Hi everyone,
I’ve been thinking about my past lately and wanted to get some outside perspective.
When I was younger, I had a bit of a problem with heroin. I never injected, but I was smoking it and using it nasally. It lasted around 3–4 months where I was using pretty much every day.
During that time, I went through withdrawal a few times (like 2–3 times, each lasting about a week), and it was honestly horrible. I was really sick—vomiting, feeling completely awful—it was one of the worst experiences I’ve had.
I eventually stopped after someone I knew died, and that hit me hard. That was about 4 years ago. Since then, I haven’t really had cravings.
I did have a couple of slip-ups about 1–2 years ago, but it wasn’t heroin—more like lighter opioids (Tramadol) and some cocaine during a really bad breakup. It didn’t turn into a pattern, just isolated situations.
Last year was actually a really rough time for me overall. I lost my job at a large bank, got kicked out of my apartment, and ended up crashing on a friend’s couch for about six months. It was probably my lowest point in years—but even then, I didn’t go back to heroin or any regular use.
These days, I don’t use anything. I don’t smoke weed, I don’t drink alcohol, and overall my life is in a really good place. I have a girlfriend, things feel stable, and I’d say I’m living a pretty healthy life.
Lately I’ve just been thinking about it again—not because I want to use, but more wondering if that chapter is actually behind me. In the beginning it was really hard, but now it feels so far away that I don’t really know how to think about it anymore.
I guess my question is: does this sound like I’m truly past it, or is this something I should still actively worry about long-term? I don’t feel tempted anymore, but I also don’t want to be naive.
Would really appreciate any thoughts or similar experiences.
Thanks.