u/coffeebean1188

I’m soon going to college in a new city. New chances of finally becoming the slut I want to be, but I’m afraid I still don’t have it in me. My social anxiety gets in the way of me being flirty and outgoing, making advances on someone or going along with advances being made on me. I often feel invisible, not desirable, and I think it’s mostly because of my closed off attitude.
Would anyone like to crack me open and teach me how to be a good outgoing slut? Teach me how I can become a good and easy victim and how to not be a coward when I get preyed upon? How to get bad men to see me and approach me? And perhaps groom me into becoming less prudish, chipping away at my boundaries, grooming me into becoming more ok with being violated by older men. I want to become the campus rape slut

I’m a 22-year-old gay trans guy and I feel like I’d make the perfect victim for bad men: I’m small, underweight, a people pleaser too scared to say no, submissive, and of course craving rape and abuse. But for some reason I only tend to attract the nicest people in the world haha. Could I be doing something wrong? How do I get the depraved old men to set their eyes on me as their next victim? Perhaps my shyness sometimes comes off as distant or closed-off?

I love verbal/dirty talking cnc porn, but it’s so hard to find, especially ones where they actually use the word “rape”. It’s such a huge turn-on for me but it’s so hard to search for. Does anyone know any videos or search terms?