completely wrecked and thought yeah, absolutely, this is exactly what i came here for

i walked back out twenty minutes later and he was talking to his friend again and he didn't look at me

which somehow made it better. it was exactly what i wanted after all

someone i know does these parties every few months. actual organized sex parties, not just people getting drunk and hooking up, i mean a guest list, different rooms, people who know what they're there for. i'd been invited twice before and both times i bailed at the last minute because i told myself i wasn't ready, which wasn't true, i was just scared. this time i didn't bail.

got there and it felt more normal than i expected. everyone standing around drinking and talking, the whole place dim and warm and kind of charged, and my friend pointed out this back room that was just a big bed and low lighting and said "people use that however they want" and looked at me when she said it. i got another drink. and then i walked back there and sat on the edge of the bed in the dark and thought okay. we're doing this.

the first guy came in maybe ten minutes later. didn't make a big thing of it, just looked at me and said "you waiting for someone specific?" and i said "no" and that was basically it before his hand was on my thigh.

he put me on my knees first. held my face still and fucked my mouth and said "open wider, don't be a brat" when i started pulling back, and i tried and he pushed in deeper and called me a dumb little slut and i was already soaked.

i kept gagging and he'd pull out just long enough for me to catch my breath and then push back in and say "see? you can take it, you just like making it hard on yourself" and i couldn't argue. when i got spit all down my chin he tilted my face up to look at me and said "look at this mess" and something about that made my brain go completely offline.

another guy came in while the first one had me bent over the bed. i heard the door and looked up and the new one came around to the front and i opened my mouth without being asked and got back to work and there was this moment where i was getting fucked hard from behind while someone else used my throat and one of them had both hands in my hair yanking my head back and i was shaking and making sounds i had zero control over. the one using my mouth said "she's drooling all over herself, look" and the other one said "she doesn't even care, she loves it" and he wasn't wrong. i really did.

when the first guy came in my mouth he said "swallow it" like it was obvious and i did and he said "good girl" like i'd done something small and unremarkable and then left. that hit harder than anything else he'd said, somehow.

it got blurry after that in the way good things get blurry. guys came in and out, enough that i stopped counting, some of them rough immediately, hands in my hair before anything else, talking to me like something to be used, which is what i was and i knew it and that was the whole point.

one of them smacked my ass hard the second he walked in and said "hands behind your back" and when i didn't move fast enough he did it again, harder, and said "are you stupid or just slow?" and my whole body went warm and i put my hands behind my back.

i begged a lot. more than i planned to, more explicitly than i'd planned. there was one guy who kept stopping right before he came, edging himself on me while i was losing my mind, and i was saying please please just cum in me, please, i need it, and he'd ease off and smile and say "you need it? say that again" and i'd say it again and he'd slow down more and say "you're gonna have to do better than that" and eventually i was saying please fill my pussy, please, i want to feel you cum inside me, i'll do anything, please, and he laughed a little and finally did it and i felt it and went completely still for a second.

someone fucked my ass too. i'd been thinking about it honestly, all night, in that scared but not that scared way. he went slow about it, weirdly patient for someone who'd been calling me a filthy little cumdump for the last ten minutes, kept checking in with his hands even while his voice was saying "yeah that's it, that's what this hole is for, take it" and when he finally came he pushed in all the way and held there and i felt so full i could barely breathe and he said "there you go, good girl, you took every bit of it" and i didn't say anything because i really couldn't.

at some point i was on my back with two guys at once, one fucking me and one in my mouth, and someone else came in and just stood in the doorway watching. that was the thing that broke me. being visible like that, completely wrecked, obviously loving every second of it, this stranger in the doorway watching me get used from both ends. i came twice like that. not because anyone was especially trying, it just happened, and i think one of them noticed and said something about it to the other one and they kept going.

by the end my jaw hurt and my hips were sore and my legs were unreliable and i was full of cum in three places and i just lay in the dark for a while feeling completely destroyed and kind of amazed at myself. one of the last guys had said "you're really just going to let us ruin you all night, aren't you" and i hadn't argued because it was true and i liked that it was true.

eventually i went back out. got water, and took a quick shower in one of the spare bathrooms, then pretended to be a normal person at a party. my friend found me and gave me this look and i just shrugged and she started laughing.

i'm definitely going back. god i love being a slut.

someone i know does these parties every few months. actual organized sex parties, not just people getting drunk and hooking up, i mean a guest list, different rooms, people who know what they're there for. i'd been invited twice before and both times i bailed at the last minute because i told myself i wasn't ready, which wasn't true, i was just scared. this time i didn't bail.

got there and it felt more normal than i expected. everyone standing around drinking and talking, the whole place dim and warm and kind of charged, and my friend pointed out this back room that was just a big bed and low lighting and said "people use that however they want" and looked at me when she said it. i got another drink. and then i walked back there and sat on the edge of the bed in the dark and thought okay. we're doing this.

the first guy came in maybe ten minutes later. didn't make a big thing of it, just looked at me and said "you waiting for someone specific?" and i said "no" and that was basically it before his hand was on my thigh.

