We Matched Pt. 4
I (F26) and Guy (M51) have been talking every single day. Not all conversations are engaging, but everyday we do a simple Good Morning, some days we text more than others. We have seen each other since our lunch reunion. I did tell him how I took our situation to Reddit to which he laughed, but was also curious to know why. I let him read my post to which he said that there was literally nothing I did and that we met just during a hard time. He apologized again about how everything went down. Fast forward to Monday night, I went over to watch a movie and at first we were far apart, but slowly we made our way to basically cuddling. When I talk to people I am a direct eye contact person, I have no problem staring into people's eyes. So that is exactly what happened. But staring at him, I just stopped talking and we just stared at each other and did not say anything. We laughed and then he said “Let me just break the ice” and he grabbed me and kissed me. It felt like a fucking movie scene. I just couldn’t stop. One thing led to another and we had sex.
Ugh, all my dignity left. I do not regret it of course. I was so into him when we went out. But all my progress was gone within minutes. After the first round, we sorta just continued cuddling and did not say anything. Then we went again. Afterwards, I got change because I had to head home. But I got on top of him and straddled him and we just started kissing each other. I do not know what exactly was said, but I made a joke about “Daddy?More like grandpa” To which he laughed and said “I really am”. I responded saying, “Yet you can get a woman who is 26” and he just caressed me and nodded. That did something to me. He just looked at me. I did not know what he was thinking, but he held me. We are supposed to go out again on Tuesday and we still texted each other since then. We did not really say much about it. If I can be real, I do not really want to get back together with him. Despite our night together it was real and intimate. But we both sorta just don’t want to get back to that mess. He said “Not, right now” to which same for me too.
I just got a new job, I am going away for the summer, there is soo many fun things ahead and I am only 26, I do not see myself getting in a relationship any time soon, but I did tell him, while the sex was nice, let us not make it a habit. He agreed, he wanted to make sure I felt comfortable. I am open to any question, comments, and concerned.