22 [F4A] #nyc - i fucked up & need to be punished
i won’t go into detail here but i’ve made a big mistake and i feel absolutely horrible and annoyed at myself over it, as it cost me a significant chunk of my grade. i need to let that out in some way, and i’m hoping it can be at the hands of a capable sadist who doesn’t shy away from intense scenes.
i’m looking mainly for impact, whether that’s with your hand or a belt or a cane or anything else. i’m seeking a disciplinarian, i suppose, not someone who wants sex specifically, but who gets off on making me regret my actions. i want to cry over your lap or bent over with my ass darkening to a nasty purple, as you show no mercy and dig your nails further into bruised flesh.
i have other posts on my profile that detail other things im into, but this has a very specific exigency, so i won’t go into them here. TLDR: no sex/no penetration, just pure punishment in whatever form you wish, preferably a hard and thorough spanking. maybe enhanced with edging that never allows me an orgasm at the end, or with a ginger root or some sort of chemical play, or with intense verbal abuse.
just been having a rough time & dealing with it in the second healthiest way i know (first is therapy, don’t worry, i’m sane). x