he put me on my knees first. held my face still and fucked my mouth and said "open wider, don't be a brat" when i started pulling back, and i tried and he pushed in deeper and called me a dumb little slut and i was already soaked.

i kept gagging and he'd pull out just long enough for me to catch my breath and then push back in and say "see? you can take it, you just like making it hard on yourself" and i couldn't argue. when i got spit all down my chin he tilted my face up to look at me and said "look at this mess" and something about that made my brain go completely offline.

another guy came in while the first one had me bent over the bed. i heard the door and looked up and the new one came around to the front and i opened my mouth without being asked and got back to work and there was this moment where i was getting fucked hard from behind while someone else used my throat and one of them had both hands in my hair yanking my head back and i was shaking and making sounds i had zero control over. the one using my mouth said "she's drooling all over herself, look" and the other one said "she doesn't even care, she loves it" and he wasn't wrong. i really did.

when the first guy came in my mouth he said "swallow it" like it was obvious and i did and he said "good girl" like i'd done something small and unremarkable and then left. that hit harder than anything else he'd said, somehow.

it got blurry after that in the way good things get blurry. guys came in and out, enough that i stopped counting, some of them rough immediately, hands in my hair before anything else, talking to me like something to be used, which is what i was and i knew it and that was the whole point.

one of them smacked my ass hard the second he walked in and said "hands behind your back" and when i didn't move fast enough he did it again, harder, and said "are you stupid or just slow?" and my whole body went warm and i put my hands behind my back.

i begged a lot. more than i planned to, more explicitly than i'd planned. there was one guy who kept stopping right before he came, edging himself on me while i was losing my mind, and i was saying please please just cum in me, please, i need it, and he'd ease off and smile and say "you need it? say that again" and i'd say it again and he'd slow down more and say "you're gonna have to do better than that" and eventually i was saying please fill my pussy, please, i want to feel you cum inside me, i'll do anything, please, and he laughed a little and finally did it and i felt it and went completely still for a second.

someone fucked my ass too. i'd been thinking about it honestly, all night, in that scared but not that scared way. he went slow about it, weirdly patient for someone who'd been calling me a filthy little cumdump for the last ten minutes, kept checking in with his hands even while his voice was saying "yeah that's it, that's what this hole is for, take it" and when he finally came he pushed in all the way and held there and i felt so full i could barely breathe and he said "there you go, good girl, you took every bit of it" and i didn't say anything because i really couldn't.

at some point i was on my back with two guys at once, one fucking me and one in my mouth, and someone else came in and just stood in the doorway watching. that was the thing that broke me. being visible like that, completely wrecked, obviously loving every second of it, this stranger in the doorway watching me get used from both ends. i came twice like that. not because anyone was especially trying, it just happened, and i think one of them noticed and said something about it to the other one and they kept going.

by the end my jaw hurt and my hips were sore and my legs were unreliable and i was full of cum in three places and i just lay in the dark for a while feeling completely destroyed and kind of amazed at myself. one of the last guys had said "you're really just going to let us ruin you all night, aren't you" and i hadn't argued because it was true and i liked that it was true.

eventually i went back out. got water, and took a quick shower in one of the spare bathrooms, then pretended to be a normal person at a party. my friend found me and gave me this look and i just shrugged and she started laughing.

i'm definitely going back. god i love being a slut.

there were two of them. which i knew going in. and i told myself it would be totally fine, totally manageable, i'm an adult who makes her own decisions about these things etc etc. and then they opened the door and they both just looked at me the way guys look at you when they've already made their minds up about what's going to happen to you and my brain just went very quiet. this was my first time meeting them in person, but we had talked about what we wanted to happen extensively online, so i knew what to expect

they didn't even let me get inside first

one of them grabbed me by the arm and said "on your knees" and it wasn't a question, didn't have any of that checking-in energy, just flat and certain, and i just dropped. right there in the entryway. on the floor. like that's a completely reasonable and normal response to that situation. (for me it is. whatever.)

the other one grabbed my hair almost immediately. not gentle, not testing, just decided. the kind of grip where you can feel every finger separately and there is no version of this where you're in charge. he tipped my head back and looked down at me for a second before he said "look at you. you look desperate already."

which was accurate.

what happened after that was about an hour of them trading off and doing whatever they wanted with my mouth and i have genuinely never felt more used and i mean that in the most grateful way possible

they had a system. one would hold my head with both hands in my hair, completely still, while the other fucked my throat. not gently. all the way down, no warm up, just pushing until i gagged and holding it there while i made sounds that were really embarrassing and also could not be helped. and every time i'd try to pull back even a little the hands in my hair would tighten and he'd say "stop. you said you could take it" in this calm flat voice like he was reminding me of something i'd agreed to. and i had agreed to it. so i'd stop.

