u/erotic-gem

Hi everyone. I just wanted to share and ramble a little.

I used to play with orgasm denial on and off for years. I'd edge and deny myself for weeks, fantasizing about permanent denial, then let myself cum when it got too much. I eventually gave it up and was honestly enjoying just being able to orgasm normally again.

Then I started antidepressants. They're genuinely helping me in every other way so I have zero plans to stop or switch them. But the sexual side effects hit hard. My libido tanked, and now when I do try to cum it's either impossible or ridiculously weak and underwhelming. For the last couple of months, it's like my body just won't let me finish properly anymore.

The only thing that still feels good is edging. I catch myself doing it whenever I can because that achy, desperate feeling is the only strong sensation I have left atm. It's both frustrating and incredibly hot as hell to me.

I keep reading stories from people who stopped the meds and still couldn't cum properly afterward. And right now I want that so bad for myself. Like, what if this is just my new normal and what if I really can't get myself to cum anymore, even if I wanted to? That would be a tragedy.

Please, universe. Please manifest permanent denial for me! Please keep me in this needy mess forever