Part 1: I got this spanking for sassing my Dom three times in two days. The first time was for talking back over text when he wouldn't let me cum during a guided masturbation session. The other times were teasing him in person about a game we were playing. Definitely worth it, though!
It is more than a want; this feeling inside me that only she provides.
She is a good girl. She is put together and thoughtful. She runs the world around her constantly. Always making plans for the future, working to shape her environment to fit around her in exactly the way she wants. She can be unassuming, because she knows just how to get what she wants. Charisma is her weapon of choice. There is a way about her that makes people want to give her every thing that she wants. But I see through her to the truth.
It is a facade. What others don’t see is that she has always been a pot of water on the edge of boiling. Her lust is ravenous and all consuming. She desires something outside of the way she has to live in the light of day. She wants to be controlled. She wants the reins taken away as her mind is emptied of stress. Her body filled with pleasure. She yearns to submit to someone that has earned the privilege. Someone worthy of caring for her needs and using her for theirs.
But somewhere along her path the flame beneath her was left unattended. The roiling waters within her slowed to a simmer as the fire crumbled away to embers. She settled into a calm normal. She pushed her desires deep down, into a place that she can only grasp with her fingertips in the comfort of her solitude.
I watched her live like this as a friend for many years, our paths crossing here and there. I would grasp for her but could never catch hold. Until one day, not too long ago, when we finally stopped for a moment on our paths. I reached for her and found her skin to be soft and warm under the caress of my fingers. I grasped her neck, and the breath that weakly escaped her was just enough. Enough to bring life back to those embers long forgotten.
Her waters are roiling again now. The flame mine to nurture. A task I work at eagerly. Our kisses are kindling. Every embrace, oxygen. Each caress is a log on the fire, and when I fill her up in just the right ways, she boils over with ecstasy.
Nothing else matters except for her. I take care of her exactly the way she wants, so that she can go about her day exactly the way she needs. Safe and secure in the trust that I won’t leave her to simmer anymore.
Anal hook tied to a collapsed lark's head in the hair
Hi everyone! In case you're wondering how reward & punishment trackers work, here's mine from the past few weeks.
We track my rewards and punishments in a draft post here on Reddit, but you can track them in any space you both share. My Dom is usually the one to update the tracker, but I can add bullets as long as I note that they're from me for him to approve (or reject, when he's mean). We each spend time commenting on the submissions to extend our play.
We have other Reddit post drafts that list the rules he has for me, anytime I masturbate, rewards for me, and punishments for me.
- Kitten
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Punishments will be issued for every 3 demerits. Rewards will be earned for every 20 points.
Demerits:
- Friday
- Saturday
- Sunday
- Monday
- Tuesday
Points:
- Friday
- Saturday
- Sunday
- Monday
- Tuesday
- Wednesday
- Thursday
- Friday
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Over the course of those days, I earned 28 demerits and 114.1 points, which translated into 9 punishments and 5 rewards given over the course of two days that we had set aside for this play.
We worked together to come up with a list of possible rewards and punishments and then the actual ones I'd receive. Here's what we ended up doing.
Punishments:
- Spanking
- Face fucking
- Anal hook bondage (now solidly in the reward column instead of punishment)
- Golden Shower on body
- Forced orgasm/overstimulation
- Predicament bondage
- Ignored blowjob
- Breath play
- Get fingered while peeing
As a note, all of these were funishments (e.g., spanking) or things I was nervous about but willing to try (e.g., golden shower). That's because he isn't actually trying to affect my behavior; these punishments are designed to increase the stakes and emotions of our sex life and play out fantasies for one or both of us.
Rewards:
- Full body massage
- Sensory overload
- Nipple worship
- Petting with head in lap
- Slow oral with rough fingering
These were my official rewards, though I felt my Dom's love and devotion to me sooo many times over these days!
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There you have it! A full cycle of tracking and rewards/punishments. I'd love to hear how others bring rewards and punishments into their play, if you'd like to share!
- Kitten
I told you this already but will tell you again. Punishments aren’t meant to be easy. It requires surrender from you. Surrender of control. Surrender of inhibitions. Surrender of shame and dignity.
You don’t need any of those things when we are alone together. I will take the control and go slow, the pace that you need to feel comfortable. I will lock away your inhibitions and create a space where your wildest fantasy can become a reality. I will strip you of your shame and replace it with pride. Pride that you can handle so much more than you thought possible. Pride in knowing that you make me feel things that nobody else in the world can. And I will protect your dignity, untarnished by what we do together in the safety of our love and lust. And afterward, when you are laying in my arms, catching your breath as I run my fingers through your hair, I will return that dignity to you. So that when you go out into the world, everyone will see you just as purely as they did before.