the dirty talk was so bad. bad good. there was a lot of "open wider" said with this slow, condescending pause between each word like i was struggling to understand basic instructions, which honestly in that moment i was. and a lot of them just talking to each other about me while i was right there between them, just casual, "she takes it so well" and "bet she wanted this all week," third person, like i was the activity and not a participant. like i was just what they were doing with their night

and that specifically did something to my brain i cannot explain because the moment they started treating me like a thing they were sharing instead of a person i was having i just completely stopped thinking. went quiet all the way down. that is the closest thing to actual peace i have felt in a very long time and i don't know what that says about me and i've stopped caring

the spanking was happening all the way through. every time i gagged hard or struggled against the grip one of them would land a slap on my ass and i'd jolt and choke worse and they'd both laugh. not mean laughing. genuinely pleased laughing, like they were having a really good time and i was the fun, and something about being the fun, being what two people are enjoying, does things to me that i can't put into words right

they pulled my hair so hard at one point i had tears just from that, not from anything else, just the pull, and one of them noticed and said "there it is" like he'd been waiting for that specifically. and then he kept going

at some point one of them spit in my mouth. just tilted my chin up, waited until i opened without being told to, and did it. said "swallow" and i swallowed without thinking about it and he said "good girl" really quietly, almost to himself, and that is literally the only moment in that whole hour where i actually felt shy. which is completely deranged given everything else that was happening and how long it had been happening

they slapped my face a few times too. not hard, more like emphasis. once after i finally managed to take one of them fully without the sound being pathetic and he just tapped my cheek and said "there you go, see" like i'd done something worth noticing. the second time was when i'd drifted somewhere inside my own head and he needed me back. two fingers on my cheek, not hard, and "eyes on me when i'm in your throat" and i looked up and kept looking

when they came it was fast. one right after the other with barely any time between them, which i was not fully prepared for. first one grabbed my hair with both hands and said "don't move, don't you dare move" and came down my throat while i swallowed because that was the only available option and he held my head against him until he was completely sure i had. didn't let go until he was done

the second one stepped right into that space without giving me even a second. just moved right in and said "your turn to choke on me" in this very satisfied voice and then that's exactly what happened. same grip. same depth. "swallow every drop, don't you waste it" and i didn't. i didn't waste any of it.

when it was actually over i sat back on my heels with the carpet pressed into my knees and my hair completely destroyed and my throat raw and one of them said "you're such a good little slut" like that was just a regular sentence to say to a person you just met

it's a regular sentence to say to me specifically

i asked for water because i needed it and one of them actually went and got it, which felt very civilized of them all things considered. the other one petted my head like i was a dog and said to his friend "she did really good" and i was too far gone to even think of being offended. i agreed with him. i did do really good.

my throat hurt for two days after. i don't have one single regret. not one.

there were two of them. which i knew going in. and i told myself it would be totally fine, totally manageable, i'm an adult who makes her own decisions about these things etc etc. and then they opened the door and they both just looked at me the way guys look at you when they've already made their minds up about what's going to happen to you and my brain just went very quiet. this was my first time meeting them in person, but we had talked about what we wanted to happen extensively online, so i knew what to expect

they didn't even let me get inside first

one of them grabbed me by the arm and said "on your knees" and it wasn't a question, didn't have any of that checking-in energy, just flat and certain, and i just dropped. right there in the entryway. on the floor. like that's a completely reasonable and normal response to that situation. (for me it is. whatever.)

the other one grabbed my hair almost immediately. not gentle, not testing, just decided. the kind of grip where you can feel every finger separately and there is no version of this where you're in charge. he tipped my head back and looked down at me for a second before he said "look at you. you look desperate already."

which was accurate.

what happened after that was about an hour of them trading off and doing whatever they wanted with my mouth and i have genuinely never felt more used and i mean that in the most grateful way possible

they had a system. one would hold my head with both hands in my hair, completely still, while the other fucked my throat. not gently. all the way down, no warm up, just pushing until i gagged and holding it there while i made sounds that were really embarrassing and also could not be helped. and every time i'd try to pull back even a little the hands in my hair would tighten and he'd say "stop. you said you could take it" in this calm flat voice like he was reminding me of something i'd agreed to. and i had agreed to it. so i'd stop.

the dirty talk was so bad. bad good. there was a lot of "open wider" said with this slow, condescending pause between each word like i was struggling to understand basic instructions, which honestly in that moment i was. and a lot of them just talking to each other about me while i was right there between them, just casual, "she takes it so well" and "bet she wanted this all week," third person, like i was the activity and not a participant. like i was just what they were doing with their night

and that specifically did something to my brain i cannot explain because the moment they started treating me like a thing they were sharing instead of a person i was having i just completely stopped thinking. went quiet all the way down. that is the closest thing to actual peace i have felt in a very long time and i don't know what that says about me and i've stopped caring

the spanking was happening all the way through. every time i gagged hard or struggled against the grip one of them would land a slap on my ass and i'd jolt and choke worse and they'd both laugh. not mean laughing. genuinely pleased laughing, like they were having a really good time and i was the fun, and something about being the fun, being what two people are enjoying, does things to me that i can't put into words right

they pulled my hair so hard at one point i had tears just from that, not from anything else, just the pull, and one of them noticed and said "there it is" like he'd been waiting for that specifically. and then he kept going

