I embraced a kink that annoys me now but she loves it.
So me and my wife have been together for 5 years. She takes great care of me, and has been supporting us financially since I lost my job a few months ago. She's never complained once, not even when I'm having a bad day and take it out on her. I don't deserve her fr.
Okay so here's the situation. I have a fart fetish. It took me some time but when I finally confessed to her she laughed at first but said she was fine with it. I told her she could do it whenever she wanted, anytime, even in my face. She was surprised but didn't judge me and eventually said she will try it.
I told her she can be fully relaxed, described how I like each part of her etc.
It started gradually but fast forward to now, she farts on me any chance she gets.
She used to be so insecure about her body, wouldn't like to be seen naked without the lights off, apologized for every little sound her stomach made etc. But once we started doing this she completely transformed. She's confident now, walks around the apartment naked, lets it rip without a care in the world, often on me. Even our sex life has never been better.
But almost every day when she comes back from work tired she will lay on the couch and call me to put my head on her butt, and if i'm around she will put her butt in my face and fart casually. She said it makes her feel worshipped and like it's "our" thing and how we bond.
And most of the time I liked it. But sometimes especially when I'm in the middle of something or just not in the mood I find myself making excuses to be in the other room. It just gets annoying sometimes. She will also invite me randomly and want me to put my face there.
I was about to talk to her about it. I asked how much she likes doing it, and she said she loves it. She said it makes her feel worshipped and free, and that it's just "our thing." Then I asked her what if I wanted to stop doing it, she looked surprised by the question and she said if I ever stopped she would think something is wrong, that I don't find her attractive as much anymore and it would ruin everything. Then she said she doesn't think she could be happy with someone that doesn't sniff all her farts and that she is lucky that I'm willing.
How do I proceed with this? It's not that I hate it, I love her and I don't want to hurt her but I also feel like now I can't back out anymore without it being a whole thing and her being unhappy.