First off I am happily married for 20+ years. I’m just looking for someone to chat with while throughout the day. My wife is a stay at home mom and we homeschool our 3 kids. She’s is really busy during the day and doesn’t have a lot of time to text.
*notabot
I’m looking for a friend to fill that texting void and get to know
A few years back my wife (46) and I (50) wanted to try the hotwife lifestyle. At the beginning we both enjoyed her meeting and being with other people male and female. After about a year it was taking an emotional toll on our marriage and family. We decided to stop, focus on rebuilding our marriage and family. We went to counseling and back to church. We have an amazing marriage, emotional connection and sex.
Unfortunately I still at times think back to those moments. I still love to brag about my wife while also hearing from other male and females describe what they want to do with her while I masturbate.
Then the post nut clarity kicks in and I feel completely guilty and horrible. Reminding myself this is not how a Godly marriage is suppose to be. She knows I still think about those times and also my bragging and sharing with others. Neither one of us want to go back to that lifestyle, but I can’t stop myself thinking about it.