at some point one of them spit in my mouth. just tilted my chin up, waited until i opened without being told to, and did it. said "swallow" and i swallowed without thinking about it and he said "good girl" really quietly, almost to himself, and that is literally the only moment in that whole hour where i actually felt shy. which is completely deranged given everything else that was happening and how long it had been happening

they slapped my face a few times too. not hard, more like emphasis. once after i finally managed to take one of them fully without the sound being pathetic and he just tapped my cheek and said "there you go, see" like i'd done something worth noticing. the second time was when i'd drifted somewhere inside my own head and he needed me back. two fingers on my cheek, not hard, and "eyes on me when i'm in your throat" and i looked up and kept looking

when they came it was fast. one right after the other with barely any time between them, which i was not fully prepared for. first one grabbed my hair with both hands and said "don't move, don't you dare move" and came down my throat while i swallowed because that was the only available option and he held my head against him until he was completely sure i had. didn't let go until he was done

the second one stepped right into that space without giving me even a second. just moved right in and said "your turn to choke on me" in this very satisfied voice and then that's exactly what happened. same grip. same depth. "swallow every drop, don't you waste it" and i didn't. i didn't waste any of it.

when it was actually over i sat back on my heels with the carpet pressed into my knees and my hair completely destroyed and my throat raw and one of them said "you're such a good little slut" like that was just a regular sentence to say to a person you just met

it's a regular sentence to say to me specifically

i asked for water because i needed it and one of them actually went and got it, which felt very civilized of them all things considered. the other one petted my head like i was a dog and said to his friend "she did really good" and i was too far gone to even think of being offended. i agreed with him. i did do really good.

my throat hurt for two days after. i don't have one single regret. not one.

my friend invited me to this party. she didn't tell me exactly what kind of party until we were already in the uber and i was like oh. OH. so that's why she said wear something easy to get out of lmao. i gave her a look and she just shrugged like what, i thought you'd like it. and honestly. she knows me too well.

it was at this house, nice neighborhood, looked totally normal from the outside. maybe 20 people, soft music, everyone just sort of casually chatting and drinking and pretending it was a totally normal night. and then it... wasn't. the vibe shift is subtle at first but you feel it. the way people touch each other a little longer than they need to. the way no one seems particularly interested in going home.

i ended up talking to these two guys. both cute in different ways, one taller with his hand on the small of my back almost immediately, the other one standing close, holding eye contact and smiling. i don't know if it was the wine or just that i felt so wanted but i was already a mess before we even touched each other. one of them leaned in and said right in my ear "we've been watching you since you walked in" and something about that just. yeah.

we ended up in this side room. low lighting, a couch, and a small crowd that kind of drifted in around us. not huge, just enough that i could feel eyes on me, and you know how i get when people are watching. it's like something in my brain turns off in the best way. the self-conscious part just goes quiet and what's left is only want.
they took their time with me first. hands everywhere, one of them kissing me while the other ran his mouth down my neck, my shoulder. i was already saying things without meaning to. things like "please" and "don't stop" and "i need you" before anything had really even happened. one of them pulled back to look at me and said "tell us what you want" and i didn't even hesitate.

i want both of you. please. and the way they looked at each other after i said that.

one of them had me from behind while the other was in front of me and i was just... full. completely full, this tiny room, people watching, and i felt like i was outside my own body in the most incredible way. the one behind me had his hand in my hair and kept talking low in my ear "you feel so good, you're so fucking perfect, god you're perfect" and i was losing my mind. i kept saying more, harder, please don't stop, and i meant every single word.

at some point the crowd shifted closer. i could feel it without looking. and that made everything about ten times more intense. knowing people were watching me come apart like that. i think i heard someone say something quiet to the person next to them and i did not care. i genuinely could not have cared less. i was way past that.

and then somewhere in the middle of it all i started begging. like really begging. i don't fully remember deciding to do it, it just came out of me. i want you to cum in me. both of you. please i want to feel it. i was saying it over and over and i wasn't performing it, that's the thing, i meant it, i needed it so bad. the guy in front of me groaned when i said it and said "yeah? you want that?" and i said yes, god yes, please, please fill me up, i need it, please.

the people watching got quieter. that held breath kind of quiet where you feel everyone paying attention. and i leaned into it. kept going. kept saying please cum in me, i want it so bad, i'm yours, please just give it to me, please i'm begging you. i could hear myself and it didn't feel like too much. it felt like exactly the right amount. like i was saying exactly what was true.

one of them went first and i swear i felt every single second of it. the sound he made. the way he held onto me. and i did not stop asking. kept saying please keep going, give me the other one too, please don't stop, i want more, please don't be done with me yet. and then the second one wasn't far behind and when he did i just collapsed into whoever was closest and laid there feeling absolutely wrecked and full and completely shameless about it.

someone handed me a glass of water a minute later. i looked up and just started laughing. the delirious kind where you can't explain it. the two of them were smiling at me. one of them kissed my forehead.

