u/eloquentjester

I was only seriously introduced to this side of kink within the last year but it's been the absolute best thing that's ever happened. I love taking care of my little, making sure she's been a good girl, and doing things that she pinky promises to keep a mommy daughter secret.

My only complaint is that I have to be the adult and go to work and school. But (not) soon enough I'll be done with school and I'll make enough money that I can spoil my little forever. She won't want for anything. It's my driving factor that gets me through my crqppy job, knowing that I need and her to provide for her in all the ways

Not really a vent as much as a ramble

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Holy hell it seems every week i discover some new kink i never thought I'd have or one I'm at least willing to try for her. When we met I figured i was kinkier than her just because that's how it always seemed to go, but I've never been happier to be proven wrong. She's opened my eyes to do many new things that I just dismissed outright without giving them a chance and seeing the light in her eyes when I'm okay with things is amazing. Now I'm typing this at work, suffering with little AC and no deodorant because she likes my pits too "have flavor". She's got a cage in the office that she sleeps in, and coloring books. For the longest time I only thought of BDSM in terms of S&M, maybe some suspension, but since we got together it's been a whole world of experience. Don't get me wrong, i still get to indulge in my more sadistic side, but my god I'm so much more fulfilled being a mommy than i ever was just being a mistress.

Holy crap the weight of my dynamic just hit me. I asked my little to do me a small favor while I'm at work. "Sure thang mom". Mom. Not mommy, not mistress, just... mom. I don't know if I should laugh or cry or what. I'm so overwhelmed with emotions, my shoulders feel so heavy now. To be clear I'm not complaining, but i feel like I just dunked my head in an ice bath the way she woke me up with that little word. I never wanted to be a mother irl, but the fact that my little relies on me so much and I'm such an integral part of her life that she would call me mom... I need a minute to process everything...

I met my wonderful little 9 months ago now. I'm so proud of her, she's the best little girl a mommy could ask for. I'm not going to ramble on like the proud parent i am I promise. Thing is, I've never been a mommy before. I'm scared of doing the wrong thing, though I'm working on building my confidence as a caregiver. I worry that I'm not doing enough as I've never had her enter little space even partially. I mean she calls me mommy and I set bed times, diet restrictions things like that, but I've never seen the full thing from her (admittedly I've only had a brief interaction with anyone in little space before now so maybe I'm mistaken). How do I help her being out the little girl I know she is? I do my best to provide a nurturing space for her, but i feel like I could do more.

Thanks!