Unique d/s dynamics (or: i want to be top dog)
For about as long as I've been a person, I've known that I was a wolf. Not in a therian or reincarnated-from-a-wolf way, just that I feel so embodied by the animal that I could only ever imagine myself as one. I have multiple sets of ears, tails (clip-on and otherwise), and even a tattoo of a wolf paw print on my butt. My first plush animal was a wolf. I have dozens of wolf plushes, blankets, and cool posters, etc.
So, I'm a domme and a top. I enjoy being aggressive, biting, snarling, everything. Which is great for subs and me because they get ravaged and I get to be a woman-eating monster.
Buuuttttt I also like pet play. And being the pet. And this is where things get complicated. When I do pet play, I want to be the domme wolfish girl I always am, but I want to be called puppy and have my tummy rubbed and generally engage in a lot of behavior people would see as being submissive. But the way I see it, you should be so lucky to have this big evil predator show such vulnerability around you!
However, most people who are submissive and into pet play generally prefer to be the pet and be ordered around/treated like an animal/etc. Which leaves me in the weird space where when I explain my fantasies to people, they're all like, "woah, I've never heard of pet play being done like that before!" And it can be frustrating but I understand! It's a unique dynamic. I want someone to be my handler and then get overpowered and lose to the pleasure of being rutted and "forced" to have my puppies. Which I think is so deliciously degrading, to be a human used by an animal. Anyways.
Does anyone else have any odd dynamics they practice? Is there hope for me yet??? Woof woof 🐺🐺🐺