i laid there for a good five minutes feeling like my body was made of warm water. completely satisfied in a way that's hard to put into words. just glowing.

i would go back to that party every single weekend if i could.

my friend invited me to this party. she didn't tell me exactly what kind of party until we were already in the uber and i was like oh. OH. so that's why she said wear something easy to get out of lmao. i gave her a look and she just shrugged like what, i thought you'd like it. and honestly. she knows me too well.

it was at this house, nice neighborhood, looked totally normal from the outside. maybe 20 people, soft music, everyone just sort of casually chatting and drinking and pretending it was a totally normal night. and then it... wasn't. the vibe shift is subtle at first but you feel it. the way people touch each other a little longer than they need to. the way no one seems particularly interested in going home.

i ended up talking to these two guys. both cute in different ways, one taller with his hand on the small of my back almost immediately, the other one standing close, holding eye contact and smiling. i don't know if it was the wine or just that i felt so wanted but i was already a mess before we even touched each other. one of them leaned in and said right in my ear "we've been watching you since you walked in" and something about that just. yeah.

we ended up in this side room. low lighting, a couch, and a small crowd that kind of drifted in around us. not huge, just enough that i could feel eyes on me, and you know how i get when people are watching. it's like something in my brain turns off in the best way. the self-conscious part just goes quiet and what's left is only want.
they took their time with me first. hands everywhere, one of them kissing me while the other ran his mouth down my neck, my shoulder. i was already saying things without meaning to. things like "please" and "don't stop" and "i need you" before anything had really even happened. one of them pulled back to look at me and said "tell us what you want" and i didn't even hesitate.

i want both of you. please. and the way they looked at each other after i said that.

one of them had me from behind while the other was in front of me and i was just... full. completely full, this tiny room, people watching, and i felt like i was outside my own body in the most incredible way. the one behind me had his hand in my hair and kept talking low in my ear "you feel so good, you're so fucking perfect, god you're perfect" and i was losing my mind. i kept saying more, harder, please don't stop, and i meant every single word.

at some point the crowd shifted closer. i could feel it without looking. and that made everything about ten times more intense. knowing people were watching me come apart like that. i think i heard someone say something quiet to the person next to them and i did not care. i genuinely could not have cared less. i was way past that.

and then somewhere in the middle of it all i started begging. like really begging. i don't fully remember deciding to do it, it just came out of me. i want you to cum in me. both of you. please i want to feel it. i was saying it over and over and i wasn't performing it, that's the thing, i meant it, i needed it so bad. the guy in front of me groaned when i said it and said "yeah? you want that?" and i said yes, god yes, please, please fill me up, i need it, please.

the people watching got quieter. that held breath kind of quiet where you feel everyone paying attention. and i leaned into it. kept going. kept saying please cum in me, i want it so bad, i'm yours, please just give it to me, please i'm begging you. i could hear myself and it didn't feel like too much. it felt like exactly the right amount. like i was saying exactly what was true.

one of them went first and i swear i felt every single second of it. the sound he made. the way he held onto me. and i did not stop asking. kept saying please keep going, give me the other one too, please don't stop, i want more, please don't be done with me yet. and then the second one wasn't far behind and when he did i just collapsed into whoever was closest and laid there feeling absolutely wrecked and full and completely shameless about it.

someone handed me a glass of water a minute later. i looked up and just started laughing. the delirious kind where you can't explain it. the two of them were smiling at me. one of them kissed my forehead.

i laid there for a good five minutes feeling like my body was made of warm water. completely satisfied in a way that's hard to put into words. just glowing.

i would go back to that party every single weekend if i could.

it started the same way it always does. we were on the couch, all three of us, movie on, nobody watching it. josie was in the middle and i could already feel the whole thing shifting the way it does. like the air gets a little heavier and everybody's pretending they're fine. josh had his hand on her thigh and she kept glancing at me and i kept glancing at him and nobody said anything for like fifteen minutes until i just put my legs in josie's lap and she laughed and that broke whatever spell we were under

"you're always starting something," she said

i looked at josh. "i'm not doing anything"

he raised an eyebrow and that was basically it. we all knew.

josie leaned over and kissed him and i watched from like two feet away and she made this little sound against his mouth and i felt it in my stomach. she pulled back and looked at me and said "you can watch" and i was on the floor before she finished the sentence. literally. knees on the carpet, back against the coffee table, settling in like i had a reservation

they moved to the couch properly and she was in his lap facing away from him and his hands were already all over her and she was already making those sounds she makes and i was watching every single thing. the way her hips rolled. the way he was looking at her neck. the way she kept glancing down at me like she was checking that i was still there, still watching, still with her on this

i was so fucking there. there is something so hot about watching people you are friends with fuck each other. you probably won't fully understand it unless you have seen it before. but once that line is crossed things just aren't ever the same between you. it deepens the relationship like nothing else.

at some point he started slowing down and i could tell he was getting in his head a little. he looked at me. not in a weird way, in a "help" kind of way. and something just came over me

"don't stop," i said, quiet, just to him. "look how good she feels. you can feel how wet she is right?"

