u/achingdreams

for a lot of reasons its been about two weeks since i could really edge for a long time properly and it feels sooo good right now. i got myself really close a bunch of times in a row, my brain is happy and fuzzy and relaxed, and my pussy has all those good feelings running through it. its all wet and needy and aching for more, thinking of all the things that make it throb and twitch. might just keep going a while more...

he kept my pussy worked up with my lush vibe all afternoon, so i couldn't feel any rest or relief from the denial torment.

this evening he had me edge hard over and over, and then he made me ask him never to let me cum again, while edging again.

now i have to edge until i sleep. my pussy is wet and leaking, my clit is aching, and my whole body is tingling i'm so horny and so needy. i want so SO bad to cum but i don't get to cum. i'll probably cry from frustration after a few more edges, but that won't make it stop. sometimes it feels like he's being cruel but i know he knows best what's good for me.

kind of a rhetorical question because i know it has to be true, but you know how sometimes you hear/tell yourself something for so long you lose touch with what it really means?

i'm in long term denial, like a proper lifestyle thing (my choices, my kink as well as my dom's). it's been 3.5 years so it's a long time since i really questioned the idea at all. and i'm not questioning it now really, more just pausing to think about what it means i guess? like i say the mantras (good girls don't cum, i'm better when i'm wetter, etc) but they've become automatic, not things i really have to think about and so i don't.

and the thing is it's been so long i can't really compare well with before? if you ask me to think back to before i was denied, i always start with "i think" because it seems like a long time ago, i try to remember how often i used to cum, for example, and i'm not even sure? was it really that much or has my mind just created that memory of cumming constantly? am i so much more submissive? i know i am more so, but it's not like i wasn't submissive before. so trying to think of clear examples of HOW i'm better now is really hard.

maybe it would be more accurate to label this as journalling my denial, except i always think of those as more for yourself, and i actively enjoy other people's thoughts and input on this sort of thing. plus i kinda think the problem is i'm too close to it...

please no suggestions that i should cum or end my denial though.

hope it's okay to post this sort of thing here, I know lots of people are mostly looking for porn but I love kink discussion.

of course there's space for all flavours but for me personally (as an owned but free-use, orgasm-denied slut) what gets me in a super submissive and also super horny state is Men who disrespect me without any anger, or hate. there's totally a place for the posts calling us worthless cunts amd cumrags of course, but for me the Men who seem the most in control and superior are the ones who don't (even in kink play) dislike women, maybe even would say they love women, but also know they are smarter and more important than us.

a Man who indulges my little thoughts and interests, but laughs at the idea of taking them seriously, who enjoys my conversation but doesn't hesitate to correct my mistakes, who reminds of the limitations of my brain without any animosity, who makes it clear what my body and holes are for and whose pleasure is important without physical insults. lots more possibilities in there but hopefully you get the idea! condescension, gaslighting and a bit of indulgent mockery are such a mindfuck, you can basically do anything with me at that point.

any Men who enjoy that style of play? want to explain it better than i could? or women with thoughts (if we can be said to have them lol)?

eta: please know this post is not meant to be complaining about or criticising any other content on this sub! nor am i suggesting that aggressive/angry posts on here must reflect genuine hate/anger. i'm just genuinely looking for interesting conversation on a specific variant of the kink!

it's so good but it gets me so close and i can't stop squirming... so goddamn horny my pussy is screaming to cum but i won't... i haven't been allowed in so long and i know its better for me but my pussy doesn't know that.

remind me why good girls don't cum? or tell me how many edges i should do before i sleep? or give me pornto watch to make it worse?

I don't know what it is, the temperature heating my body up or the fact that I'm wearing less or what, but it makes me so fucking horny, even more than normal. and makes me just want to be slutty and needy, hang out nude or sluttily exposed in the sun, have men able to casually grope under my dress or bend me over and fuck me with no resistance. it gets me dreaming about being in a private villa somewhere, where I can just be a free use orgasm-denied toy for a group.

anyone else or am I just weird? should probably add that where I am it's not as hot as a lot of places. just really nice summer temperatures, not "too hot to touch another person" temperatures haha.

flair chosen because hearing other people's thoughts snd ideas in here always encourages me, and I always need encouragement...

men who love fucking a fully denied pussy.

when their cocks get hard from our needy squirming and whining. when they get harder and hornier from not letting us cum, or just from knowing we aren't allowed to. when they enjoy the fuck more the more we suffer from neediness and frustation, when they cum harder and better knowing they're leaving us in desperate agony and hornier than ever.

chose the flair because i'm edging my pussy to the thought of it, and i'd love to hear from men about how/why you enjoy this, or other denied girls about your thoughts on it too. all making me and hopefull others hornier!

eta: not at all complaining, there are lots of hot replies to this! but it's funny to me that i got lots of comments about what people enjoy about denied girls generally, including anal and oral while ignoring her needy pussy (again, not complaining, it's always hot to read about that) when i was specifically fantasising about the men who love to fuck and cum in a denied pussy, without letting her cum. obviously i wasn't very clear in my edging haze!

I've been denied so long, it doesn't make any difference to me, but I always enjoy seeing the girls who do it as a challenge! But this year I honestly forgot it was even a thing until I started seeing the posts here and realised "Oh yeah"!

New step in long term denial I guess, forgetting that some girls actually get to cum in the times between challenges!

Not sure about the flair I picked. Not really journalling, but there's no flair for casual conversation haha

As you'll see if you look up my profile, I already post in miso subs a bunch, and have been told a lot that I clearly know my place.

Truth is, I'm just playing. A lot of the time I'm saying what I know the men on those subs want to hear, maybe that makes me the manipulator? It's fun to role-play, but it's just a kink. Out in the real world, I'm as feminist as the next woman.

I put my flair as on the fence, though, because of how much the conversations on those subs turn me on. Do I need converting? Can I be converted (I'm generally pretty immune to real manipulation)? Do I want to be converted? All questions I'm asking myself as I write this, so yeah, as the title says, I'm seeing what happens.

Just some thoughts this morning. Yesterday I had a really extra horny day with lots of teasing and edging, hours of it. Fell asleep edged, woke up horny.

Realistically, I don't spend every day like that. I've been denied more than three years, it's an integrated part of my life, I don't cum, my pussy's always achey, it takes almost nothing to get me in the mood. That's just the baseline, before I do any touching.

But a lot of the time I have to put that on the back burner and get on with life, because I'm an adult with a job and a full life. So I go about my day with that restless horny feeling in my pussy, but it's so normal I barely notice it when I'm busy with something else.

Yesterday was really hard - so much fun, but I was suffering so much from being so needy and desperate, my pussy was in agony wanting to cum all day.

Today I woke up thinking maybe I could just make it an easier day. I'm not at work, I have nothing particular going on, no real plans. I haven't been given any tasks or edging expectations. But do I really want to struggle the way I did yesterday? I could just distract myself, make it easy again.

Then I pulled myself together.

Long term denial isn't meant to be easy. The point isn't to forget about it, it's to have a horny, needy, desperate pussy for other people's entertainment. It's to be a wet brainless slut as much of the time as possible. And I have nothing on today so it's fully possible.

Sometimes denial (my kind of denial) is about keeping going even when you're not sure you're in the mood. Getting to the point where you could either clear your head and push the horny down to the bottom for an easy day, or work your pussy back up until its torture and uou can't think anymore. And making yourself choose the second option.