Where does my backbone go when I’m with my dom?.
Hi everyone,
I 23F am a sub… and around 2 months ago I met my dom 22M. Were slowly working towards a relationship/committed dynamic and it’s so much fun. I love everything about it.
I have been in light-dynamics before but I’m in general still exploring this side of myself. Before I’ve been a bratty switch and often bratted in a way that made the powerplay flip so I was the dominant. But with my new dom I’m strictly sub, and it’s so freeing, I didn’t even realise that it was what I wanted. Okay anyway… I’m usually really stubborn, lots of attitude and backbone. I’ve rarely folded for anything/anyone.
But with my new dom. He can fold me like a fucking paper towel… I still have some attitude, but I cave and give in like never before. I’m (almost) all bark no bite. And even though I love submitting and giving myself to him. A part of me is annoyed at myself for doing it so easily every time. At first I thought it was a fase and that I would “go back to normal” after some sessions.. buuut Im realising that I don’t think I will.. and it scares me..
I’ve put a lot of “pride” in being a brat before but now it feels like I’m not a “real” brat and I’m just not sure what this change means.. can anyone help with some perspectives or maybe share thoughts if you relate in any way?
Thx ✨