josie made a sound. "keep going, give it to her" i said.

he did

i kept talking. i don't even fully remember everything i said. i was just narrating what i was seeing, what i wanted to see, saying it out loud because saying it out loud was making all of us insane. i told him she could take it. i told him i wanted to see her fall apart. i told him he should fuck her harder and josie actually moaned at that and grabbed his arm and said "please" and i said "see? she's asking nicely" and josh laughed this low breathless laugh and picked up the pace and i was gripping the edge of the coffee table

"i wanna see you cum in her," i said, and my voice was not steady at all. "i want you to fill her up. i want to see it"

josie said said my name in this wrecked little voice like she was both embarrassed and desperate

i said "i know, i know, it's ok, i've got you"

and she came first, before him, like almost immediately after i said that. watching her come apart was genuinely one of the best things i've ever seen. she was loud and shaking and josh was holding her through it and i just stayed there watching, completely feral

and then he said "i'm close" and i said "do it, cum in her, right now" and he did, and i watched every single second of it, his whole body going tense, josie still shaking from her own orgasm, both of them completely wrecked together on the couch

nobody moved for a minute

then josie looked down at me and i didn't even need her to ask. she knows. she already knows. i pulled her down to the edge of the cushion and went in and god she was so warm and full and i could taste both of them and it was genuinely too much, i was dizzy, and she gasped and grabbed my hair

"don't stop," she said, "please don't stop"

i wasn't stopping

i ate her out slow at first, taking my time, licking everything, savoring it. i could feel her thighs shaking on either side of my face. josh was watching from behind her and i could feel his eyes on me and that made me go harder. i got my fingers inside her too and she made a sound that i am going to be thinking about for the rest of the month. i kept working her and she kept telling me not to stop and at some point her voice cracked completely and she grabbed the cushion with one hand and my hair with the other and i felt her whole body tighten

"fuck. fuck... oh fuck.." then she kept saying my name, just my name, over and over

and then she came all over my face and i kept going through it until she had to actually pull my head back

josh watched the whole thing without saying one word

i sat back on my heels and looked up at both of them and honestly the expressions on their faces might be my favorite thing that has ever happened to me. josie was completely demolished. josh looked like he was reconsidering a lot of things about his life

"so," i said. "wanna go again?"

josie threw a pillow at me and i just laughed

i'm genuinely so normal about all of this

god i love my life

it started the same way it always does. we were on the couch, all three of us, movie on, nobody watching it. josie was in the middle and i could already feel the whole thing shifting the way it does. like the air gets a little heavier and everybody's pretending they're fine. josh had his hand on her thigh and she kept glancing at me and i kept glancing at him and nobody said anything for like fifteen minutes until i just put my legs in josie's lap and she laughed and that broke whatever spell we were under

"you're always starting something," she said

i looked at josh. "i'm not doing anything"

he raised an eyebrow and that was basically it. we all knew.

josie leaned over and kissed him and i watched from like two feet away and she made this little sound against his mouth and i felt it in my stomach. she pulled back and looked at me and said "you can watch" and i was on the floor before she finished the sentence. literally. knees on the carpet, back against the coffee table, settling in like i had a reservation

they moved to the couch properly and she was in his lap facing away from him and his hands were already all over her and she was already making those sounds she makes and i was watching every single thing. the way her hips rolled. the way he was looking at her neck. the way she kept glancing down at me like she was checking that i was still there, still watching, still with her on this

i was so fucking there. there is something so hot about watching people you are friends with fuck each other. you probably won't fully understand it unless you have seen it before. but once that line is crossed things just aren't ever the same between you. it deepens the relationship like nothing else.

at some point he started slowing down and i could tell he was getting in his head a little. he looked at me. not in a weird way, in a "help" kind of way. and something just came over me

"don't stop," i said, quiet, just to him. "look how good she feels. you can feel how wet she is right?"

josie made a sound. "keep going, give it to her" i said.

he did

i kept talking. i don't even fully remember everything i said. i was just narrating what i was seeing, what i wanted to see, saying it out loud because saying it out loud was making all of us insane. i told him she could take it. i told him i wanted to see her fall apart. i told him he should fuck her harder and josie actually moaned at that and grabbed his arm and said "please" and i said "see? she's asking nicely" and josh laughed this low breathless laugh and picked up the pace and i was gripping the edge of the coffee table

"i wanna see you cum in her," i said, and my voice was not steady at all. "i want you to fill her up. i want to see it"

josie said said my name in this wrecked little voice like she was both embarrassed and desperate

i said "i know, i know, it's ok, i've got you"

and she came first, before him, like almost immediately after i said that. watching her come apart was genuinely one of the best things i've ever seen. she was loud and shaking and josh was holding her through it and i just stayed there watching, completely feral

and then he said "i'm close" and i said "do it, cum in her, right now" and he did, and i watched every single second of it, his whole body going tense, josie still shaking from her own orgasm, both of them completely wrecked together on the couch

nobody moved for a minute

then josie looked down at me and i didn't even need her to ask. she knows. she already knows. i pulled her down to the edge of the cushion and went in and god she was so warm and full and i could taste both of them and it was genuinely too much, i was dizzy, and she gasped and grabbed my hair