Only I will know the ways your body writhes and aches. The way your breathing gets heavier as you descend. The way your pussy slickens and softens in anticipation of me. The way you are doing now, reading this.
It isn’t a simple thing when you think too much. It feels impossible or impractical. That is a normal reaction to have when you don’t feel like you can let your facade go. But you don’t need that facade with me. When we are together our masks can melt away. You love me. You trust me. So surrender everything to me and be my special kitten. Let me make life simple for you.
All I did was update my reward and punishment with totally fair and accurate notes like "Wore a sexy shirt (40 points)" and "Was cute (20 points). And yet here I am having to do a public admission of guilt. So I guess I hope you enjoy my breasts!
It started when I clumsily groped you in bed that day. It was a touch that shouldn’t have happened but it did. And you didn’t shy away, you embraced it. I knew then that you still had feelings for me. I also knew that you had thought of me fondly, in your fantasies. The same way I thought about you. From that point I knew I couldn’t go back.
I chased you for a long time, moved to be closer to you. Hoping that the closeness to you would lead somewhere. And then it did. To that night, in my room, when I grabbed your throat and held you there. You exhaled deeply and in the next breath took me into you. I became a part of you then even though we weren’t quite ready to be who we are now.
It was a chaotic time, we both wanted so much but had lived these lives apart and had to take time to learn each other. I learned how to play with you, to understand all the facets of you and how to love them deeply. And you learned how to serve me, taking things you didn’t find pleasurable and finding a new pleasure in them, with me.
Now you kiss me with an open and eager mouth, yearn for my touch, relish my taste and use your tongue to explore every part of my body. You seek my compliments and affirmation, you depend on me to tame you and take you to subspace. You still play like a brat sometimes, but only because you desire to see the me that reins you in and makes you obedient.
You watch me constantly, always at the ready for a chance to be together. You share your fantasies with me knowing I will fulfill them all. You let me dress you how I want and are even buying clothes just for me. I own you now and you couldn’t be happier. I couldn’t be happier either.
So kitten decided that she wanted to be cute and play around with our punishment and reward tracker. The edits messed with all the work I have been putting in to make sure her behavior is being appropriately recorded.
As a result of that she will be posting in here in the near future to let everyone know that she has been bad and needs punishment.
Edit: After reading comments I agree and have removed all calls to action from the post.
First, a massage. Along your shoulders and arms. Your neck and back, slowly working my way down. As I approach your butt, I give you a little lick on the cheek.
I spread your cheeks and tease your the area around your ass with a single finger, never quite touching the spot you want. Then in one motion, I drop down and lick roughly across your perineum and anus before giving you soft, little licks. My tongue pushes into your anus and thrusts in and out.
Then you turn over onto your back. I continue my massage down your thighs and calves, rubbing small circles into your skin. I make my way to your feet and rub each section thoroughly before bringing your big toe into my mouth and gently sucking on it. I swirl my tongue around the tip of your toe then pull it out of my mouth with a soft pop.
I pull up onto all fours over you and press my breasts together with my arms to accentuate them. I innocently ask you what you want next, as if I didn't already know.
Your answer brings a smile to my face, and I get to work. I lick my lips until they glisten then position them above your cock, which is already starting to harden. I take you into my mouth, all the way to the base and feel you flex and grow into the back of my throat. You let out a soft groan of pleasure.
I spend a minute getting saliva all over your shaft, as messy as I can make it. Once your cock is shiny, I detach my lips and move up your body for a sloppy, wet kiss on your mouth.
Now I'm in the perfect position for the next phase. I grab your cock with the tips of my fingers and position it near my pussy. I rub the head around my opening for a few circles then slowly push you inside of me. This time, I moan with pleasure. Your muscles tense as you move your hands to my hips and drive them up and down on top of you. Whenever you're hilted to the base, I grind my hips into yours.
I can tell by your breathing that you're approaching climax, but I'm not done with you yet. I unsheathe you from me and position myself a little farther forward. I grab your cock again and ask if you want to be in my ass. Are you sure? Are you positive? Are you really positive?
Finally, I relent and push you into my back door. I reach to the side and grab my favorite vibrator. I hand it to you and tell you that you're not allowed to cum until I do. As you turn it on and press it to my clit, I begin to move up and down. Up and down. Up and down.
The pressure in my ass feels amazing, and you're holding onto me just tightly enough to keep the vibrator pressed to me. Up and down. Up and down.
Finally, I feel my body convulse as waves of pleasure go through me. I roll off of you to the side. You make a desperate face at me, and I smirk before returning to all fours, waving my ass in your direction. I tell you to use me for your pleasure.
I certainly don't need to tell you twice. Before I know it, you're behind me, on top of me, railing into my ass once again. I make small noises of approval at you, and a minute later, you fall over the edge, too, collapsing across my back.