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I have gained about 10lbs since April. I am now entering obesity territory. My belly is always round and taut, even when I lay down. I hvae allowed myself to enjoy treats, creamy coffees, desserts, and high calory meals without worrying about gaining weight.
I was just walking down the hallway at work after lunch. I noticed how I was slightly out of breath, and my full belly was pulling down and out in front of me.
It made me feel warm, calm, and present. Gaining weight is actually helping me feel grounded and in my body. It feels wonderful.
T is really making all my gains go to my belly. It is always so round and taut. I cannot get enough of it. As of 2 days ago, I was at 176lbs. My height is 5'5".
I thought it would take a lot more weight to get to this point but here we are...
The best part is that I go back to work tomorrow after having the summer off, and almost an extra 10 lbs of belly.
Allowing myself to eat and gain weight has been extremely healing so far. I have been aroused by weight gain since before I can remember. Not only am I finally listening to that voice but I am also allowing myself to eat whatever sounds good, after a lifetime of restrictive eating behavior.
Today, i rested. I didn't do any exercise and I mostly spent the day eating or sleeping. Yet, i have had 2 delicious meals already, and I am looking firward to a satisfying and filling dinner.
Before, I would have looked at my round belly and wide hips and decided I should eat a very small dinner. Now? I cannot wait to eat again. I get so excited about the idea of a delicious meal.
Anyone else doing this for the pleasure of eating, and enjoying the "accidental" weight gain that comes with it?
I (5'5")weighed in myself at 176lbs today. A week and a half ago, it was 174lbs. I haven't been stuffing per se, but I have been adding as much creamer as i want to my coffee, and pesto to my meals, and butter... and i have taken myaelf out for a pastry or a treat if I felt like it.
My stomach is now always round. Even when I am lying down. I also tried on shorts that were loose a few months ago (i could lower them without unbuttoning them) and they are a lot tighter now.
As I embark on this journey, i want to document all the little ways in which my body changes.
Tonight, i was driving back from dinner with a friend. We went to a thai restaurant. As I ate more and more of my drunken noodles, i noticed my belly got bloated to the point of touching the table. This is new. It had never happened to me. My friend's belly was, of course, nowhere near the table.
We didn't order dessert, which was a shame. I stopped at a gas station and got a big bag of peanut m&ms. One of those that comes with a zipper thing because you're supposed to close the bag and save some for another time. Well... mine lasted a whole car ride. I was starting to feel full towards the end. I was burping a little after every sip of water. My belly was noticeably round. But there were onlt a few left. It would have been a shame to not eat them.
As i am driving, i realized something: i cannot see the lap portion of my seatbelt. It is fully hiding under my belly. I remember a time when the lap portion would be fully visible, pressed against a much flatter stomach. When did this change? To top it off, when i unblucked the seat belt, it got stuck halfway, under my belly. I had to manually rmove it so that it could retrieve fully.
The kicker: i am not even into the obese BMI yet!
How much bigger am I gonna get?!
Now that I (M, 41) have allowed myself to eat to my heart's content, my stomach is always bloated. Sometimes, it's not even about the amount i am eating. But I am allowing myself to add cream, butter, sauces, dressings and breads to most of my meals.
I LOVE how round and taut my belly looks all the time now. I think i'm gonna start adding some seltzer water, too, so I can walk around looking pregnant all day.
I go back to work next week and I cannot wait to show up visibly bigger than when summer started.
Lately, i've realized that losing weight is also part of this fantasy for me. I think about getting noticeably bigger... to the point that friends tell me they are concerned. So i start to lose weight. But i struggle, so i tell them all about how hard it is. We go out to eat and I order huge amounts, even though they know i am on a diet. I lose some weight, only to regain it. The shame of the struggle and the dissappointment is part of the fantasy. And, of course, losing weight alows us to regain it...
I guess i had to update with an end-of-day pic. I am going to bed pleasently full. I am a bit concerned about having a doublechin already so early on... but i'm starting to find it endearing.
Ok, I've decided I actually want to share a pic, as long as it is not explocit and non-identifiable.
This is my morning belly. On empty. I am actually really hungry, hehe. I am making myself pulled pork and scrambled eggs on a ciabatta roll and pesto. So good...
As of last Thursday, I was at 174lbs. I've had a very indulgent 4 days since then, so, not sure if the scale would still read the same.
Hello all - i recognize most of the usernames from other subs. It's nice to have one of our own.
I don't feel comfortable posting pictures online yet. But, now that I have been on T for a while and had top surgery a year ago, i am starting to see fat redistribution and a bigger belly. It's very exciting. I want it to get a bit bigger, even.
It is also conflicting because I have to undo a lifetime of messages telling me to remain small and pretty to be attractive. So, I am going into it slowly and mindfully. For right now, i am just allowing myself to eat whatever sounds good without forcing it or denying myself.
I am up 5 lbs in the oast few months. I am currently 174lbs, which puts me almost to the obese BMI. My first short-term goal is 180lbs, at 5'5".
Anywho... sorry for the lack of picture. But ai look forward to updating you on how nu body is changing.
(Edited to add flair)
I (FTM 41) have been into this for longer than I can remember. To me, gaining weight was not just sexual, but part of my identity. I love food. I love eating and sharing with others. And i love a big round tummy.
However, i never allowed myself to fully give in because of the societal pressures to stay thin and "pretty." But now... i have been on HRT for about 18 months, and I had top surgery a year ago. T makes me so horny that all I can think of is gaining weight. And, the bigger I get, the more i feel like i am coming into my own.
It is very gender affirming. I wasn't supposed to be just a guy. My gender is fat trans guy. I love that.
I would love to hear other people's perspectives on this.
I just finished all 5 cinnamon rolls i baked today. I washed it down with soda My belly is distended and happy. So soft, wobbly, and warm.
I am going out tonight. I can't wait to feel my shirt around my belly: tight, stretched out. And I am already dreading having to wear jeans while i drive there. I may need to unbutton them... and these are the biggest jeans I could find before going to the XL section of the store...