"don't stop," she said, "please don't stop"

i wasn't stopping

i ate her out slow at first, taking my time, licking everything, savoring it. i could feel her thighs shaking on either side of my face. josh was watching from behind her and i could feel his eyes on me and that made me go harder. i got my fingers inside her too and she made a sound that i am going to be thinking about for the rest of the month. i kept working her and she kept telling me not to stop and at some point her voice cracked completely and she grabbed the cushion with one hand and my hair with the other and i felt her whole body tighten

"fuck. fuck... oh fuck.." then she kept saying my name, just my name, over and over

and then she came all over my face and i kept going through it until she had to actually pull my head back

josh watched the whole thing without saying one word

i sat back on my heels and looked up at both of them and honestly the expressions on their faces might be my favorite thing that has ever happened to me. josie was completely demolished. josh looked like he was reconsidering a lot of things about his life

"so," i said. "wanna go again?"

josie threw a pillow at me and i just laughed

i'm genuinely so normal about all of this

god i love my life

for context, josie is my best friend. her boyfriend josh is... we have a history. the three of us have been doing this long enough that it stopped being a weird thing and turned into a regular thing, the kind you don't bring up over coffee but also don't really have to plan anymore because everyone knows how it goes. we all know what this is

but this time josie came in with an agenda and i didn't know it until we were already deep in it

it started normal enough. or normal for us anyway. we'd been drinking a little, not a lot, just enough to skip the part where you pretend you weren't thinking about this all week. josie kissed me first, she always does, she likes to get me wound up before josh gets anywhere near me, she told me once that she likes watching me go soft and willing and i never argued with that. she had my shirt off before i fully processed we'd started and she was kissing my neck and telling me how pretty i was and josh was watching from across the room with that look he gets

he came over when josie pulled back and then his mouth was on my collarbone and josie had her hand in my hair and i was already gone, like that fast, the two of them together just short-circuit something in my brain completely

we moved to the bed. josie kept kissing me while josh worked his way down my stomach and i was making noises i was a little embarrassed about but josie kept saying "don't, i want to hear you" against my mouth and that made it worse in the best way. she had her hand on my waist and she kept sort of gripping and releasing, gripping and releasing, like she was staying close to something

by the time josh got where he was going i was already shaking a little. he's good at that part. annoyingly, deliberately good. josie was watching over my shoulder and i could feel her watching and that's always the thing that tips me over, knowing she's there, knowing she's looking, being the thing they're both focused on at the same time

i came once before we even got to the main event which i include only because it is relevant to how completely defenseless i was when josie started talking

we were barely five minutes in. i'm on my back, josh between my thighs just getting started, and josie is next to me watching with that look she gets, and she leans close and says "i want him to cum inside you"

i looked at her

she did not look like she was joking

"josie"

she shook her head and grabbed josh's face and kissed him slow and then looked at him and said "i want to watch you fill her up"

and the noise he made against her mouth basically ended the conversation

she kept going. that's the thing. she was deliberate about it, like she'd been saving this up, like she'd been thinking about it and now she needed to say all of it out loud. she said "do you know how hot that would be" and then she looked at me and said "don't you want that" and i couldn't answer in words so i just nodded and she looked so satisfied

josh slowed down, which i thought was going to kill me, and he looked at me really carefully and said "yeah?" and i said "yeah, please" and josie made this sound next to us like we'd given her something she'd been waiting for

then she put her mouth against my ear and said "i've been thinking about this for weeks. watching him cum inside you. i want to see what it looks like after" and her voice was so steady about it, just this calm statement of fact

she had her hand on my stomach, this soft possessive thing she kept doing, and she said "you'd let us do that right. you'd let him breed you" and josh made this sound that i felt everywhere

"say it" josie said to me, still calm. "tell him you want it"

so i did. i said "i want you to cum in me" and i was not calm about it at all, i said it into his shoulder with my nails in his back and josie said "good girl" even before it happened

josie sat back a little and watched and started telling josh exactly how she wanted it to go. she said take your time. she said "i want her to feel all of it, i want her dripping when you're done" and her voice had this edge it doesn't usually have and i was completely losing my mind

at one point she leaned down and kissed me deep while josh kept going and then she pulled back and looked at him over me and said "you're going to give it all to her right" and josh groaned and said "every drop" and josie said "good boy" like she was in charge of this whole situation which, i mean, she was

she kept her hand on my stomach the whole time. i don't think she realized she was doing it but i felt it the whole time and i couldn't stop thinking about it

near the end she was talking pretty much nonstop, not loud, just steady, like she was narrating something she'd rehearsed. she said "you're going to make her so full" and "i want to see it drip out of her when you're done" and then she looked down at me and said "you want to be full of him don't you" and i said yes and meant it in a way that went slightly past the moment

i could feel when it got close. josh had his forehead on my shoulder and josie had one hand in my hair and the other still on my stomach and she said "do it, fill her up, i want to see" and then she looked at me and said "take it" and i said "please" and he did

