u/bunnyprincess9715

In the past couple of years I experienced some online sub/dom relationships. 2 were long-term and ended with me being ghosted. Recently i tried finding someone new but all im getting are people trying to pray upon my vulnerability and push me past my limits. I just really dont understand why people do this, it has made me deeply tired of people pretending to be doms when they are obviously sadistic sociopaths. Im obviously not saying all doms are like that and also know subs can be extremely toxic too. I just wanted to vent in a community that understands me. In my opinion is the best to completely give up being submissive and try to repress everything im sure it wont be that bad.

Ive been very submissive all my life. 3 years ago i ended a 6 year relationship with my ex. Depression pushed me in to buying a remote control toy and played with people on there. I found 3 good doms which we played with for some months even with one of them for a year. It was nice but with time they all left me. Am in a bad mental place were i don’t wanna meet anyone in real life for now. I try to take it slow and ignore my kinks but I cant. I think for me its best to give up but a big part of me cant. I need advice is it better to give it up or try again.