josie made this small involuntary noise, like she'd been waiting for it and it was better than she expected. she pulled back to look, because of course she did, and she made this satisfied sound and said "look at that" like she was admiring something
and then she leaned in and kissed me on the cheek and said "good girl" so softly, to both of us at the same time, and she looked so pleased with herself

she pulled back and looked at josh with her head tilted a little and said "wasn't that better"

and he laughed and said "you've been planning this for a while haven't you"

and she just smiled and didn't answer

and i am still thinking about that smile

for context, josie is my best friend. her boyfriend josh is... we have a history. the three of us have been doing this long enough that it stopped being a weird thing and turned into a regular thing, the kind you don't bring up over coffee but also don't really have to plan anymore because everyone knows how it goes. we all know what this is

but this time josie came in with an agenda and i didn't know it until we were already deep in it

it started normal enough. or normal for us anyway. we'd been drinking a little, not a lot, just enough to skip the part where you pretend you weren't thinking about this all week. josie kissed me first, she always does, she likes to get me wound up before josh gets anywhere near me, she told me once that she likes watching me go soft and willing and i never argued with that. she had my shirt off before i fully processed we'd started and she was kissing my neck and telling me how pretty i was and josh was watching from across the room with that look he gets

he came over when josie pulled back and then his mouth was on my collarbone and josie had her hand in my hair and i was already gone, like that fast, the two of them together just short-circuit something in my brain completely

we moved to the bed. josie kept kissing me while josh worked his way down my stomach and i was making noises i was a little embarrassed about but josie kept saying "don't, i want to hear you" against my mouth and that made it worse in the best way. she had her hand on my waist and she kept sort of gripping and releasing, gripping and releasing, like she was staying close to something

by the time josh got where he was going i was already shaking a little. he's good at that part. annoyingly, deliberately good. josie was watching over my shoulder and i could feel her watching and that's always the thing that tips me over, knowing she's there, knowing she's looking, being the thing they're both focused on at the same time

i came once before we even got to the main event which i include only because it is relevant to how completely defenseless i was when josie started talking

we were barely five minutes in. i'm on my back, josh between my thighs just getting started, and josie is next to me watching with that look she gets, and she leans close and says "i want him to cum inside you"

i looked at her

she did not look like she was joking

"josie"

she shook her head and grabbed josh's face and kissed him slow and then looked at him and said "i want to watch you fill her up"

and the noise he made against her mouth basically ended the conversation

she kept going. that's the thing. she was deliberate about it, like she'd been saving this up, like she'd been thinking about it and now she needed to say all of it out loud. she said "do you know how hot that would be" and then she looked at me and said "don't you want that" and i couldn't answer in words so i just nodded and she looked so satisfied

josh slowed down, which i thought was going to kill me, and he looked at me really carefully and said "yeah?" and i said "yeah, please" and josie made this sound next to us like we'd given her something she'd been waiting for

then she put her mouth against my ear and said "i've been thinking about this for weeks. watching him cum inside you. i want to see what it looks like after" and her voice was so steady about it, just this calm statement of fact

she had her hand on my stomach, this soft possessive thing she kept doing, and she said "you'd let us do that right. you'd let him breed you" and josh made this sound that i felt everywhere

"say it" josie said to me, still calm. "tell him you want it"

so i did. i said "i want you to cum in me" and i was not calm about it at all, i said it into his shoulder with my nails in his back and josie said "good girl" even before it happened

josie sat back a little and watched and started telling josh exactly how she wanted it to go. she said take your time. she said "i want her to feel all of it, i want her dripping when you're done" and her voice had this edge it doesn't usually have and i was completely losing my mind

at one point she leaned down and kissed me deep while josh kept going and then she pulled back and looked at him over me and said "you're going to give it all to her right" and josh groaned and said "every drop" and josie said "good boy" like she was in charge of this whole situation which, i mean, she was

she kept her hand on my stomach the whole time. i don't think she realized she was doing it but i felt it the whole time and i couldn't stop thinking about it

near the end she was talking pretty much nonstop, not loud, just steady, like she was narrating something she'd rehearsed. she said "you're going to make her so full" and "i want to see it drip out of her when you're done" and then she looked down at me and said "you want to be full of him don't you" and i said yes and meant it in a way that went slightly past the moment

i could feel when it got close. josh had his forehead on my shoulder and josie had one hand in my hair and the other still on my stomach and she said "do it, fill her up, i want to see" and then she looked at me and said "take it" and i said "please" and he did

josie made this small involuntary noise, like she'd been waiting for it and it was better than she expected. she pulled back to look, because of course she did, and she made this satisfied sound and said "look at that" like she was admiring something
and then she leaned in and kissed me on the cheek and said "good girl" so softly, to both of us at the same time, and she looked so pleased with herself

she pulled back and looked at josh with her head tilted a little and said "wasn't that better"

and he laughed and said "you've been planning this for a while haven't you"

and she just smiled and didn't answer

and i am still thinking about that smile